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The VISUALISER for Kartina is now out
Remember this is not the full music video we have been talking about for a year: that comes shortly.
Please go watch this 🙏

6 days ago | [YT] | 5

idoblenderstuffs

Been starting work on making the funtime animatronics because I need them for an MSD reason I will not spoil, firstly funtime foxy for some reason.

That's fur on the back of his head, yeah. I also didn't use the regular blender hair system for this, instead using it to instance a plane with just the top half of a silhouette of a tree texture on it all over the furry surface and with some normals fuckery it looks pretty damn good. Maybe regular hair particles could look better but guess what fuck you.

Oh also his eyes close like camera shutters which I thought would be really cool because you get to have the "moment where the robot goes evil and his eyes turn scary" in a way which doesn't look THAT ridiculous. Second photo attached shows this at like 50% closed to give you an idea.

I plan to focus more on the circusy theme of the funtimes, while still retaining what makes them who they are. I took inspiration from The Hare's concept art he posted although his designs stray a lot further from the source material and try a bit too hard to be creepy looking for my taste, as these are supposed to perform for children apparently.

In other news my social life is getting a lot better all of a sudden, primarily because of two new people. Or well, one of them I met last year when she was playing five nights at Candy's remastered on one of the college PCs and I happened to be near her. Never got her name at the time but around two weeks ago I did and I've been trying to spend more time around her when I can. She's a trans woman like me but she's like 0% progressed in that transition so they just look like a regular guy, which I guess is better than some people who get 10% in and just end up looking weird.

What's more important though is the other person who I've met through her. This one is the second ever cis woman that I've been friends with which is great because I really wanted to get over my fear of them and its helping. I haven't really told her much about my blender stuffs yet but she seems to actually take interest in me and I've even shared some more surface level political opinions and she's reacted normally to them which is good.

Though I'm still kinda freaked out as to why Sarah cut me off despite barely knowing me but it's much easier to not think about it when I have other things going on now.

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2 weeks ago | [YT] | 17

idoblenderstuffs

been working on refining the intro sequence of MSD before i fully focus on chapter one right now. heres a little look at it.

in other words uh idk if i did mention it but kartina is 100% finished unless we change our minds on something. i havent actually watched the whole thing yet myself but its exported and i guess i just havent gotten around to watching it in full like that.

college is EXTREMELY boring because we get nowhere near enough work to do and so most lessons are just sitting completely still for 2.5 hours trying my hardest to zone out. im at a point in my life where i dont really have many friends and certainly nobody whos "best friend" material, which is hard since i spent like 10 years of my life used to the dynamic of having two extremely close best friends but that all fell apart almost two years ago and its getting to me badly now. somehow my "super antisocial" friend managed to actually befriend this girl pretty quickly (lets call her Sarah), and i took the opportunity to snatch that friend for myself since the social barrier had already been broken and it was okay to talk to this person so why not make them my best friend. she was actually great and very quickly decided we should all go on a day out together and started planning it. we had a date in mind, but the very night before she cancelled, said something came up apparently to do with her dad.

the next day she didnt really get to talk to me, and the one after i woudlve had a lesson with her but she asked to sit by herself. i get that, people need space sometimes. but what confused me was that she wasnt sat by herself, but instead with a different friend. weird, but i tried not to overthink it. the next day comes around and shes actively avoiding me, i see her in a corridor, she sees me, and she turns 180 degrees to find another way around. i was genuinely panicking all day because like why??? did someone tell her something about me? was it even true??? will i EVER even know why? and of course this all accumulated when during the start of my final lesson i looked at my phone to see that she had blocked me, as well as blocked my other friend who i met her through. yes i had a panic attack. yes i had to ask to leave the room. yes i went on a bus home immediately and went to bed.

its not even the fact that Sarah doesnt like me anymore, its the constant questions as to WHY. one (previously working) theory was that while organising that day out, she told her dad about me and my friend, and he said she cant see us anymore because we are transgender. but the other theory is that someone told her something behind my back that is either completely not true, or an extreme stretch of the truth. my best idea as to what she was told about is this one event which happened multiple years ago in secondary school, where this group of people during lunch time were literally throwing trash at me, calling me slurs, and calling me a pedo (i have no idea where this came from as i havent ever had any sort of false accusations against me, it was just transphobia). my immediate reaction was to grab one of them, throw them into a wall, and start kicking them on the floor. apparently, this one in particular was female, which has spawned the rumour that im apparently only trans because i like to beat women (???), because of this ONE time that i hurt someone i didnt even know was female because she and her friends were being horrible to me.

the latter theory, as foreshadowed earlier, is the more likely one to be true, or at least some variation of it. this is because as of yesterday my other friend i met her through was sat with me waiting for class. we were talking for a while and i noticed that Sarah was sat purposefully far away from her class specifically to avoid us, and eventually my friend noticed. "oh i just realised that Sarah is sat right there by herself this whole time" and started going towards her. i stopped her like ??? dude shes literally avoiding us cant you see that. apparently Sarah had stopped avoiding my friend, and was actually talking to her again, and my friend said this like i shouldve already known or something? so the idea that shes just not allowed to talk to transgender people cannot be true, as this friend is similarly trans like i am. clearly shes heard something specifically about me that has made her feel the need to avoid me in real life and block me online.

i cant even rely on my friend there to find anything out for me because she is extremely non-confrontational, she will likely go years still being friends with both me and Sarah and never bring it up, and even if she does, she will not defend me. she has done this before, just being perfectly okay being friends with people who despise me and just accepting that "well theyre nice to me all of a sudden so oh well ill roll with it". this kind of behaviour is honestly one of the main reasons why i can never consider her best friend material. maybe i should be concerned that shes reading this, but is she really? has she ever taken an interest in my blender stuffs? no. she wont read this. if you do, congratulations, youre a better friend than i thought, i guess.


i can only distract myself from the issue at hand now by doing blender stuffs and replaying silent hill over and over again because the more i think about this, the more i end up having entire imaginary arguments with myself debating every possible scenario including ones that are ridiculously unlikely to be the case and it just frustrates me.

dont think ive actually vented through here before. usually just a typical life update with no hard feelings type of stuff. sorry about that one.

3 weeks ago (edited) | [YT] | 38

idoblenderstuffs

Honestly I fucking hate Google these days and part of me feels bad for even using YouTube.

None of the mainstream social medias are even that much better either so im just trapped here. I wish there was a good alternative to YouTube that'd fill the same hole in my life, so I could just unlist this channel and move to a better place, but I can't.

Also, no, I'm not just complaining about the AI age verification stuff. That stuff is cringe but it's SO surface level and I'm surprised that's the only reason people hate YouTube right now.

The capitalist system results in every big company ever to turn evil at some point and there's literally no escape. Google are doing irreparable damage to the Android OS right now and taking away every reason people pick it over iOS. I'm literally considering installing one of those mobile Linux distros that only just barely work properly because I hate this place.

If anyone is reading this right now I just wanna remind people of what I try and tell everyone. If you use a for-profit software or service and can find an alternative, please switch, or at least you can find a much lesser evil. It's for the betterment of mankind. We need to show that capitalism isn't the only option.

Use windows? Switch to Linux. Use Maya? Switch to Blender. Use any 2d art software? Switch to Krita, or maybe GIMP. Use Chrome? Switch to Waterfox, or Falkon. Use Discord? Switch to Revolt. Use a Nintendo Switch? Just throw it away honestly, get a Steam Deck or something, or any regular PC.

The world is terrible and the best we can do is support non-profit projects that aim to help us out of the goodness of their own hearts, and give creativity to as many as possible. Because despite what people insist is the truth, these projects exist, and will always exist. Not everything has to make money, not all of us care about that.

I genuinely just don't understand the entire worlds obsession with money. I sound like such a hippie, but like I don't get what all the fuss is about? I'll have enough to have a space to live and have food to survive and a PC to do Blender stuffs on and I'm set for life. You don't need to conform to their system.

1 month ago (edited) | [YT] | 10

idoblenderstuffs

easily the BEST animation of this song ever.
i really didnt expect The Hare to do so well with this song, i really didnt think this could have a The Hare style twist on it, but he pulled it off.
honestly i wish i could be as creative as he is when it comes to shot ideas and such. also, their lighting/compositing style has improved a lot and looks great.
absolute cinema. everyone should watch this NOW!!!!

kartina coming late october btws

1 month ago | [YT] | 3

idoblenderstuffs

image related is of my first ever fnaf fangame (that i remember) which i unearthed recently. stupid game.

kartina has been delayed to release in late october, rather than early september. i was on track to finish in time, but this gives me more time to refine some parts i didn't like very much. this was not my decision, but the one of dire thorns, as they just felt it better to release around that time instead. all of the lighting is finished, and i just have to render most of it and then do the video editing.

i spent today unable to think of anything other than how im sort of disappointed with dead by daylight's approach to the fnaf chapter. and so what did i do? wrote up an entire concept for how i wouldve done it differently. i intend to make a video similar to that one really popular dbd x fnaf concept video from a few years ago, but with my approach to everything. ive designed:

The Revenant (William Afton, Springtrap)
The Banshee (Elizabeth Afton, Scrap Baby)
The Mimic
Michael Afton
Vanessa Afton

i know, three killers? thats too much for one chapter. yeah. the mimic is more of a sequel chapter concept, and the banshee is just thrown in there for bonus content i guess.

1 month ago | [YT] | 5

idoblenderstuffs

I know I haven't sounded very political on my community posts for a while and bugger all people are actually gonna care about this post but it's worth complaining about this 1984 shit we are going through now. I don't have the energy to complain right now though so here's a good video which highlights a lot of the issues right now even if it's not the specific ones I'd bring up.

2 months ago | [YT] | 5

idoblenderstuffs

you may recognise this house but idk if it will even appear in MSD chapter one demo or not but i just felt like making this. been like a week of researching and floorplanning and whatnot.

i have tried my hardest to combine the appearences of this house we have seen many times over the years. every time it appears it is usually a little bit different, or represented as a little abstract. appearences include:

fnaf 4 title screen
fnaf 4 nighttime
sister location post-night
sister location breaker room
midnight motorist
help wanted
security breach
five laps at freddys
secret of the mimic

each of these vastly contradict eachother in a lot of ways but ive tried my best to keep a best of both worlds (or rather all 9 worlds) situation, and considering which ones are more canon than others and which ones might be intentionally less accurate or more abstract. also not trying to be 1000% accurate to the pixel as this stuff is still in my art style but yknow its supposed to be the canon layout (in my well researched opinion).

in other news im going back to college in just over a month and kartina is getting along still and should be done in time. also turns out its release date is not actually august 29th but itll be sometime after that date supposedly, we dont know yet. i intend to release my shot manager addon alongside it too, and have a lot of differences i want to make to it which may or may not be in the release version or in a subsequent update depending on how much time i get.

also i played a VERY good fnaf fangame called Banshee and i recommend anyone else play it. the true ending is relatively intuitive to unlock and its kinda neat. it shares a similar 90s/early 2000s aesthetic to my game and it helps make things feel a little spookier and such, very good, very nice. go play Banshee everyone.

i havent wrote one of these update posts in a long time and theres definitely a lot thats happened in my life that you guys have missed because i was too lazy to write a post! anyways i should be getting back to it consistently now so hello everyone welcome back.

2 months ago (edited) | [YT] | 6

idoblenderstuffs

uhmmm i think like August 29th is when the best song ever with the best animation ever (because it was done by me) comes out but i might be wrong because i didnt learn how to count

2 months ago | [YT] | 8

idoblenderstuffs

id really love to finish Secret of The Mimic on my own but theres unfortunately a huge softlock in the secret ending which has already caught me once before, and i WILL NOT go down there until the next patch comes out (which they say will definitely fix it). i have been spoiled about like half of it though, annoyingly.

also just discovered you literally cant get all the collectibles without new game +, even though ive played through the game twice now just the second one didnt count as ng+ for some reason.

3 months ago | [YT] | 6