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My dad had another stroke. I’m sorry to anyone at the livestream last night who had to sit through me figuring that out from just seeing his late night MRI and results, but doctors just confirmed it.

1 week ago | [YT] | 199

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So, um… my surgery is in just over an hour.

I really thought I’d have more time to stream and do things, but it is what it is.

Wish me luck, and I’ll see you all hopefully live very, very soon. 🫡

1 month ago | [YT] | 278

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So… the schedule got thrown out the window. And I’m so sorry! Make sure you’re part of the Discord so you know if something happens.

TL;DR: DISCORD announcements can be more reliable for when I go live or if something changes, and I’ll see you soon!

My dad needed my help for his own medical treatment, which was becoming lackluster at best and deadly at worst.

On a good note for long time viewers, I’m currently at a consultation… for finally having surgery on my herniations (plural) that I’ve had since November 2022. They’ve been very painful for the entire 3 years, but I’ll probably lose healthcare coverage January 1st, so it’s finally happening.

(God, I don’t know what to do with myself when the pain is gone; I just know we’re gonna have some awkward streams of me fully reclined while trying to play a game while recovering.)

I hope to get home and get back on track tonight, but please work with me on this – juggling my dad’s acute medical needs, much less my own surgery and my mom’s needs is OVERWHELMING and makes you feel like you’re DROWNING… and that’s probably an understatement. (Those who have had to become caregivers for loved ones, much less needing to be a parent simultaneously, probably understand that taking care of yourself always gets pushed off.)

Anyway, DISCORD announcements can be more reliable for when I go live or if something changes, and I’ll see you soon!

1 month ago | [YT] | 106

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Hey there everyone! I hope all is going well with you. Let's talk about STREAMS!

They happen all the time, but I usually unlist them because of random YouTube algorithm stuff. But I'll be streaming TODAY (possibly twice, but Dark Souls for sure), TOMORROW (my dad's birthday, August 9th), and SUNDAY (August 10th). RING THE BELL if you want to know when I go live!

Usually, I stream every 2-3 days – usually starting out around 4-7 PM ET – and I'll try to use the community tab in the future to start posting better schedules and whatnot so it's easier to find out.

I'll also be posting VODs here soon. It's just been hectic on my side.

And yes, my dad is still bad off in the hospital and is being transferred for further medical care, but I can't help him if I don't work and don't pay my electric bill. So that's a thing.

Thank you all for the well wishes for my family and for still supporting me even while I'm gone being a caregiver to my parents (even if the government won't help pay for me to take care of them because they're nickels and dimes over the extreme poverty threshold), and I'll see you live soon!

1 month ago | [YT] | 97

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So I have been streaming every other day-ish (check Discord or turn on all notifs if you didn’t know that), but my dad is back in the hospital. Things took a turn Saturday morning.

We’re not quite sure what’s exactly wrong, only that he’s in a very difficult and dangerous position.(And his birthday is this Saturday, so I guess any plans are off for that, too.)

I’ll be right back at it as soon as he’s getting the treatment he needs to just keep living, and that’s feeling like an uphill battle in itself.

As a more general update, I was about to make a perk that allowed people to decide a game that I must play, edit, and post, and the length of the game chosen would be determined by factors that I haven’t fully fleshed out yet. Stay tuned for that.

(Sorry for recycling this image from another one of his hospital trips, but YT really likes it when you add images, so it’s this or a selfie of me crying. 🙃)

Thank you all for the ongoing support, and I’ll see you soon!

P.S.: I know I’ll get comments that say “take all the time you need,” but please understand that I can’t quite do that. YouTube is my ENTIRE JOB, and they don’t pay sick days and whatnot, so while the sentiment is appreciated, it’s not possible for me to be gone too long.

1 month ago | [YT] | 426

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Recently, a friend was commemorating a special day and invited my son Rowan and me to join them. Given that I’m such a good friend (and that they insisted on paying), we happily joined them for a breakfast at IHOP.

Rowan has been, of his own accord, an unwavering vegetarian for years. So when the seemingly sleep-deprived waitress asked him what he wanted to order, he naturally wanted to know what could be substituted for bacon, given he’s a vegetarian.

I’m gonna need to stress that the waitress was told very clearly he’s asking because he’s a vegetarian.

Her response?

And I quote: “Turkey bacon? Turkey sausage?”

REJOICE, VEGETARIANS! You have new options on the table!

The experience was eye-opening.

… since, before she said that, I was quite tired, but now my eyes were wide open, wondering how she got this far in life.

Stay tuned for more entries into the ongoing series “A Very Unexpected Day in the Life of Darkness Jackson.”

2 months ago | [YT] | 78

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Preparing for the stream at 4:15 PM today! Here’s a very real life and not at all edited image of getting ready~ 🧐🤫

youtube.com/live/nFdM7GlaWJQ?si=ZZv84LIsmQVKKxDK

6 months ago | [YT] | 103

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Welp… I wanted to do something for Friday the 13th, but my body REALLY didn’t like that.

Tl;dr: probably kidney stones (plural). Blood in urine made this unavoidable (that’s a place blood should NEVER be in).

So, um… crap. That liter bag takes time, and the CT always has a line. At least know how to get a gravity drip bolus going the correct speed, so maybe there’s a chance I escape faster. 🤞🏽 Never would’ve expected I’m a patient for this before the two-year-old herniation. 🤦🏽‍♂️

When it rains, it pours. But at this rate, I’m starting to think I should use my off-time building an ark and rounding up some animals. 🫠 Anyone have experience running a zoo and happen to also like boat rides and heavy rain?

9 months ago | [YT] | 218

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UPDATE ON THE STREAM: GA Power are jerks and just took away the time my power would be on. Because THAT fixes them missing the deadline of 1:45 PM ET. 🥴

When power is back on, WE GAME! [Though I will have to take a break for physical therapy, but I’ll come back and stream more if I fall short of goals. This is a MARATHON (hopefully my lungs last).]

1 year ago | [YT] | 69

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So, I plan ahead schedule the first stream in over a month that’s scheduled the day BEFORE… and this happens.

I truly apologize. I will be on and doing the stream as soon as the power is back on (which seems to be in 1 hour 45 minutes).

I’ll see you all soon!

1 year ago | [YT] | 112