BlueCloud49

There are some sad things I want to say. Even though I've been writing stuff in this YouTube channel and uploading videos, I know there are little to no people who care about or even just see my stuff (which makes posts like this look a little silly). I know there are little to no people who watch and genuinely like my videos. Even if I've made my videos mainly for myself, it still stings to see them always ending up being watched and genuinely liked by almost no one, and always ending up fading into extreme obscurity. It is discouraging too. My drawn videos are a type of art form, they take days to make, I put time and effort into them, yet they're also what end up going unseen and not being liked much by others the most. The pictures I've been drawing and posting on other websites at least get some attention and positivity. No, I know it likely will always be like this, I likely won't be more noticed and liked in the future.

In fact, my videos used to be watched and liked by people so very much more in 2012-2014. I used to get thousands of views, many people watching my videos fully, many people liking them. My YouTube channel was one of the 2 main things that made me famous, the other being my DeviantArt. But I left YouTube for years because of wanting to disconnect myself from my past content (I no longer liked my old videos and I didn't want people to watch them anymore, and I wanted to leave a fandom that I had so much bad experiences with, I had left behind and moved on from that type of fandom content I made in 2012-2014 too) and removed my videos from those years from public (just one is still public currently), later I came back to YouTube in 2021, I was sort of rebranded. It was nothing like before. I was no longer someone who made videos that people found and cared about.

I'm not saying I'm quitting YouTube or video making, don't get me wrong. But I just don't like this, it is disappointing and sad. I had some friends who watched and liked my videos in 2022-2023, which I at least found some happiness in at the time, but most of them are no longer in my life at this point either. I just wanted to share my videos with people, some artworks that I made that I enjoy watching, enjoyable watching experiences I created with my time and effort, but people didn't like them, people didn't watch them, people didn't care, still don't, not much people got to find them either, still not much people do. Ouch... If you're somehow someone who actually properly watched/watches and likes my videos from 2020s, I really appreciate you.

10 months ago (edited) | [YT] | 4

BlueCloud49

This again... sadly, my video "baldi teaches math" and my doodle slideshow videos of the songs "Ship of Fools" and "A Little Respect" got blocked in some regions and it has been that way for a while. If you can't watch them, I recommend using a VPN, I tested it and they work in Turkey and United States IPs, for example. The VPN I mainly recommend is still UrbanVPN, Hide Me as a browser extension being a secondary. UrbanVPN is free and awesome with many country IP options (I have it as a downloaded program, not browser extension, but your choice). Nevermind this part if those videos aren't blocked in your region.

That aside... if anyone cares... still no video plans currently, sorry, I've been wanting to do other things instead of working on & making videos and currently I don't have a video idea that I really really want to make or have enough ideas and motivation. But when I do have those, when the time is right, I would make and post more videos.

If you're wondering specifically about the Erasure doodle slideshow video series... I wanted to make more of that the entire year, I had a few more video ideas for it in my mind, I had picked the songs, but I couldn't come up with the scenes and the stories in enough detail, and I didn't even feel like working on videos, I wanted to do other things, so I still didn't make them, I don't even know when or if I will, even if I want to. I definitely plan on still using Erasure songs in my videos, but I'm not sure if I will ever continue that specific series, and I've been thinking of making other types of videos too. That series is either over or on hiatus, I don't know. But I actually want to make at least a few more videos of Erasure doodle slideshow series eventually if I can, that's my plan even if I am having difficulties. I might try to find motivation and try harder at some point this year (2024) or next year (2025) to make more. I'm sorry if I end up failing. Though that series has already reached its genuine success point and I appreciate it if you're one of those few people who watched that series and enjoyed it.

1 year ago (edited) | [YT] | 0

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edit February 2024; That video doesn't have regional restriction anymore, yay! But I will still leave the text below unchanged...

Sadly, one of my videos got a regional restriction strike because of the song used in it.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=xPgM6... doodle slideshow; Erasure - Careful What I Try to Do. It doesn't work in some countries, but I tested it with VPN (UrbanVPN to be more specific), and the countries it can be played in include Japan, United States, Canada and Mexico. You can use a VPN to watch it if you'd like, if it doesn't work in the country you're in.
This is unfair. My video "baldi teaches math" got regional restriction too in the past but somehow the restriction went away on its own eventually. Maybe this one will go away one day too, I don't know.

Video updates? Also, saying once again, I don't know when I'll upload a new video, I don't have rules or a schedule. I just upload when I make a video I can + want to show. Currently I don't have video ideas or feel like working on a video. But I would post if I have anything new to post. This is an active channel that just doesn't post that often.

1 year ago (edited) | [YT] | 0

BlueCloud49

The next doodle slideshow video has been in production since April 26, I hope I will finish it sometime this month (it will be 4 minutes long, I just haven't been working on it fastly), and I honestly currently don't know what is coming in this channel after that...we will see. :/
Edit 4.07.2023; Yeah, I still don't know what will my next video be or when I will make/upload a new video. I currently don't have much video ideas or feel like working on videos. I will probably not be uploading for a while, again, you can expect from me to not post on this channel so often in general tbh. Currently no plans on continuing the doodle slideshow series, I'd probably make other videos, you can still expect from me to use Erasure music in my videos though, I still would. Thanks for staying, I'll still try to post when I can even if not so often though.

2 years ago (edited) | [YT] | 2

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https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=y_AAS... Shoutout to this, my art (Invader Zim pride) was included in the video. :)

2 years ago (edited) | [YT] | 2

BlueCloud49

If you think of me as someone that makes Erasure related content and/or loves Erasure then eh here is something. media.discordapp.net/attachments/94945442831284639… media.discordapp.net/attachments/94945442831284639… That's a weird amount of listening time, I know...And would be higher if tracks that aren't on Spotify were included (that can be said about other music groups/artists too though). xD And I like most types of music so there is way too much variety in the stuff I've been listening in my life.
In other news, I'm tired...and using my imagination + having ideas isn't easy...but I will still try to finish and release some planned videos.

2 years ago (edited) | [YT] | 1

BlueCloud49

Thanks to the recent YouTube update, I was able to finally choose a new username that isn't name-like. I'm glad about this. Finally my YouTube username and my name + surname on my Google account don't have to be the same thing. Goodbye John Catson. Welcome BlueCloud49.
(John Catson was just a nickname to be my YouTube username, I didn't want it to be my actual name and surname because that would be boring and lame and I also don't want my full name to be known to people for my safety and privacy.)

2 years ago | [YT] | 1

BlueCloud49

A brighter topic, my DeviantArt account once appeared in a Solar Sands video, which was cool. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=IiwPh... I appear at 4:25 .

4 years ago (edited) | [YT] | 0

BlueCloud49

I keep losing subscribers because 1. the stuff I posted this year are very different from the stuff I posted in 2012-2014, 2. people just don't give a fuck about me anymore, lol. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=y5-9M.... Maybe watch this if you've known me since 2012-2014, it will tell you some stuff you may need to know.

4 years ago (edited) | [YT] | 0

BlueCloud49

In all seriousness...I don't make the types of content I used to make in years 2012-2014 anymore. But if you are interested in my current work, check out my deviantart account. www.deviantart.com/bluelight439

4 years ago (edited) | [YT] | 2