why did no one tell me how fucking hideous i am. i can feel my wrists, biceps, thighs and other places tingling. but i promised not to relapse. im really trying but i cant. i cant live in this body anymore. i cant live with my feelings. i cant live.
people ask me why i find comfort in “Leatherface”. i can relate to him (minus some actions). he’s got bdp and adhd and probably some more things (not confirmed im guessing). but most importantly, he wears a mask to hide his face. he hates it like i do.
i wish i didn’t have the feelings that i do. i wish i was normal, i wish i didn’t have hypersexuality. i wish i was normal. i want to be normal. im going to take my life. i cant anymore.
i hate my face, i hate not being able to talk about my feelings, i hate my body, i hate my nose, I hate my fingers, i hate the people in my house, i hate the people at school, i hate school, i hate work, i hate me.
i
hate
myself.
idk if someone’s going to read it, and I wouldn’t blame you for not. thank you if you do.
I don’t know what’s wrong with me, im trying everything I can to help me eat better, but whenever I even see food I want to throw up everywhere. I just ate a few chips because im in the car and im about to get my grandma to pull over because im about to vomit everywhere. I don’t know what’s happening to me. I want to be normal. I want to eat. But I can’t. I need help but I don’t know how to ask so my last hope is someone seeing this and reaching out to me because im lost in my depression. Eva I don’t know if you see my posts or not but please help me. I need fucking mental help im actually about to commit I don’t know what’s wrong. If you do see this please just call me at the most you don’t even need to talk about this I just need someone to talk to I’ve been locked up alone all holidays.
Happy birthday to my beautiful best friend/wife. Ever since we met last year at camp, my life has actually changed. You’ve always been the one person who notices whenever I’m struggling, you make sure i eat and I don’t give away al my school lunch, and most importantly you’ve always chosen me over anyone else at our school. I love you so much and happy 14th birthday Ophelia
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i relapsed. im sorry.
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why did no one tell me how fucking hideous i am. i can feel my wrists, biceps, thighs and other places tingling. but i promised not to relapse. im really trying but i cant. i cant live in this body anymore. i cant live with my feelings. i cant live.
people ask me why i find comfort in “Leatherface”. i can relate to him (minus some actions). he’s got bdp and adhd and probably some more things (not confirmed im guessing). but most importantly, he wears a mask to hide his face. he hates it like i do.
i wish i didn’t have the feelings that i do. i wish i was normal, i wish i didn’t have hypersexuality. i wish i was normal. i want to be normal. im going to take my life. i cant anymore.
i hate my face, i hate not being able to talk about my feelings, i hate my body, i hate my nose, I hate my fingers, i hate the people in my house, i hate the people at school, i hate school, i hate work, i hate me.
i
hate
myself.
idk if someone’s going to read it, and I wouldn’t blame you for not. thank you if you do.
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Chip update
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I don’t know what’s wrong with me, im trying everything I can to help me eat better, but whenever I even see food I want to throw up everywhere. I just ate a few chips because im in the car and im about to get my grandma to pull over because im about to vomit everywhere. I don’t know what’s happening to me. I want to be normal. I want to eat. But I can’t. I need help but I don’t know how to ask so my last hope is someone seeing this and reaching out to me because im lost in my depression. Eva I don’t know if you see my posts or not but please help me. I need fucking mental help im actually about to commit I don’t know what’s wrong. If you do see this please just call me at the most you don’t even need to talk about this I just need someone to talk to I’ve been locked up alone all holidays.
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IM SORRY I DIDNT EAT TODAY SO I CANT POST ANYTHING SORRRYYYY
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Happy birthday to my beautiful best friend/wife.
Ever since we met last year at camp, my life has actually changed. You’ve always been the one person who notices whenever I’m struggling, you make sure i eat and I don’t give away al my school lunch, and most importantly you’ve always chosen me over anyone else at our school. I love you so much and happy 14th birthday Ophelia
ALSO ITS MY DOGS BIRTHDAY HAYAYAYAYAYA
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IM STARING A SERIEA WHERE I POST WHAT I EAT IN A DAY EVERYDAY FOR THE NEXT TWO WEEKS YAHAYAYAYAYYAYA
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BRO I HATE PERIOD CRAMPS LEAVE ME ALONE
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omw to Tyler im about to bust
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Finally posting after a while pmo it’s been so long 😞✌️
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