So I've been trying a lot of different stuff and uh...I made a mixtape? I think you'll enjoy this if you are into science and all that. Might blow ur mind clean open if you let it...
I cordially invite you to not suggest that I have lost my mind. If you disagree, I VERY cordially invite you to comment that you think so and you can find out what will happen afterwards.
Oh and if you actually *are* a practicing mental health doctor I recommend you GET A FUCKING VALID CAREER.
Alright. I know things are a bit slow right now so here's an update:
Currently I'm working on putting together a podcast. A REAL podcast with a studio and even some big-name guests. I don't know how much longer this will take due to some monetary constraints but hopefully by the end of this month.
I am re-recording two videos which I delisted recently due to them not being up to the standard I wanted. I put a lot of effort into these videos so I intend to perfect them this time.
Other than that, I will be doing continual experiments with some new ideas and concepts. In my mind, politics is a bit dead in the water right now so I'm trying to expand my reach a bit.
Whatever it is I end up doing here, I'm always going to be pushing for unique and useful ideas. I don't much care about making money, so whatever I do end up posting will always stay authentic and avoid the usual played-out tropes other creators often use to game the algorithm. That means no repetitive content, no topics that are unimportant/gimmicky, and no self-censorship.
I consider myself something of an artist as well as an educator. I have to be, because art has always been my highest passion.
I realized something about the nature of the new aesthetic I am trying to evoke. It's highly niche. So much so, that it is probably going to be held as indignant (at least for now). With any particularly challenging niche and especially given a more novel one, there is a responsibility on the artist to evoke it to its fullest. I do hear what you are saying! However, what I am going to do in response is not to back away from it, but to perfect it. Any true artist will tell you that listening to the audience is the fastest way to failure. Not because they are "wrong" but because they simply do not see the final product as it has existed in the artist's mind and heart.
This said! I am going to be taking down and re-recording my two scripted videos thus far. I will bring them back up again once I have changed not just the exactitude of the vibe I am trying to evoke...but something within myself as well.
I have taken a fairly minimal amount of medication for the last year.
Today, I feel fantastic. I have clear focus, I can perform more tasks than ever, my weight is stabilized at around 150 pounds, and I can feel my emotions more strongly. You would think that this is a positive development in my life, but I'm now realizing something--that this also creates a whole host of problems.
I SHOULDN'T be doing this well. I should be manic or depressive or in cognitive decline. But the clear and demonstrable fact that this isn't the case should raise eyebrows in the medical establishment. I feel that I am being gaslit by my psychiatrists, even. They want me to feel like I am doing worse. I refuse to accept that narrative. The simple fact is: the meds they had me taking in completely unwarranted amounts were objectively making my life worse by a wide margin.
I think they are going to try and hospitalize me again. They are going to do this to preserve their institution against their very own eyes. I am not "accusing" anyone of anything yet, I'm just pointing out that it's unlikely that they will just accept my version of reality because in my experience anything which goes against the grain immediately gets shut down.
Sorry if this is an infodump! I don't want anyone to actually be worried about me. Even if this does happen, I will ultimately be fine and still continue making videos. But just keep in mind, this is always a possibility and if I am not always meeting expectations on this channel just please try to understand that I have to do a lot for myself to defy the expectation of other people in reality who really, REALLY don't want me to be doing well.
Anyway, if you don't actually worry about my mental health please just disregard this and assume I am working on things as per usual. I'm gonna make certain my voice gets heard and that I use my ideas to help educate and inspire and hopefully one day truly make the world better for everyone.
My next scripted video is almost done! I put a lot of effort into perfecting these so to really hit things home, I'm going to be trying something completely new and doing a post-video livestream to further explore the topic. Though livestreaming is not exactly my forte, I will try this out and hopefully start doing it after every scripted video so that all of your questions get answered!
Apart from that I just wanna say that there is A LOT of new stuff coming. Might want to get your wallets out for this one...
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xkcdhatguy
So I've been trying a lot of different stuff and uh...I made a mixtape? I think you'll enjoy this if you are into science and all that. Might blow ur mind clean open if you let it...
Follow me at: on.soundcloud.com/jGb8F
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My life is sorta on hold right now but if you want to post any comments anywhere I am reading them and I will reply to any good questions/comments.
...
Only good ones.
Oh! I have a reddit sorta. Here it is: www.reddit.com/r/xkcdhatguy/s/XpTtmrjrWl
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Hello all my friendly wannabe psychiatrists.
I cordially invite you to not suggest that I have lost my mind. If you disagree, I VERY cordially invite you to comment that you think so and you can find out what will happen afterwards.
Oh and if you actually *are* a practicing mental health doctor I recommend you GET A FUCKING VALID CAREER.
Cya.
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Alright. I know things are a bit slow right now so here's an update:
Currently I'm working on putting together a podcast. A REAL podcast with a studio and even some big-name guests. I don't know how much longer this will take due to some monetary constraints but hopefully by the end of this month.
I am re-recording two videos which I delisted recently due to them not being up to the standard I wanted. I put a lot of effort into these videos so I intend to perfect them this time.
Other than that, I will be doing continual experiments with some new ideas and concepts. In my mind, politics is a bit dead in the water right now so I'm trying to expand my reach a bit.
Whatever it is I end up doing here, I'm always going to be pushing for unique and useful ideas. I don't much care about making money, so whatever I do end up posting will always stay authentic and avoid the usual played-out tropes other creators often use to game the algorithm. That means no repetitive content, no topics that are unimportant/gimmicky, and no self-censorship.
Thanks for watching. See you...soon enough.
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I guess I made a TikTok I dunno.
Marketing.
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xkcdhatguy
I really don't know of anyone who makes good use of this community section. It's kinda not a good feature.
Uh, lemme know if this helps.
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I consider myself something of an artist as well as an educator. I have to be, because art has always been my highest passion.
I realized something about the nature of the new aesthetic I am trying to evoke. It's highly niche. So much so, that it is probably going to be held as indignant (at least for now). With any particularly challenging niche and especially given a more novel one, there is a responsibility on the artist to evoke it to its fullest. I do hear what you are saying! However, what I am going to do in response is not to back away from it, but to perfect it. Any true artist will tell you that listening to the audience is the fastest way to failure. Not because they are "wrong" but because they simply do not see the final product as it has existed in the artist's mind and heart.
This said! I am going to be taking down and re-recording my two scripted videos thus far. I will bring them back up again once I have changed not just the exactitude of the vibe I am trying to evoke...but something within myself as well.
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xkcdhatguy
I have taken a fairly minimal amount of medication for the last year.
Today, I feel fantastic. I have clear focus, I can perform more tasks than ever, my weight is stabilized at around 150 pounds, and I can feel my emotions more strongly. You would think that this is a positive development in my life, but I'm now realizing something--that this also creates a whole host of problems.
I SHOULDN'T be doing this well. I should be manic or depressive or in cognitive decline. But the clear and demonstrable fact that this isn't the case should raise eyebrows in the medical establishment. I feel that I am being gaslit by my psychiatrists, even. They want me to feel like I am doing worse. I refuse to accept that narrative. The simple fact is: the meds they had me taking in completely unwarranted amounts were objectively making my life worse by a wide margin.
I think they are going to try and hospitalize me again. They are going to do this to preserve their institution against their very own eyes. I am not "accusing" anyone of anything yet, I'm just pointing out that it's unlikely that they will just accept my version of reality because in my experience anything which goes against the grain immediately gets shut down.
Sorry if this is an infodump! I don't want anyone to actually be worried about me. Even if this does happen, I will ultimately be fine and still continue making videos. But just keep in mind, this is always a possibility and if I am not always meeting expectations on this channel just please try to understand that I have to do a lot for myself to defy the expectation of other people in reality who really, REALLY don't want me to be doing well.
Anyway, if you don't actually worry about my mental health please just disregard this and assume I am working on things as per usual. I'm gonna make certain my voice gets heard and that I use my ideas to help educate and inspire and hopefully one day truly make the world better for everyone.
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xkcdhatguy
My next scripted video is almost done! I put a lot of effort into perfecting these so to really hit things home, I'm going to be trying something completely new and doing a post-video livestream to further explore the topic. Though livestreaming is not exactly my forte, I will try this out and hopefully start doing it after every scripted video so that all of your questions get answered!
Apart from that I just wanna say that there is A LOT of new stuff coming. Might want to get your wallets out for this one...
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I have a funny theory that human relationships are not what we think they are.
Gonna be exploring this in my next scriptless video.
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