CarlSagan42

1 month ago | [YT] | 1,171

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Hello frens and feesh, I will be posting a couple shorts every day from many of my favorite Mario Maker moments over the years. They're set not to show up in anyone's feed (so I don't annoy people), so if you want to check them out you'll have to go to the channel shorts section! If anyone has recommendations for funniest video moments of all time that might be fun to make into shorts, feel free to suggest them here! With that being said, I do have a non-mario channel where I do unspoiled playthroughs of games I really should have played sooner, like Terraria, Dark Souls, Hollow Knight, Subnautica, The Binding of Isaac, and so much more, so if that sounds interesting check out ‪@CarlPlayin42‬

Whether you still watch the channel or used to in an age long past, thank you for being a part of our silly shenanigans, past or present <3

5 months ago | [YT] | 2,065

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FIRST DAY IN MY NEW SCIENCE LAB EEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE

1 year ago | [YT] | 3,955

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I am traveling all day today, following my dreams to a new science lab and a new home. I'm sick of moving, but two things always make that journey better: my wonderful stream frens, and my precious cat Ruby. She may not be around much longer, but here's to at least one more adventure.

Much love all <3

1 year ago | [YT] | 6,260

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My poor cat is not well. Sitting here at the vet, it strikes me that, without streaming, it would have been very difficult for me to be able to afford care for my cats, much less myself. I maybe don't say it enough, but I am deeply appreciative of you all so very much for the support over the years, it has changed my life <3

In another few weeks, I'll be moving once again (3 times in the past 4 years @_@), but I am very hopeful about this one: I'll be joining a new science lab at last! I have missed it dearly, but it has been very difficult to find something I really believe in that is free from a lot of the crappy parts of academic research (I applied to 28 different labs). This lab studies some of the more subtle reasons why treatments work sometimes and not other times (even for people who are otherwise very healthy), or why sometimes we get really sick, but other times we recover just fine. I will apply these ideas to vaccines but also other things as well, so it'll be interesting to think about new and old problems. Most importantly though, the lab seems full of great people who want to help make the world a better place, if just in some small way!

All the love,
Carl

1 year ago | [YT] | 6,549

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As a goodbye to Mario Maker 1, let's have a HOT GARBO CONTEST in SMM2. Here's how it works: make levels in the style of MM1 hot garbo, and I (and anyone else interested) can play through them like a 100 man run: 100 lives to beat 6 levels. Join here to submit levels: discord.gg/qkQ89xbw8u

1 year ago | [YT] | 1,035

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I LOGGED INTO MARIO MAKER 1 FOR THE FIRST TIME IN 6 YEARS AND I HAVE DOWNLOADED THIS LEVEL

1 year ago | [YT] | 1,606

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Since a few people were asking me and didn't know: I have first playthroughs of Hollow Knight, Ocarina of Time, Subnautica, Terraria, Dark Souls, Final Fantasy 7 Remake and more on my other channel @CarlPlayin42 for anyone interested :)

1 year ago | [YT] | 1,072

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Hi everyone,

Recently, I've published the fewest videos, done the least science, and finished the fewest projects of my entire adult life. And it's been the best decision of my life.

Since I was in 4th grade, I've struggled with anxiety and trauma. I became extremely ill with viral gastroenteritis, barfing my insides out in the cafeteria and causing me to have panic attacks when eating at school for years (one reason I want to make a norovirus vaccine). I developed chronic pain that got worse and worse into my later teens and 20s. I would lie in bed with my chest and stomach hurting every night for years, not knowing what was wrong, being told by parents and doctors that it was "I was making it up for attention." Just last month, I'm able to sleep on my side pain-free for the first time since 4th grade. I'm able to hold my nephews without pain. I'm able to work in the lab again without pain.

I had to take a year off of grad school in 2010 because of a compressed nerve in my shoulders and neck -- I had just discovered my love of science and was devastated. During this time, one of the only things I could enjoy and that would make me laugh was watching my favorite streamers, GDQs, and holding a small SNES controller playing yoshi's island with my friends. Only over 10 years later did I learn this nerve compression was caused by stress/anxiety-induced muscle tension. If that fight or flight energy isn't used or diffused, it can result in chronic tension, nerve compression, dysfunctional movement, and pain. From my late 20s up until 2 months ago, I had to lay very specifically in bed with my arms propped up or I'd have constant nagging pain in my upper arms. Now, it is truly gone, freaking finally!!!

I've been to 100s of doctor, physical therapy, and therapy visits over the years, but no one could ever fully put the puzzle together and find a solution until this year: it was a very hard problem to solve later in life, and I never gave myself the time needed to solve it because I was always absorbed in science and streaming projects. I had to retrain my brain to let go of the aspects of anxiety/hyperfocus that weren't helpful, while still keeping the parts that I did like and that make me feel like me. I had to relearn how to use muscles I'd not used since I was a kid -- it's like discovering you had a third arm the whole time but never knew how to use it.

The tragedy of this to me is how this problem could have easily been solved by simple love/care/reassurance that I never received when I was young, and a simple understanding of mental health at a much earlier age. For ages, I thought I had a horrible disease or thought I was going crazy without understanding what a panic attack was. This strongly motivates me to continue spreading the word about this, in case it might help someone else out there break the cycle earlier than I was able to (literally stuck in a carlbox, fitting...)

Recently, I took a much needed break from content creation and have been spending a lot of time with family. My nephew wrapped himself in toilet paper, giggling and reassuring me that even though the sun will explode in 4 billion years, it'll be alright because he only plans to live for 100 years, hahahahaha.

I also got sick during the holidays, but thankfully I'm almost back to normal. I've also been practicing for GDQ -- we put together a very silly glitch showcase that makes me laugh really hard. And, I'm working on moving for a new science job -- I have a really promising offer and I think I'm going to get it!!!

While taking time for myself was needed, I'm also ready to dive back into science... but in a healthier way this time. And, Mario Maker holds a similar place in my heart -- many of my best friends and memories are from mario maker, and I love coming back from time to time. Especially with Geek retiring, I'm hoping to play more soon. If I hadn't gotten sick I would have this week. Alas, both streaming and academia have the potential to become toxic rat races, and I've tried very hard to avoid letting that reality ruin my lifelong loves.

At the end of the day, without the support I've received from all of you, I never would have been able to take the time I needed to solve these problems. So, from the bottom of my heart, thank you all, you have truly changed my life.

Best wishes,
Carl <3

1 year ago | [YT] | 10,270

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I think troll levels contain one of the best life lessons I've ever learned: to be able to laugh and find humor even when things go wrong.

2 years ago | [YT] | 2,297