Amanda Dances

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Amanda Dances

The thought is present every day upon waking, "I gotta keep moving!" But the motivation is stale and dusty. Despite fighting with my body and mind, somehow I manage to get up every day and do the bare minimum, which for me, is not curling back up into a ball in bed. I rise unrested, in pain, congested, swollen, thirsty and sometimes bitter from dreams, but I show up in whatever capacity I'm needed; usually as the feeder of the dogs, the taker of kids to school, and the wife that sees her husband off to work. Then my time is a mix of random interruptions and distractions; dogs needing attention, random calls and texts, things needing restocked at home, dishes, laundry, whatever else delays me from focusing in on my craft. Usually I spend at least 20-30 minutes waiting for my acetaminophen to kick in. I take shots of nasal spray to clear my sinuses, puffs of my albuterol to clear my lungs, rolaids to keep my stomach lining from revolting, and an antihistamine if needed; lately more so than not. The goal is always to get my butt down on the floor, stretching and moving, so that I can pump myself up to dance like a monkey for views. It seems my body prefers to cooperate at night, so I go with it, but then the energy kicks in and the desire to sleep creates a fear. "How will I feel in the morning!?" I already know. It's a cycle that never lets up. The only thing I know for certain, is that it makes me feel good and whole when I accomplish SOMETHING. ANYTHING! My emotional evolution from morning to night is absolutely determined by my willingness to MOVE despite my suffering. I remember a time when a daily walk was a necessity for me. It was the only way to clear my mind and kick-start my body into movement. I have a deep desire to get back to that time in my life where I prioritized movement over comfort. It seems very simple from an outside view, but the mind is a cage. Unlocking that cage once you've welded the doors shut takes brute force and heavy lifting. It doesn't just swing open when you push it. Instead, feelings bubble to the surface that attempt to block your inner lock picker. I've learned that the only way to move forward, is to...MOVE FORWARD! You gotta put one foot in front of the other and just GO! Never mind the people that stare and glare, never mind the pain - those obstacles will always be present and they don't deserve your attention. I prefer to laugh and smile and be helpful, but I feel caught up in grief and pain. What do I do? I use it! I put on the music that moves me and I just sway and flow. I roll my shoulders, I bend in half and touch my toes, I lift my arms and wave them around, and I wait until the beat fills my body and the vibrations burst through my fingertips. My knee gets sore? I ice it! My nerves flare in my spine? I soak! My thirst becomes unquenchable? I do my best to quench it. I'm no star athlete or world renowned dancer, but the ache and the desire are there. It is said, "you are what you think about," and for too long I have thought of myself as a failure. This mindset has been a poison to my soul. How can I be a failure when I succeed every day by giving life another chance? How can I be a failure when I actively set my mind on doing better day by day? It is no longer an option to be so defeated. I must practice what I preach! I must move!

A person who rises while hurting is not weak, they’re forged.

There's a rare category of human beings who have learned how to function through pain, fatigue, grief, fear, and sensory chaos. These people aren't robots, they're trained!

So...let the training commence!

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NEW MUSIC! TODAY! Saturday at 4pm central standard!

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How's everyone fairing in the cold?

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Our Christmas tree is covered in mold, so I improvised.

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1 week ago | [YT] | 2

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This is 2 plus hours of dancing and movement condensed into a minute of chaos. I have the hardest time attempting to edit my dances into tasty little clips for consumption. I do way better with 1 minute Shorts. When I first started this channel, I use to record myself dancing, then go back and find the exact segment of a song to match to a Short. This often resulted in the timing being off, which random people would notice and immediately point out...HOWEVER...I got WAY more dancing under my belt by doing it that way. As I continue with this channel, I try to come up with innovative ways to share my dances, while also avoiding copyright strikes. This was originally why I started combining my music making with my dance videos. I think it's time for another long-form video featuring me dancing to my own songs. With that said...stay tuned! I'm feeling a dancing livestream in the very near future...like, THIS weekend. Maybe even tonight! What's a good time for everyone? I'm in a central time zone, so keep that in mind! See you all soon! 😁💃🏼

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1 week ago | [YT] | 2

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I'm in the process of editing 2+ hours of video from dancing to a #meaningwave livestream by ‪@akirathedon‬ last night! Stay tuned for some fanciful clips! I'm also cooking a pot roast....and I friggin' LOVE pot roast!

BIG LOVE, EVERYBODY!
See you soon!
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show time!

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New poem/song!

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Goodnight! Everyone sleep tight!

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