I think it’s been a while that I visited this place. Hello guys, Have you been done well? These days I’m spending all of my energy to my life though. Of course it’s not always good but i tried to accept it that is my life. Concentrating to my life makes me to perceive the reality of life, so it makes me that there’s nothing more important except myself. That’s why I didn’t have been visit here for a while. Still I don’t love myself 100%, struggling with life and depression, Sometimes ask to myself of what the reason to live. (Still dk.) Sorry for you guys i think i have to take a rest more. Love you all, and Take care.
Hello. I just drop here before go to bed. i’m feeling a little sentimental and emotional now so that i want to talk anything to anyone whoever.
Oh, before saying some deep and blue talk, Cheers to SHINee. Congratulation on getting 1st place! I knew you’d do a good job that as always as you’ve done. Bling Bling my five stars. You guys are always my stars.
Anyway These days, I spend a lot of time alone. Going outside and doing outside activities is very energy consuming for me. So defensively, I’m reluctant to go out. The noise around me, the relationship with people, everything is a series of tiredness and tension. Not lying, my Apple Watch always says my pulse rate is 128 BPM.
Then the doctor and family get angry with me and try to drag me out right away. After a scuffle, it eventually spreads out loud, and we eventually huff with our faces red. Of course I know. It’s because they’re worried about me. I suffer from depression, and this is a typical symptom of a depressed patient. But I want to be alone as quietly as possible. I don’t want to go out.
As soon as I go outside, my whole nerves and pulse become super sensitive. Do you know how it feels? The anxiety and tension that I can feel every cell from hair to toe makes me tired.
And.. The work, my job is also bothering me. I’m a English Instructor of middle and high school, My responsibility for each student is too great. Everyone says it’s what makes me hard on myself. It’s so painful when I can’t give a perfect lecture or show my perfect appearance to a student.
‘You can’t take responsibility for everything about the student,’ everyone advised me like this. Yep I also know that. But It just doesn’t work out. Is it because of the perfectionist tendencies? Yeah, maybe. I’m not sure how far I’m going to take charge of this student and how far I’m going to let go of my obsession… And I feel limited in my ability. I didn’t know until I did this that being good at English and teaching English to someone were completely different. Especially, I learned English very naturally, so I don’t know how to teach children about studying for exams.
All right guys, I deleted the video which has his voice using AI.
Actually, I still can’t really listen to his old songs. Because they contain his sadness and feelings that I missed at the time. But the new song with his voice restored by AI, I could hear it even though it make me to burst into tears. It was possible because I knew that the voice wasn't really his. I felt happy for a moment, even if it was fake, in the midst of nostalgia, sadness, and joy. Isn't that enough?
It's not really his voice, but I was finally able to meet his voice, and I was able to meet him once again. I mean, it was a pleasure for me.
There are some negatives that AI has, but if it allows someone who misses someone deeply to smile for a moment, would that be such a sin? I'm sorry if I made you uncomfortable. But don't be so hard on me. I was happy for a moment, but that doesn't mean I don't respect him. I just miss it. That voice that I can't hear anymore...
God, youknowwhat, i had never noticed that HE IS Baekhyun before I checked comments, cuz he is so natural and so perfect fit in SHINee, I mean with Taemin, he’s so go well with it. I can say he is a Unknown hidden secret memeber of SHINee. Imao.
SHINE days
SHINE days
I think it’s been a while that I visited this place. Hello guys, Have you been done well? These days I’m spending all of my energy to my life though. Of course it’s not always good but i tried to accept it that is my life. Concentrating to my life makes me to perceive the reality of life, so it makes me that there’s nothing more important except myself. That’s why I didn’t have been visit here for a while. Still I don’t love myself 100%, struggling with life and depression, Sometimes ask to myself of what the reason to live. (Still dk.) Sorry for you guys i think i have to take a rest more. Love you all, and Take care.
Send you love,
Jane.
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https://youtu.be/T1j0lA6El2o
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Hi is there anyone know why SHINee HARD Recording behind vid which was uploaded few hours ago is blocked on SHINee official YT channel?
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Hello. I just drop here before go to bed. i’m feeling a little sentimental and emotional now so that i want to talk anything to anyone whoever.
Oh, before saying some deep and blue talk, Cheers to SHINee. Congratulation on getting 1st place! I knew you’d do a good job that as always as you’ve done. Bling Bling my five stars. You guys are always my stars.
Anyway These days, I spend a lot of time alone. Going outside and doing outside activities is very energy consuming for me. So defensively, I’m reluctant to go out. The noise around me, the relationship with people, everything is a series of tiredness and tension. Not lying, my Apple Watch always says my pulse rate is 128 BPM.
Then the doctor and family get angry with me and try to drag me out right away. After a scuffle, it eventually spreads out loud, and we eventually huff with our faces red. Of course I know. It’s because they’re worried about me. I suffer from depression, and this is a typical symptom of a depressed patient. But I want to be alone as quietly as possible. I don’t want to go out.
As soon as I go outside, my whole nerves and pulse become super sensitive. Do you know how it feels? The anxiety and tension that I can feel every cell from hair to toe makes me tired.
And.. The work, my job is also bothering me. I’m a English Instructor of middle and high school, My responsibility for each student is too great. Everyone says it’s what makes me hard on myself. It’s so painful when I can’t give a perfect lecture or show my perfect appearance to a student.
‘You can’t take responsibility for everything about the student,’ everyone advised me like this. Yep I also know that. But It just doesn’t work out.
Is it because of the perfectionist tendencies? Yeah, maybe. I’m not sure how far I’m going to take charge of this student and how far I’m going to let go of my obsession… And I feel limited in my ability. I didn’t know until I did this that being good at English and teaching English to someone were completely different. Especially, I learned English very naturally, so I don’t know how to teach children about studying for exams.
And I miss JongHyun tonight more than other days…
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Everything Every moment of SHINee 15 years
https://youtu.be/fGQmg5evbIg
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All right guys, I deleted the video which has his voice using AI.
Actually, I still can’t really listen to his old songs. Because they contain his sadness and feelings that I missed at the time.
But the new song with his voice restored by AI, I could hear it even though it make me to burst into tears. It was possible because I knew that the voice wasn't really his. I felt happy for a moment, even if it was fake, in the midst of nostalgia, sadness, and joy. Isn't that enough?
It's not really his voice, but I was finally able to meet his voice, and I was able to meet him once again. I mean, it was a pleasure for me.
There are some negatives that AI has, but if it allows someone who misses someone deeply to smile for a moment, would that be such a sin?
I'm sorry if I made you uncomfortable. But don't be so hard on me. I was happy for a moment, but that doesn't mean I don't respect him. I just miss it. That voice that I can't hear anymore...
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I miss him. Miss his voice. Miss ONEW. Tonight I need his voice. And another voice that comes to mind, too.
https://youtu.be/hIU0ICjNsS4
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God, youknowwhat, i had never noticed that HE IS Baekhyun before I checked comments, cuz he is so natural and so perfect fit in SHINee, I mean with Taemin, he’s so go well with it. I can say he is a Unknown hidden secret memeber of SHINee. Imao.
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This is SHINee. 💎💎💎💎💎
https://youtu.be/brs6-n87zeo
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