1 year ago, I set out to make videos with no experience and a dream.
Today, we hit 100,000 subscribers!
I wouldn't have believed it if you told me my life would be so different from a year ago, but here we are.
In the process, I've learned so many things about myself, how to become a better content creator, and where my path leads.
And of course, I found myself surrounded by an amazing community of people who support my dreams and enjoy my content!
However, this isn't where we plan to stop.
100K is a milestone worth celebrating, but this is just the first step in our Journey...
Everything I learned, all the insight I've gained, and the community we've built reaching 100K will also be the guidelines for me to grow even further. With that being said...
Thank you guys for all the continued support, it means the world to me.
I thought for a long time about how I would start this post, but I realized it's been something that I've fundamentally struggled with my whole life: feeling like what I do is "enough." So I'm going to spitball this one and give it to you guys straight.
The break I took was probably one of the best yet hardest things that I let myself do. In the past couple of weeks, I found an enormous sense of relief and peace of mind because for the first time in a year, I wasn't "thinking" about anything specifically. Like I could finally relax without worrying about any deadlines, or any obligations. It was very refreshing.
Of course, that feeling only lasted for like a week or so.
After relief died down, I started noticing this feeling of anxiety.
That maybe I'm just old news. That when I return, everything will have changed. That when I come back, everybody has moved on. Obviously, there's a term for this: FOMO.
It's kind of like going on a summer break, or taking a break from employment. It feels great because it scratches the itch you've been unable to scratch for so long, but as you keep scratching, it starts to feel...empty. You scroll listlessly on social media and play games just to pass time. And before you know it, 1 month later, you're strangely looking forward to going back to school again, or starting to look for a new job.
That's me right now.
I never really understood why I felt this way when I was young, and I also used to think adults were crazy for WANTING to get to work. But after having this break, I think I understand.
It's the feeling of time stopping.
When you're caught up in the races, you're running just like everyone else, chasing for your passions, suffering together, and growing in the process. But because everyone is running like you, you don't seem to notice the change. You feel hardstuck despite moving forward.
And sometimes you'll crash and burn... but when you stop, take a step back, and observe, you start seeing the bigger picture: everyone is still moving... except you aren't.
It's not a bad thing, of course. A rest is needed every now and then.
But at the same time, sitting still isn't... fun?
I miss making videos. I miss meeting new people. I miss creating content and playing the game. Most importantly...
I miss you.
You guys are what make my journey in content creation as fun as it is, and I miss it all.
I miss joking around and making you guys laugh, I miss teaching you about how to improve in Valorant. I miss the feeling of chasing my dreams.
I want to give an honest and candid talk about my feelings recently with content creation.
I know many of you guys first discovered me through my Classic to Immortal series, and know me for having done the unfathomable. It’s still the best performing series I’ve had yet. Naturally, of course, because it’s the series that made me go viral in the first place. To this day, I still see it as the greatest achievement I’ve made as a content creator.
But one thing I didn’t notice throughout the months was that it’s also become my biggest demon. In order to surmount such a big performance, everything from that point has felt like a weak imitation, a wannabe, an imposter. Like I was attempting to steer a snowball rolling down the hill before realizing it was too big to control. I had ideas on where to go, but not enough strength to move it. And more importantly, I felt like I lacked the self esteem and motivation even if I did have the strength to. And before you know it, I’m also rolling down the hill, buried in the snow, losing all control.
I guess what I’m trying to say is, I haven’t felt so lost ever since like ~5 years ago when I had my mid-college crisis (would you believe that I actively went out of my way to quit games and touch grass for like a year?!), and I think it’s time to accept that I’m in need of some real introspection.
To put it more into perspective, I’ve been feeling burnt out from playing Valorant so consistently over the past few months. I log onto the game with nothing specific to look forward to, not a whole lot planned out, and try to push aside the nauseating feeling that I’m not as excited as I used to be. And when it’s part of your passion (and career) to play, it starts to feel… oddly depressing? It feels like I’m running, but I have no idea which direction I’m heading, or where I want to go. I think it’s definitely affected my day to day, and it’s also affected my recent streams and youtube content’s performances as well.
So, which came first, the decline in viewership or the burn out? We can never really know. But it’s a very negative cycle of reinforcement, and there are two things that I’m certain of: 1. I don’t like this situation in the slightest, and 2. I’m still far from being the Content Creator I want to be.
No…I know I can be.
Blue Instalock was my attempt to reignite my passion for the game by learning and improving in a role I’ve never really touched. And while I definitely learned a TON about how to play duelists and enjoyed the process of improving, I don’t think I did my idea justice. It only served as a bandaid for my steadily increasing sense of burnout, and it’s time to face the smoke.
So…I’m going to take a 2 to 3 week break. I’m going to breathe some fresh air, take some time to sit down and really think about my goals, and most importantly, focus on some personal development. And when I come back, I’m going to be a new and improved royalG.
...When I first hit Radiant years ago and started playing in better lobbies, I was still a newcomer to Valorant.
And since I was inexperienced, I subconsciously decided that filling would be better, because other players would do better as the duelists...
Fast forward to today, I still hesitate to pick duelist in games.
Not because I'm bad, not because I think others are better...
but because I'm afraid.
Afraid of taking the carry role, afraid of underperforming, and afraid of looking stupid.
But this act, things will change.
No more support.
No more relying on my ranked teammates to make the plays.
No more FEAR.
It's time to face my demons and take the front line:
I will learn from different top level duelists, and devour their playstyles,
and finally...
...
I WILL BECOME THE DUELIST KING!
wait.
I WILL BE THE BEST DUELIST IN JAPAN
wait...
I WILL BECOME A TRUE DUELIST
(and so will you)
Introducing my new Series: BLUE InstaLOCK
Where I take a deep dive into the duelist role and bring in top duelist players to coach and teach me the ins and outs of their respective agent. The first agent? Jett. Stay tuned!
royalG
royalG
Our PC's got stuck in customs for like a week so we're still waiting ðŸ˜
Once they arrive, the grind begins BIG TIME
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WE'RE HEADED TO JAPAN!!! w/ ‪@temets‬ ‪@Kaemi‬ ‪@kjtodo‬
Been cooking this up for months, I'm so excited 😄
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royalG
How far can a Sheriff only player climb?
I'm shooting for Radiant, but we'll have to see how far we can go.
Placements start today!
www.twitch.tv/royalgftw
1 year ago | [YT] | 251
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royalG
MERRY CHRISTMAS GUYS!
I'll be doing an Iso cosplay on stream soon (2 PM PST) which is in like 45 minutes!
ISO NPC attempt
ISO viewer 1v1s (for prizes)
Holiday 10-mans?
New ISO video preview!
Viewer giveaways?!
twitch.tv/royalgftw
See you guys there!
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1 year ago, I set out to make videos with no experience and a dream.
Today, we hit 100,000 subscribers!
I wouldn't have believed it if you told me my life would be so different from a year ago, but here we are.
In the process, I've learned so many things about myself, how to become a better content creator, and where my path leads.
And of course, I found myself surrounded by an amazing community of people who support my dreams and enjoy my content!
However, this isn't where we plan to stop.
100K is a milestone worth celebrating, but this is just the first step in our Journey...
Everything I learned, all the insight I've gained, and the community we've built reaching 100K will also be the guidelines for me to grow even further. With that being said...
Thank you guys for all the continued support, it means the world to me.
We're just getting started!!! 🥳
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royalG
ISO to Radiant begins today!
Pretty excited for this one...
www.twitch.tv/royalgftw
1 year ago | [YT] | 179
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royalG
ISO to Radiant will be happening, which account should I use?
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royalG
Hope you guys have been doing well!
I thought for a long time about how I would start this post, but I realized it's been something that I've fundamentally struggled with my whole life: feeling like what I do is "enough." So I'm going to spitball this one and give it to you guys straight.
The break I took was probably one of the best yet hardest things that I let myself do. In the past couple of weeks, I found an enormous sense of relief and peace of mind because for the first time in a year, I wasn't "thinking" about anything specifically. Like I could finally relax without worrying about any deadlines, or any obligations. It was very refreshing.
Of course, that feeling only lasted for like a week or so.
After relief died down, I started noticing this feeling of anxiety.
That maybe I'm just old news. That when I return, everything will have changed. That when I come back, everybody has moved on. Obviously, there's a term for this: FOMO.
It's kind of like going on a summer break, or taking a break from employment. It feels great because it scratches the itch you've been unable to scratch for so long, but as you keep scratching, it starts to feel...empty. You scroll listlessly on social media and play games just to pass time. And before you know it, 1 month later, you're strangely looking forward to going back to school again, or starting to look for a new job.
That's me right now.
I never really understood why I felt this way when I was young, and I also used to think adults were crazy for WANTING to get to work. But after having this break, I think I understand.
It's the feeling of time stopping.
When you're caught up in the races, you're running just like everyone else, chasing for your passions, suffering together, and growing in the process. But because everyone is running like you, you don't seem to notice the change. You feel hardstuck despite moving forward.
And sometimes you'll crash and burn... but when you stop, take a step back, and observe, you start seeing the bigger picture: everyone is still moving... except you aren't.
It's not a bad thing, of course. A rest is needed every now and then.
But at the same time, sitting still isn't... fun?
I miss making videos. I miss meeting new people. I miss creating content and playing the game. Most importantly...
I miss you.
You guys are what make my journey in content creation as fun as it is, and I miss it all.
I miss joking around and making you guys laugh, I miss teaching you about how to improve in Valorant. I miss the feeling of chasing my dreams.
So... time will start moving again.
When the new act begins tomorrow,
I'm back.
You guys can probably guess:
DEADLOCK TO RADIANT BABY
See you guys soon.😎
- royalG
4 PM PST Mon - Fri
www.twitch.tv/royalgftw
2 years ago | [YT] | 534
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Hey guys! Hope you’re all doing well.
I want to give an honest and candid talk about my feelings recently with content creation.
I know many of you guys first discovered me through my Classic to Immortal series, and know me for having done the unfathomable. It’s still the best performing series I’ve had yet. Naturally, of course, because it’s the series that made me go viral in the first place. To this day, I still see it as the greatest achievement I’ve made as a content creator.
But one thing I didn’t notice throughout the months was that it’s also become my biggest demon. In order to surmount such a big performance, everything from that point has felt like a weak imitation, a wannabe, an imposter. Like I was attempting to steer a snowball rolling down the hill before realizing it was too big to control. I had ideas on where to go, but not enough strength to move it. And more importantly, I felt like I lacked the self esteem and motivation even if I did have the strength to. And before you know it, I’m also rolling down the hill, buried in the snow, losing all control.
I guess what I’m trying to say is, I haven’t felt so lost ever since like ~5 years ago when I had my mid-college crisis (would you believe that I actively went out of my way to quit games and touch grass for like a year?!), and I think it’s time to accept that I’m in need of some real introspection.
To put it more into perspective, I’ve been feeling burnt out from playing Valorant so consistently over the past few months. I log onto the game with nothing specific to look forward to, not a whole lot planned out, and try to push aside the nauseating feeling that I’m not as excited as I used to be. And when it’s part of your passion (and career) to play, it starts to feel… oddly depressing? It feels like I’m running, but I have no idea which direction I’m heading, or where I want to go. I think it’s definitely affected my day to day, and it’s also affected my recent streams and youtube content’s performances as well.
So, which came first, the decline in viewership or the burn out? We can never really know. But it’s a very negative cycle of reinforcement, and there are two things that I’m certain of:
1. I don’t like this situation in the slightest, and
2. I’m still far from being the Content Creator I want to be.
No…I know I can be.
Blue Instalock was my attempt to reignite my passion for the game by learning and improving in a role I’ve never really touched. And while I definitely learned a TON about how to play duelists and enjoyed the process of improving, I don’t think I did my idea justice. It only served as a bandaid for my steadily increasing sense of burnout, and it’s time to face the smoke.
So…I’m going to take a 2 to 3 week break. I’m going to breathe some fresh air, take some time to sit down and really think about my goals, and most importantly, focus on some personal development. And when I come back, I’m going to be a new and improved royalG.
See you guys soon.
2 years ago | [YT] | 1,147
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royalG
NEW SERIES ALERT!
...When I first hit Radiant years ago and started playing in better lobbies, I was still a newcomer to Valorant.
And since I was inexperienced, I subconsciously decided that filling would be better, because other players would do better as the duelists...
Fast forward to today, I still hesitate to pick duelist in games.
Not because I'm bad, not because I think others are better...
but because I'm afraid.
Afraid of taking the carry role, afraid of underperforming, and afraid of looking stupid.
But this act, things will change.
No more support.
No more relying on my ranked teammates to make the plays.
No more FEAR.
It's time to face my demons and take the front line:
I will learn from different top level duelists, and devour their playstyles,
and finally...
...
I WILL BECOME THE DUELIST KING!
wait.
I WILL BE THE BEST DUELIST IN JAPAN
wait...
I WILL BECOME A TRUE DUELIST
(and so will you)
Introducing my new Series: BLUE InstaLOCK
Where I take a deep dive into the duelist role and bring in top duelist players to coach and teach me the ins and outs of their respective agent. The first agent? Jett.
Stay tuned!
All of this will be streamed live starting today: www.twitch.tv/royalgftw
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