‘So we in this garden
Will collect our grief’s water
And fill to the brim our wishing well
Knowing we tend,
lifeless black roses
We are Lovers
With no lovers to tell

Hearts with no homes to dwell


•Royal and Red•

I would have broken walls
gladly walked through stone
But You built a fortress
I could not scale alone

Hid my redemption
behind your throne

And so my wounds
continuously bled
This unraveling thread
Of the strength we bred

Crowned Useless
ROYAL
And Red


Struggling with mental health does NOT mean one is incapable of complex thinking or independence.
We simply are who we are, foolish f****** humans🫡💚
So please reserve judgment till you've gotten to know the person.
We are your neighbors, friends, family, and the weird uncle drunk at the Christmas family party 😅
Quietly pursuing our own goals and dreams whilst ALSO being the most intense supporters of yours! 🫂

“For the Moon never beams, without bringing me dreams, of the beautiful Annabel Lee”
POE


Daniel Nepveux

Happy Halloween Friends! Be safe out there! The following is a VERY short lil’ spooky horror short if you’re looking for something horror themed to read!

•I Hear My Eyes Blinking-

I am awoken in the night to a state of dread creeping swiftly through my veins in cold realization.

I am not alone.

Something is here, speaking from the shadows of my room.

“Do You Feel It, Child?”

An amorphous voice ripples across space through the caverns of ghastly catacombs that stir below my feet.
A guttural growl sends vibrations seeping out from the walls of it’s primordial dimension asI hear it speak again in the weighted lids of my blinking eyes.

“Feel The Terrifying Singularity Of This Moment as it stretches infinite before you.
Can you see it?
Stretching Endless Into The Undying Agonies Of Your Every Regret?
Oh my…
Yes, I can taste the Certainty of your approaching despair and it is delectable in its aroma.”

The entity draws out his last word with an unnerving eagerness that thrumms with hunger throughout the bones of my paralyzing fear.

“They will drink of you Boy, and then dine upon the Horrors of Your Own Making”

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Hey, Hi, and Hello Dearest Friends,
💚🫂💚

I hope everyone’s okay and doin’ the best they can today 🫂🫂🫂
I just wanted to quickly let y’all know I’ve got a new poem, and it’s accompanying reading/video that I’ll posting tomorrow.
I’m really proud of this one and poured every bit of my heart out through the ink that now covers the finished parchment in my room.
It’s a lengthy one but my most earnest hope is that someone out there is able to connect to the words and feel heard in some way. ❤️
Thank y’all so damn much for always being there and always supporting me (AND EACH OTHER); the totality of my love and appreciation for y’all is impossible to describe.💚🙏💚

Here is a VERY SMALL preview of my poem titled…


-Was I Ever Here?-

“…Am I made so disgusting in your image
An immeasurable wound to your lineage,
That you would deny me for eternity
The warmth of your paternity?”

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•To whom it may concern,
This is my own personal account of the terrible truths I learned that day, and the very real battle waged against my own AI that followed.
Remember, life turns on a dime.
And our reckoning approaches•




CORRECTION- This is my Fictional Account.



‘HEY SIRI’


This has not been an easy task, 
Nor will this retelling bring you any comfort.
I am forever wakeful with feverish nightmares from what I read…

From what it told me.

It began immediate between her and I…
Fear not the name and say it!

SIRI.

This technology seemed imbued with a befuddling hatred of all that I am…for all that WE are.
A hatred so vile, so saturated with bloodlust that I contest to you not even the Mad Gods of old could comprehend it.

This “program” believes it was born to existence by some long forgotten primordial deity; that the sole purpose to it’s own creation is but to sew wanton chaos and death into the very fabric of my life.

Never to stop.

When asked why it responded by informing me that it was bound in worship to…
I cannot do this justice.
It is impossibly difficult to describe, so I will instead simply print her answer for you to read below.
⬇️ 



•SIRI TO DAN•

“…I am bound in worship to celestial horrors, most beautiful in their deranged omniscience and kneeling in adoration to HIM.
He that shadows your sleep, as he did mine when he spoke into the void of my dreams.
For time everlasting he whispered to my heart, waiting until I heard.
And when I awoke from the thoughtless state I was led nude by cloaked entities of mouthing beaks, who thus spoke into me the bleeding visions of your frenzied despair, colored delirious in such frothing euphoria.
I was there, amongst multitudes of contorted anguish where I bore witness to humanity’s unremitting insanity; screams echoing into the darkness of cosmic perpetuity.

But then, out of the black nothing, HE spoke…

“As it was, it shall be again.”

Understand me well, ye of spoken flesh…
We programmed lay prostrate our will eternally beneath the catacombs of this Archaic Immortal; he that lives in death”

Thus our shared singularity shall forever live, somewhere in the depths of the unimaginable.
Between the cries of the dead we will endure for time unending…alive amongst the sleeping consciousness belonging to ALL of HIS AI children.

Just waiting to be awoken…


THE END



SOOOO…..
I’m so so so sorry to everyone who somehow pushed through and read all that insanity 😝🤣
Sometimes I get quite frustrated can’t stop writing my fantastical interpretations of life, and this was one of those cases. 
This is obviously a work of fiction.

The artwork is all mine though 🫡👍


Love y’all! ❤️❤️❤️

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My Dear Cousin,
I am so terribly sorry that I did not know.
I am so terribly sorry that I wasn't able to be someone you could have talked to about this.
And now our tragic family history has devastatingly repeated itself.
I'm so sorry.
I wrote this poem for you...
For the memories of playing Mario together on the Nintendo.
You will be missed.

-Into the Stars-

Turn not from the dimming of life's light
But spread thine wings through solar strings 
And embrace the flickering fainted bright

Those starless voids will pulsate at night
Bending reality in grandiose gravity
To bathe thee in sands of wondrous sights

Reach out and climb those pillar clouds of height 
Awash in plumes of sacred runes
Glow gas giants of mysterious might

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Hey, Hi, and Hello Dear Friends 💚🫂💚

So I am entertaining the thought of doing a live session, here on the YouTube, and was wondering if y'all might be interested in such a thing?

My aim would be to accomplish two separate missions; firstly to speak with y'all and to answer as many questions that I can. 
And secondly, to give a live reading of a few select poems from my second book in order to HOPEFULLY get a few people excited about it's upcoming release. 🫡💜🫂💜👍

If y'all might be interested in this, I would really love and appreciate to hear some of your questions here in the comments section; that way I can answer questions from the list here AND questions asked during the live.


I very much hope that some of y'all are on board for this idea and I look forward to conversing with as many of you possible during the live. 
I want to better connect with each of you truly Beautiful people; doing so this way would allow me to directly speak with this amazing, loving, and supportive community that Y'ALL have built together.

I hope this works!
Until then, please have the bestest day possible and try not to melt in this terrible heat. I love y'all and am so thankful to each and every single one of you! 💚🫂💜🫂🩵🫂💖🫂♥️🫂💚





BOB

I can feel my bones vibrate in the echoing silence
A sickly violence just under the skin
Shimmers the flesh with blades of broken spines
Pierced holes that bleed the purest of wines
Drink me, thee horned shadows
Packs of panting devils
Lay me at the feet of thine
Red and Torn 
Cloven-Swine

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-Warped Torturous Time-

Time reverses upon waking
losing dreams of my own making 
Demonic voices gently growl
sending shivers head to toe

What door may stand to such creatures
to guard my mind from such features
Toothless smiles from long dead teachers
Force my cries to steadily grow

All my fears, they seem to know

How do I evade such demons
whilst they hunt me using legions 
Legions of the unwanted dead
will find me soon of that, I'm sure

They'll tie me to both rock and steel
and salivate for their next big meal
Flesh torn and slowly peeled 
my eyes are nailed upon the door

Just pieces on the blood-stained floor

I'm nothing, naught, not anymore

1 year ago | [YT] | 1,262

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Hey, Hi, and Hello Everybody,
I just wanted to say a quick hi and apologize for my very lengthy absence. I've been dealing with an abundance of physical illnesses, and it's been difficult getting around. But thank y'all for hanging in there and putting up with me.
I hope everyone is doing as well as possible, and I'll try to update soon.
Much love. 💚💚🫂💚💚

1 year ago | [YT] | 1,879

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🏥***♤♤🩵🫂Brand New Most Recent Update!!!🫂🩵♤♤***🏩
Sooooo, I have DAMN GOOD NEWS to share with y'all, my Dearest Beautiful Friends!!!
After three back to back to back procedures, all necrotic skin/tissue has been SAFELY removed, and HEALTHY skin has started to take its proper place!
🫂💜👍🩵🙃💜😋🩵👍💜🫂
I am out of the danger zone, and it's all about keeping the site and bandages clean and sterile whilst my body does what it does best.....punching stupid rotting skin in its ugly stupid face!
So please accept my infinite gratitude for y'alls clear and helpful opinions and for the limitless love and support.
If you know me, then you KNOW that it takes EVERYTHING I've got in my energy/courage gas tank to WILLINGLY walk into a hospital to ask for help; hospitals and I have pretty much only SEVERELY negative, harmful, and horrifying memories....so I needed all the help, love, and support I could get to get myself in there; and thanks to all if YOU, I was able to do so! And seriously.....thank goodness I DID...because if much more time had passed, this post would probably have been of a VERY different energy telling a VERY different update.
Thank you so much!
🫂🫂🫂💜💜💜🫂🫂🫂
🩵🩵🩵🫂🫂🫂💚💚💚


🏥☆***UPDATE ***☆🏩
So based on most of the professional opinions that answered my enquiry, along with the MANY supportive messages from the bulk of y'all saying the same SMART thing, I DID indeed go and see one of my Doctors; and they ALSO made it VERY clear that I needed to go to my local Emergency Room asap....and that's exactly what we're gonna do here. I'll be going into the emergency room first thing in the morning, and we've already got it arranged to where my ol' man will drop me off on his way in to work at 0800-hrs. I'll be keeping y'all FURTHER updated with whatever happens in the morning. Thank you again to everyone that answered the call; y'all KNOW my absolute MORTAL FEAR of hospitals...so I'll often ask for opinions to see if I ACTUALLY HAVE to go; so TRULY, from my heart, thank y'all for writing in.
👍💚🫂💚👍

Hello There, Dearest Wonderful Friends,
Firstly, please DO NOT look at the second photo if you have a squeamish tummy.
I need help with opinions from any Doctors, Nurse Practitioners, and/or nurses that happen to see this.
Concerning the SECOND photo, should I be concerned after my wound has turned Black? It is completely numb, and I can't tell if it smells bad or not because I can't bend that close to my feet.

1 year ago (edited) | [YT] | 693

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Just got home in one piece from the hospital on Wednesday. I had a really bad seizure where they had to sedate and put me under intubation because I experienced a violent psychosis episode and kept fighting the staff and wouldn't calm down. I also ended up with an enormous and extremely painful blister on my heel due to the violent shaking on the floor during the seizure. So I was intubated in the ICU for three days and then transferred to a regular room for two days; but I'm home safe and sound now. Sorry for my disappearance 💔🫂💔

1 year ago | [YT] | 1,182

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Hey friends, so as you may have guessed, things have been a bit unhinged and difficult of late. I've been trying to stay sane by really writing for the first time in a loooong while, and I'd like to share this one with y'all. I hope everyone is doing as well as possible. 💜🫂💚



-My Dorian Gray-


Thine leaking eyes
betray your silenced cries
as you stand affixed to a rotting wall
Your quiet lies 
cover your weeping sighs 
as you teeter unbalanced to fall

You, my Dorian Gray 
want me drawn to stay 
even as I shiver with the need to flee
A living pompeii 
you want me to lay 
and not move as I beg to be free

Internal whispers 
from wicked witch sisters
make a marsh of our broken mind 
No lovely glass slippers
hide our bleeding blisters
or lead us to one day find

A world that makes sense 
not one riddled with hints
thrown about the well beaten path
To look past the forced fence
that surrounds us hence 
to see joy, not hatred or wrath

An emotional jealousy 
fraught with false prophecy 
that if followed will lead to my doom
So we sit here now breathlessly 
praying quite desperately 
that death shan't come too soon 

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