Alfanumeric (Inflatable Drone)

Hi.
You might have noticed that my videos have recently disappeared.
They're still available, but following my previous update, I've decided to make them private.

When I started this channel, it was feasible, albeit challenging, to create content for adults that wasn't sexually explicit on YouTube. I was prepared for this challenge. I love my rigs and suits, they're what I wanted to do for a long time. However, this began to change very rapidly as the channel went onwards. The amount of content that has disappeared without ever having been preserved is genuinely heartbreaking. With the way YouTube operates now, there is no middle-ground; either you're appropriate for minors, or you're pornographic.

Additionally, while minors seeking out this content will always find a way, the fact is that too many of the engagements from my videos were from minors. This has always made me deeply uncomfortable. While disabling comments made me feel a little better, I still get new subscribers who are clearly underage.

There's no way around it. It's a playground now. Anybody else who still makes kink content on YouTube is dancing in a minefield.

In addition to still being on YouTube's servers, I personally have copies of all my videos archived. At some point, hopefully soon, they'll be public on a new platform; I just haven't decided which yet. I'm waiting for the right one.

If you're involved with any sort of preservation project for this content, please do get in touch with me about the details on it, I would be happy to provide what I have.

1 year ago (edited) | [YT] | 18

Alfanumeric (Inflatable Drone)

Unfortunately, I've had an uptick in comments that are either completely nonsensical or obviously from children, so I've decided to disable comments across all my videos. I'm honestly unhappy with the way this channel has gone as a whole, and will likely be moving to another platform which actually takes age restriction seriously.

2 years ago | [YT] | 10

Alfanumeric (Inflatable Drone)

About: Gender

I get asked all the time about my gender, or in some cases I'm sure, the gender I was assigned at birth.

My answer is typically some witty way of saying "none of your business", and while I intend to actually answer the question here, I want to explain why that is first.

This channel is a costuming/practical effects channel first. It's a kink channel second. And it is a *p*rn* channel *never.* (If this distinction is confusing, consider how "hentai" and "ecchi" aren't the same thing, same with p*rn/er*tica.

What people get off to is, strictly speaking, none of my business. I'm sure many of you find my content sexually appealing, and that's, again, none of my business. But I'm asexual (more specifically, acekink/autochorisexual.) I came out here to make cool weird stuff, not to be a p*rnstar. If that were the case, I wouldn't be on YouTube.

So when people ask me about my gender, the way I parse that is "I'm monosexual (gay or heterosexual), and this content is a sexual interest of mine, but I won't let myself enjoy your content unless I know your gender."

Even with this interpretation aside, it's a sort of entitlement that I find exhausting. But with that, it tells me that my content is *probably* not aiming where you're looking.

What is in my pants shouldn't be a factor in deciding whether you enjoy my content. If it matters so much you need to ask, I'm not making it *for* you, but sharing it *with* you.

If you read this far, thank you, and I did promise I was gonna actually answer the question.

I identify as genderfluid, and in a more general sense, as a transfeminine person. From this, you should be able to discern what "equipment" I have. There's a good reason I show as little of my actual body as I can manage, and it's not just my gear kink; I have extreme dysphoria which can in fact be triggered by traditionally sexual attention. Another reason as to the above.

I hope you come away from this understanding me a little better, and I hope you continue to support my content. If you don't want to however, that's perfectly fine, and I wish you well regardless.

Yours,

🤖🎈🌠

3 years ago | [YT] | 14

Alfanumeric (Inflatable Drone)

It has come to my attention that a lot of the people commenting on my videos are minors.
If you are under the age of 18, you are not supposed to be here. My videos are age-restricted for a reason.
In the future, I will be turning on screening for comments and checking commenters' profiles before permitting them. If you are a minor, you will be banned.

Make good choices.

3 years ago | [YT] | 11

Alfanumeric (Inflatable Drone)

Do me a favor.
If you've ever loved an inflation YouTuber, go to their channel, and back up everything you can. If you have backups, make sure they're available and accessible. (Please only post them if you have the permission of the creator to do so; alternatively, offer to send them over so they have them should they be deleted.)

It's overwhelmingly clear that YT doesn't care for us, and will continue to wipe us out with impunity. We will all become lost media unless enough people care enough to stop it.

Do it for them, for me, for the scene and for its history.

3 years ago | [YT] | 11

Alfanumeric (Inflatable Drone)

Hey, guys! Let's chat.
I know I keep going many months between uploads and I wanna talk about why that is.

So when I started this YouTube channel, I was between permanent addresses, and looking for any excuse to do something fun for myself. Between then and the debut of the helmet, I ended up once again houseless and that time, on my own. I managed to get myself set up and on disability benefits since then, as I'm chronically ill.

The reason I can afford gear is an annuity which pays its last next year, and my partners who are supportive of my ambitions.

I always want to do inflation content. This kink is a big part of me (so to speak), and I'd die before I had to give it up. The triple-whammy of queer, trans, and disabled, leaves little opportunities for people like me to become somebody, and I never considered myself cut out for "real" sex work, or anything you'd *have* to put on an actual porn site.

But I knew the line I was riding was slim, and over the last few years, it began to close entirely. Creators who have gone out of their way to stay within the limits of YouTube's terms of service have been wiped off the map completely. So much content is now lost media. The ones who started around when I did were the lucky ones. Maybe one or two of my own inspirations remain.

So I refrained from posting anymore, out of fear. All my content is backed up. If this channel goes away, it'll be made available elsewhere. So fear stopped being the main driver of my inactivity after a while.

And then in January of this year, I caught COVID-19.

My infection was brief, albeit miserable. I had one of my shots, but not the other, because my mental health and finances at the time made even *getting to the clinic* a non-starter. And then people started moving in and out of the sublet I live in, unmasked, dubiously vaccinated. I was probably infected when I went to use the bathroom while three guys moved a television to the second floor.

And ever since then, I haven't felt like myself, a person who struggled to care for themself enough to start with. I've had migraines once every couple weeks, with tails lasting for days. I had been familiar with the experience of brainfog, but now it's a daily reality. My e-bike, which had been my main transportation, is broken, and the shop hasn't contacted me about it since it went in. Even then, I couldn't afford to have it repaired. So my clothes have deteriorated, I've struggled to keep up on food.

It's been really, *really* hard. I'm trying not to go over my whole life story, but hopefully at this point, you get the gist. Cleaning up my space, getting a shoot together, and doing it, takes most of the energy I have for a day, and then I'm likely to be in pain for the rest.

But even so, I've still wanted to do it. And I did it today! And I want to continue doing it. Because kink is my life, it's who I am. If this platform won't have me, then I'll find one that will. But I need to find other things to do as well. I've been pondering what to do, and I don't have an answer yet, but I have a few ideas. I do my best work when I'm spontaneous, and it's become clear that forcing myself to get a project done is a great way to ensure it never gets done.

But you guys will be the first to know. Thanks for hanging in there, thanks for supporting me, thanks for all the messages across social media asking where I've been. I'm still here. I'm gonna keep showing up for you guys, because you deserve it, and because I want to. Idk what the future holds, but I hope it's gonna be just as much fun as I've had here.

Love you,

- A

3 years ago | [YT] | 11