heatherthedisventurecampfan2025

Hey guys I apologize for not posting for the last couple of days it's because of drama and everything and because it's almost been a month since I lost my mamaw I'm also sorry for not being active in the sub seasons either because I've been taking a break from them because of personal reasons and because I've been sad for a couple of days and I also haven't been active for a couple of days because of drama the drama has also made me really sad that's why I haven't been active on sub seasons or anything else because of the drama and because of all the fighting and stuff like that

And I was taking a break because of personal reasons and because of people having fallen out in the community and because I was missing my mamaw a lot these past couple weeks...

And I do want to apologize for being inactive on sub seasons for a while because of personal reasons and I was just taking a break for my mental health and everything

And I feel deeply bad for doing this and worrying all of you guys

But ever since you know the drama got so bad and because people have been inactive and not talking to me recently I have been inactive for a little while for the last 4 days

I was really afraid that people were going to leave my YouTube channel and possibly expose me for being mean although I have changed I was also really afraid I was going to lose subscribers and stuff

I really don't want anyone leaving me because I've been here for 2 years and you know you guys mean a lot to me

It's just that my sadness and depression have literally caused me to be inactive for almost a whole month of April and March

And I do want to apologize for that and I want to apologize deeply for being inactive on sub seasons which it wasn't my control

I really don't want anyone to hate me or get mad at me because that will make things worse

So please understand what I'm talking about because it's been really rough for me for the last 2 months and I don't want anything getting worse

So please no hateful comments or begging me to be active all the time because that will not be necessary because I can't be active all the time if I'm asleep or if I'm going somewhere or if I don't have any Wi-Fi or if I'm at my dad's house or if I'm spending time with family don't beg me to be active all the time because that doesn't help me

I can't always be active all the time because I have a life and I have to do it and where I am going to get me a job pretty soon I'll probably be less active

And I can't always be a therapist or vent to someone because I'm always afraid of opening up to people

I hope you guys understand what I'm talking about because it's been really hard for me since March and April

Tags for my friends‪@TheDukeofAwesomeness77‬ ‪@tjmcdermott2665‬ ‪@lucacostanesi5123‬ ‪@Ashley_DC26‬ ‪@Izzy-and-DJ-Fan120‬ ‪@MultiFandom_Ghostly‬ ‪@Icecube2763‬ ‪@Luvv4Suni‬ ‪@AJTHECHAMPION167‬ ‪@blazethemaskedsingerfan3‬ ‪@Power_cosmic1588‬ ‪@TessLakeAidenandHannahfan‬ ‪@TheThreeIcons‬ ‪@mypodologdp‬ ‪@SQU1DWAR4‬ ‪@stevethesmartbird27‬ ‪@Joyful_Gem247‬ ‪@anezyay2812‬ ‪@DisventureCampZoom‬ ‪@Galaxyechofighter777‬ ‪@EK_Hunter‬ ‪@TotalMkFan25‬ ‪@animalcrossingcrew‬ ‪@GiveLindsay_Luv‬ ‪@GiveMike_Luv‬ ‪@skipping_allday‬ ‪@Ray_drxmx‬ ‪@Courtneysvsp‬ ‪@moonlight75638‬ ‪@Tess.notebook‬ ‪@ddcastle358‬ ‪@tjmcdermott2665‬ ‪@Seoneditsslayzzzzz‬‪@BILL_THE_GOOBER‬


I hope you guys can understand because it's been rough on me since March and I've been missing my mamaw a awful lot recently and I'm not a therapist or good at venting to someone it's just been rough for me this entire month it's been hard for me to cope and everything and that's why I was inactive for the entire month of March and April so please don't get mad at me or anything because I don't want to lose you guys and I can't risk it 😭 you guys are my friends and I don't want to end up losing anyone I'm just as lonely person in real life that doesn't have anyone to talk to not only that but my sister also has caused a lot of tension with me too many times and I can't handle all the stress in my life it's just too much for me to handle right now and I don't want to end up risking losing my YouTube career and my YouTube Friends so you guys please don't leave me alone...

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13 hours ago | [YT] | 2

heatherthedisventurecampfan2025

This is for ‪@TheDukeofAwesomeness77‬​ sub season 2 and the character I will be doing is Jake from adventure camp season 1 because I remember doing him in his sub season a long time ago but it didn't work out that well so I'm going to do it again


Here is my audition for Jake

Jake is in his room from his adventure camp beta season 1 audition

Jake: hey everyone my name is Jake from adventure camp season 1 and adventure camp All-Stars yes my time on the show was really rough for me to say the least because it was rough between me and Tom and season 1 and then in season 3 it was really rough making friends and having trust issues arguing with Aiden and Ally all the time but the only friends I had was Miriam and Ashley until Ashley was voted off by the villains alliance I didn't get back with Tom until after all stars and everything and we are engaged now but adventure camp season 1 was really rough for me because grett mentioned my ex and she caused a lot of drama with me and Tom to say the least season 3 was the worst as well because you know he kept on ignoring my calls and stuff after adventure camp season 1 was done (sighs) yes it was pretty nasty to say the least

Jake: and when I was on season 1 when my grandma passed away I was pretty devastated and I want to do the sub season for my grandma and for Tom and Miriam because I'm glad I'm back with Tom and I'm glad that I have Miriam as a mother figure to me my family was never supportive of me whenever I got with Tom after all stars and you know me and my brother Sean are on good terms now I just hope that I can win the sub season for Miriam and for my grandmother because I know Miriam had a lot of health problems at the time I also want to win this for Tom and my brother Sean because I've been through a lot since season 1 and you know I had trust issues and I suffer with depression too I also cut ties with my mom and dad after the show except for Sean Tom and Miriam


Jake: this is my redemption to show myself that I have changed I really hope you pick me for the show and I really hope that I can redeem myself I want to do this for you Grandma Miriam Sean and Tom and Ashley and all the rest of the people I made friends with after All Stars please pick me for the love of God I really need to win


Audition ends with Jake writing his thoughts in his diary and playing with his cat gabs


OOC: my name is Heather the adventure camp fan 2025 you may remember that I did your season 1 and season 2 Sub season in the past months ago and I haven't been doing many sub season since although I haven't been having much luck in the sub season community anymore because of getting booted early and because of the fact that a lot of stuff was going on but I am going to do this for my sake


1. I am always active unless I am asleep or busy or if I don't have internet


2. My character role is a hero because Jake wants to redeem himself from adventure camp season 1 and 3

3. My strategies is to make it far in the sub season and make alliances and friendships and rivalries and enemies as well and I also want to make it far this time


And finally I am doing this in honor of my mamaw and my friend rain who left YouTube weeks ago because I know they wanted me to win sub seasons all the time and I finally want to get this early boot curse off my back


‪@TheDukeofAwesomeness77‬ if you're seeing this I'm sorry if I didn't do it in the community post because I wasn't really comfortable with doing it in the comments because doing it on community post is much easier for me please understand what I'm talking about because when I try to do my auditions in the past I didn't make it further


PS: I do want to apologize for my inactivity in the sub season community because I've been busy and had my anger and depression kick in on me but I'm back now and I hope that I can finally be active next month and in the summertime


Love you guys 🫶

2 days ago (edited) | [YT] | 0

heatherthedisventurecampfan2025

So I just watched the episode and I can't believe this

Ivy is gone sigh rip tribal vibe

You know it should have been Jade or Isabel

The Logan and Spencer interaction was nice

Sad that my favorite character Anastasia didn't get a lot of screen time

But I really hope that Zaid get Justice for two of my favorite characters ivy and Tristan

I just don't really get the ivy hate because I don't hate ivy at all but I don't watch the episodes because I don't like getting spoiled most of the time please respect that

But I really hope that he gets Justice for his tribal mates

But I really think that the red team made a wrong move here especially Hannah and Benji I don't hate them but I hate it how you know they split up my favorite couple

But I'm really hoping that Zaid gets Justice for ivy and Tristan

#JusticeforivyandTristan

#Justiceforthetribevibe

Overall it was a really sad elimination and a really good episode

Ivy was definitely robbed

I promise I'm not giving out any spoilers but she really ate up Jade and Isabel

But what are your predictions for episode 13 let me know in the comments below

I promise I wasn't causing any spoilers or anything because I don't do that

But please let me know your predictions for episode 13 and 14

Thanks guys 🙂

5 days ago (edited) | [YT] | 1

heatherthedisventurecampfan2025

Let's freaking go my first win

See I told you hard work pays off

Because I was a huge fan of The masked Singer in high school and middle school I am going to do more TMYS because they are so much fun to do

Thanks TJ for letting me do this and despite all the drama in the season I finally did it

#Firstwin

#hardworkpaysoff

‪@tjmcdermott2665‬ thank you so much for letting me compete and despite all the drama that you had on the series I will continue to do it until I win a lot of them because this is the first time that I ever did one like that


So you know what that means winner winner chicken dinner 🙂

1 week ago | [YT] | 1

heatherthedisventurecampfan2025

I am going to make another vent and if you make a mean or a rude comment your comment will get removed and if you don't care about my vents please leave warning this will make people sad or cry or feel bad for me 💔


Vent: for a while now I've been really stressed out and really depressed and everything and I've been too scared to you know open up to anyone and the drama on YouTube has not been helping either when I was in my last 2 years of high school I was always left out and I was kicked out of my special curriculars because of the same group of people that bullied me and they humiliated me the last two years of high school and everyone took advantage of my autism and you know the loss of my mamaw has been bad enough and I barely have nobody else to talk to you on YouTube and I feel so bad for getting so aggravated and angry for the last couple days the drama and the fighting has literally made me sad and cry yesterday I was literally upset for the entire day due to being called a bitch and a loser although I didn't do anything wrong and I was accused of drama when you know I never do anything wrong anymore and it caused me to get really upset all day yesterday and if that doesn't seem bad enough the loss of my mamaw a few weeks ago was the last straw for me and it cost me to become depressed for a while and everybody is taking advantage of me on YouTube and humiliating me accusing me of drama accusing me of bullying and I didn't do any of that
I just feel so defeated so depressed so angry and so sad inside that I just want to quit so badly I just feel like a bad YouTuber and a bad sub season contestant I'm probably going to step back from the sub season community after I get eliminated from sub seasons because it's not been working for my mental health anymore and it has destroyed me completely and you know I don't know if I can do this since I'm so suicidal and have dark thoughts in my head because I've been thinking of committing suicide for a long time due to losing my mother a few years ago back in 2021 and that was the last time that I was ever happy because I was happy back in middle school and elementary school when I used to be happy all the time but reality is... Post high school and a year later I barely have no friends I am isolated from everyone and YouTube is the only escape from life


I hope you guys understand what I'm talking about because I got into a fight with AJ yesterday and the drama has not been helping me at all it's breaking my heart and I just want to apologize for a few of my posts since I got upset at one of my friends

I honestly regret my actions in the past and I let my own pain and grief and sadness get the best of me....


Thanks for understanding 🫶 because it's been really upsetting me for a whole week


Tags for my friends I guess: ‪@tjmcdermott2665‬ ‪@lucacostanesi5123‬ ‪@Ashley_DC26‬ ‪@TheDukeofAwesomeness77‬ ‪@Luvv4Suni‬ ‪@Courtneysvsp‬ ‪@TessLakeAidenandHannahfan‬ ‪@TheThreeIcons‬ ‪@AJTHECHAMPION167‬ ‪@thatgirltd‬ ‪@AlolaMasked‬ ‪@EK_Hunter‬ ‪@stevethesmartbird27‬ ‪@Ant_TD‬ ‪@Luvv4gabby‬ ‪@emesngabs‬ ‪@hannahsvsp‬ ‪@Greyson11556‬ ‪@Verofuyu‬ ‪@rqinydqys‬ ‪@Power_cosmic1588‬ ‪@QuittingY0uTube_.Byexxh‬ ‪@Rafael-op3pmd‬ ‪@MultiFandom_Ghostly‬ ‪@Dasoupmaster‬ ‪@Seoneditsslayzzzzz‬ ‪@Icecube2763‬ ‪@Tess.notebook‬ ‪@Dakotas_paparazzi‬ ‪@Ray_drxmx‬ ‪@theamazonprince7132‬ ‪@lindsays.lipgloss‬ ‪@DisventureBenjiFan‬ ‪@tylers.tracksuit‬ ‪@anezyay2812‬ ‪@DisventureCampZoom‬ ‪@Joyful_Gem247‬ ‪@GiveMike_Luv‬ ‪@BrawlStarsForever-t3k‬ ‪@BrawlStarsBrockMain‬ ‪@SammiTD‬



Again I'm really afraid of losing friends and everything and you know I don't want anybody leaving my channel and everything and I'm glad that I finally opened up about everything and I feel so bad for being a jerk in the past I'm trying to be a better person but the drama has been getting in my way recently and you know because of losing my mamaw it's been hard for me to be active on here and stuff and I'm really sorry to you guys because I tried to be nice and it hurts....
I really hope you all understand what I said because I've been angry sad depressed heartbroken and everything this week 💔 I hate when friends cause drama and it causes me to break down please forgive me for everything I've said because honestly I really don't deserve to be here after everything that's happened to me

I love you guys ❤️

Just understand not to be mean to others and don't post me mean comments or anything

Thanks guys 🙂

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1 week ago | [YT] | 0

heatherthedisventurecampfan2025

I guess I'm going to die alone now

I'm not always used to opening up to other people on YouTube and in real life

My last two years of high school was really rough for me because of the horrible bullying incident I had to go through and then after the group of girls that were treating me so badly in high school I was excluded from many special curriculums including choir and other activities and I couldn't get many opportunities because of what happened

And I also just found out ‪@TheThreeIcons‬ is taking a break for 3 weeks and I feel really bad for her

I didn't mean to overreact or anything it's just that I don't like being alone on this platform especially in real life

Yesterday I had a really terrible day where I had drama with my friend AJ although that I did apologize to her on Pinterest and everything I just don't want anybody getting angry at me because that is really a fear of mine

And ‪@TheThreeIcons‬ if you're seeing this I'm really really sorry for your lost and I'm sorry if I got upset or anything because I'm not used to always being by myself on YouTube because apparently on this platform a lot of people are not active and I wish we can talk during your break but I know you don't have Pinterest and I'm sorry for overreacting and I'm sad that I won't be able to do your sub season for a while please don't get mad at me and everything and I'm sorry for overreacting on you and I feel like that I'm going to die of loneliness now

Because I was fearing that people were going to leave me alone and block me forever and you know people are always taking advantage of my disability autism and I was recently accused of being a liar and I was also being accused of being a loser and I was called a bitch yesterday was really hurt my feelings

Because people on the sub seasons have also been calling me names and you know I was falsely accused of things that I never did and I was accused of drama that I never did and I don't like getting accused of stuff that I've never done and two of my former friends told me to shut up yesterday it was the girl fan and the ultimate PJ masks fan and I also had drama with AJ yesterday which caused our friendship to get even more sadder and broken than ever before


I feel so damn ashamed of overreacting and you know getting upset at people because I'm trying to get better at sub seasons but I guess the sub season community has really got the best of me

And I want to apologize again to ‪@TheThreeIcons‬ again for overreacting and getting upset because I'm not really used to being alone and one of the people told me to give you space when you know I am not used to giving people space so please forgive me and I really hope that you can get Pinterest because I'm going to be really lonely for 3 weeks which will really make me sad and I'm sorry again for your loss and I didn't mean to get upset with you


And one more thing you know I don't want people blocking me or you know leaving my YouTube channel for good and unsubscribing from me because that is a really bad fear of mine because you know my former friends have been accusing me of drama when you know I've never done that and yesterday I was accused of lying when you know I've never done that because I was accused of that when I was on my other channel Heather the TDI fan 2025 and that caused a lot of people to hate on me and get a lot of hate and everything and when that happened I was disqualified for many sub seasons for everything that happened and that's why I'm no longer friends with the girlfriend the ultimate PJ masks fan hawk and more people that accused me of things that I've never done when you know I am getting better as a person


So please don't get mad at me and everything because it's been a really hard month for me ever since losing my mamaw and it's been really hard for me to cope with it and I want to apologize for my anger yesterday and everything it wasn't at any of you guys it was at myself because I've been stuck living with my sister for 4 years and I haven't been able to connect with any other friends of mine in real life my life has been a real living hell and I was being called really inappropriate names on sub seasons which really hurt me as well and I'm really sorry for being a jerk lately to everyone because I can't even control my emotions right now because I normally get angry sad depressed I say things that I don't normally say and I can't take it back and I feel completely ashamed of myself for saying all that crap that I said back then and that's why I don't compete in Lucas sub season anymore because of what happened between me and hawk back then and I may step back from some sub seasons because of you know my anger and other stuff that's been going on


And you know I am really desperate to vent to someone as well for my issues but not many people want to hear about my problems or my losses in my family because I was also getting humiliated in a lot of sub seasons because of my autism and they were taking real advantage of it and I do want to apologize again for my actions recently because although I don't cause drama anymore as much as I used to and I'm trying to control my emotions in real life people are probably going to leave me


Thanks for understanding

And again ‪@TheThreeIcons‬ I apologize again for overreacting and I'm really wishing that I can talk to you during your break I'm heartbroken that you're leaving YouTube and everything and it really leaves a hole in my heart now because I relate to you when I lost family members when I lost my mamaw a few weeks ago because of old age she was really sick and I was really relating to you and I apologize again for overreacting when I know that you need space right now but I was wondering if you and I can talk privately before you go... And I hope that you're active on sub seasons because I like you being with me all the time as my buddy and again I'm really sorry for your loss


One more thing before I post this because I relate to a lot of people when I lost family because when I lost my mother back in 2021 I was in a deep depression for a year and I remember when I went back to school for my sophomore year I got emotional in front of my choir teacher for the very first time and I was just devastated and then when I lost my close friend of Mr Farley back in 2022 I was so heartbroken for a week I couldn't talk to anyone at the time because high School losing family members and depression really hurts me


Thank you for understanding my pain as well and I'm sorry for all the trouble I have caused


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‪@EK_Hunter‬ ‪@TheDukeofAwesomeness77‬‪@mypodologdp‬ ‪@Luvv4catboy‬ ‪@thatgirltd‬
‪@Luvv4Suni‬

And again I like to apologize for my anger lately because I'm not getting angry at you guys I've been getting angry at myself in real life and not anybody on YouTube because I'm not used to always being the lonely one so please don't unsubscribe or leave me because I really don't want that and you know I've been in a really dark place for years ever since I lost my mom because I don't want to lose my friends over anything I do and high school was really traumatizing for me because of not fitting in and people taking advantage of my autism and my disability I was getting my heart broken I was getting manipulated I was getting used all the time I was getting left out I was you know left in the dust and I would like to apologize for not being active in the sub seasons anymore and for the love of God I don't want you guys leaving me alone because you guys are my friends on YouTube and I do want to apologize for not being active as much as I used to be because I am trying to get me a job and when I do I won't be as active as I used to be because there's been so much stress on me in real life that I can't even cope with my anger and depression right now because it's been really hard for me for the last month and a half and I don't want people taking it out on me and calling me names and taking advantage of me

Thanks for understanding 🫶 ❤️ 🌼

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1 week ago | [YT] | 1

heatherthedisventurecampfan2025

I'm definitely not okay right now...

Well because I have been feeling like this all day

Because I am missing my mamaw and the sub season community has really depressed me

I'm not always perfect but the sub season community has destroyed my mental health


It caused me to lash out on people and I can't even take back the words or anything I've said because I feel like a complete monster for what I've been doing


I mean I did rekindle a couple of my friendships but I don't talk to them as much where I'm so busy with sub seasons nowadays


I just had no idea my anger or depression was going to get so bad

Because my mom and Mamaw meant so much to me

And now it's just me feeling alone and isolated I can't even sleep or drink or eat or even go out of my room without getting yelled at all the time

I don't blame it on my family I blame it on myself because it's been going on since 2021 before I joined the community


And I hated myself ever since because I used to have really violent tempers to the point that I was sent to the hospital a couple of times and the police was called to my house to the point that opportunities were taken away from me

And people are just taking advantage of my autism and it really upsetted me for years

Because I used to have really violent tempers and I used to you know hit people and get really upset when I didn't get my way and you know it just made me feel guilty because that wasn't who I was


Because I've been through betrayal heartbreak backstabbed losing friends because of something I didn't do being isolated away from people when you know I want to be with friends being followed by other people when you know you don't want people following you and my Independence was taken away from me for a while after what happened to me


I just had no idea this was going to happen to me and the sub season community and the platform has really destroyed my happiness and my mental health completely

I'm just not okay at this point honestly....

Because I have suicidal thoughts... And I had thoughts of killing myself

Because I was bullied and humiliated in the sub season community it caused me to lash out on everyone causing me to lose friends in the past and I was such an idiot for that


I just don't know if I want to do any more sub seasons because this has destroyed my mental health and my happiness and I still care about everyone but I'm just really sad that this had to come to this because I felt like a complete jerk for taking it out on AJ earlier and it wasn't fair that I got eliminated on a couple of sub seasons when you know it was Easter yesterday and I couldn't control it and I was eliminated from a few sub seasons a few weeks ago when I lost my Mamaw and I had some other personal things going on in my life and I couldn't control that either and people were just you know whining about me being inactive all the time which I was not happy about


therapy and counseling isn't going to help because it will make me more sad so please don't tell me what to do because I can do what I can to help

And I remember a few months ago I got banned from two sub seasons permanently for my anger issues but things got so bad that I got exposed for it months ago


I mean I am speaking from the heart and I'm saying what I'm saying because this has been going on for 2 years since I've been in the community


Because people were taking advantage of my autism and they were humiliating me in the sub seasons and stuff

I hope you guys are understanding what I'm talking about because it's my fault that everything has happened and I can't even fix it....


So please understand what I'm talking about because I'm just not been okay for the last couple of weeks since I had a loss in my family and this is why I've been less active than I have been because I've been spending more time with my family members and you know been trying to cope and everything and it hurts


Tags for my friends: ‪@Ray_drxmx‬​ ‪@Verofuyu‬​ ‪@BowieXAlecChampion‬​ ‪@hannahsvsp‬​ ‪@AlolaMasked‬​ ‪@tjmcdermott2665‬​ ‪@Aidenkingdc‬​ ‪@itsbirthdayrosietoday‬​ ‪@MultiFandom_Ghostly‬​ ‪@love4julia‬​ ‪@blazethemaskedsingerfan3‬​ ‪@TheDukeofAwesomeness77‬​ ‪@TessLakeAidenandHannahfan‬​ ‪@lucacostanesi5123‬​ ‪@DisventureCampZoom‬​ ‪@GiveTylerLove‬​ ‪@Joyful_Gem247‬​ ‪@Ant_TD‬​ ‪@itsbirthdayrosietoday‬​ ‪@LisaTotalDram-a‬​ ‪@stevethesmartbird27‬​  ‪@anezyay2812‬​ ‪@rqinydqys‬​ ‪@Seoneditsslayzzzzz‬​ ‪@Ashley_DC26‬​ ‪@Reill-pe8t8‬​ ‪@TotalMkFan25‬​ @Luvv4Junior​ ‪@Power_cosmic1588‬​ ‪@Pickemismyname‬​ ‪@Chicken32s‬​ ‪@Not_LoganDisventure‬​ ‪@Dakotas_paparazzi‬​ ‪@Courtneysvsp‬​ ‪@courtneys.notebook‬​ ‪@lucacostanesi5123‬​ ‪@Rafael-op3pmd‬​ ‪@theamazonprince7132‬​ ‪@AJTHECHAMPION167‬​ ‪@moonlight75638‬​ ‪@gabbysupermacy‬​ ‪@Gabbysuperfan‬​ ‪@Luvv4Suni‬​ ‪@theultimatepjmasksfan‬​‪@emesngabs‬​ ‪@thatgirltd‬​ ‪@TheFireyfan34‬​ ‪@Luvv4gabby‬​ ‪@DisventureBenjiFan‬​ ‪@Aidenkingdc‬​ ‪@tylers.tracksuit‬​ ‪@Tyl3rIsYourHomi3‬​ ‪@GiveTylerLove‬​
‪@SammiTD‬ ‪@YaBoiSam7613‬ ‪@Icecube2763‬
‪@Gabbythechampion‬


I just really don't want to lose any more friends and I can't let that happen because I don't want you guys to leave me because I've been going through way too much lately to lose my friends and I really don't want that because a lot of people take advantage of my disability and you know I don't like that and my anger and depressed issues have been really bad and I also have had trust issues in the past and then isolating myself away from people you guys don't know the real pain that I had in myself it's been going on for years ever since I lost my mother and I can't lose friends because that makes me sad and you know it has been happening to me for a while because I lost my mamaw weeks ago and it's been making me more depressed than ever it's just been bothering me for a while and I just haven't been myself in the community and the sub season community has really destroyed me I just don't know what else to do because it has destroyed me and it's been going downhill from here it just really hurts so much for me

I just really don't want you guys leaving my channel or unsubscribing to me because that's my biggest fear because I haven't been okay since I lost my mamaw and I've had some really bad thoughts and I just been in a dark place for a while because you know I don't want anybody leaving my channel because that's what caused me depression in the first place and I don't want to be alone that's all because I love all of you guys and you guys are my biggest fans

Because I've been through heartbreak depression betrayal getting accused of drama when you know I haven't done anything getting accused of bullying when you know I never done that either getting accused of causing drama when you know I never did that and getting accused of doing stuff when you know I haven't done anything wrong which really angers me as well because earlier I was called a loser I was called a b i t c h and people were yelling at me for no reason and I was called names for no reason


I hope you guys don't leave me because I don't want to be alone again....

Please 🥺 for the love of God please don't leave my channel because I don't want to be alone anymore


Thanks for understanding 🫶❤️

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heatherthedisventurecampfan2025

I am not okay

I am tired and cranky

I can't eat I can't sleep

The sub season community... Has really killed my reputation 😞

I almost lost a friend last night because of suicide

And yes I have suicidal thoughts myself because I've been having thoughts of it for months

I know I have so much to live for but ever since I lost my mamaw and My mother 3 years ago I can't seem to cope with my sadness anymore

And every time I do a sub season it keeps consuming my anger and sadness

I can't stop blaming myself for everything

And I keep getting blamed for drama that I've never done although I'm trying to keep myself out of drama it's just hurting me so much

I've been trying to keep myself out of trouble and now AJ is now gone until probably fall or winter of 2025 why do I hate myself so badly

I lost my mother and my mamaw I feel like I lost everything....

I tried so hard to keep my emotions in check but every time there's a sub season it always makes me upset

I've tried so darn hard... But nothing seems to make me feel better and I feel like I've lost everything in my sub season career my friends everybody's trust I feel like I lost myself....

I feel like I am a damn monster for what I've been saying lately and I can't take back what I said because I feel terrible for what happens to me now AJ is gone because of me and she is gone for 5 months because of what happened between us I still want to be friends with her but drama keeps consuming me like a monster


I feel useless...

I feel like a bully...

I feel like a sad monster...

My heart hurts....

I just feel like everything is going down the drain for me... My life is going down the drain and I ruined my own life because of school for years

I feel like a loser I'm useless and I feel like a monster for causing drama for all of this time maybe I shouldn't have gotten so angry at AJ and blaze for so long 😭

And now AJ is gone because of me I shouldn't have ever gotten angry at no one

My anger got so bad last year that I was banned from two sub seasons and I don't want that to happen anymore

And I've been trying to keep my friendships from falling apart and everything is just falling apart for me I feel like this is my punishment....

Because I've lost more than family I've lost my sub season career I've lost friends because of my attitude in the past I've been guilt-tripping myself for a long time

Maybe I shouldn't have gotten so mad....


I'm sorry 😔

I hope you all can forgive me and please be honest because I just don't want to lose anything else....


Thanks for hearing this because it's been a really rough month for me since I lost my mamaw and I still can't recover from it


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It's just been a rough couple of months for me to say the least I've been trying to keep my anger in check and everything and it's my fault that everything's been getting out of control now my friend AJ is gone and it's all my fault although I never did anything to AJ but she's now grounded for 5 months thanks to me I've been blaming myself for this whole thing all day maybe I don't deserve to have friends maybe I don't deserve to be in sub seasons anymore maybe I don't deserve to be here because I've been suicidal just like Katie but God has a plan for me

I'm trying to get better as a person and things keep getting worse for me 💔 because I lost so much relationships family members friends getting in trouble for no reason getting accused of drama when you know I never did it this community really is falling apart for me

I should have never consumed my anger at all and now my friend AJ is gone and so is rain since she left weeks ago I haven't heard from her on Pinterest for a while I just barely have no one to talk to anymore since I'm lonely all the time now because I used to have friends in real life but I'm out of school now and I really really need to vent to someone that will care about me I just don't know what to do


Thanks for understanding me and listening to this because everything has been falling apart for me for 2 years because I've been consumed by anger depression sadness heartbreak betrayal violent anger issues crying so hard in your sleep not eating and drinking and suicidal thoughts and dark thoughts in my head 💔 I just really need your guys support because I've been going through the same thing just like everyone else in the community because I don't want to be a loner forever I just need friends that will care about me and everything


Thanks for understanding this because I've been having suicidal thoughts and sad thoughts in my head for a while and it's been going on for years and I don't know what to do at this point in life


I love you guys just please don't leave my side

Because everything has been falling apart for me for the last 2 years since I joined the community because I was bullied so much in school to the point that I was almost pulled out and I was almost home schooled life has also been impossible I barely have no one to hang out with or talk to or anyone to talk about my problems


I really missed the times where the community didn't have no drama or fighting and everything I really missed it and it hurts there's been a lot of drama lately

Because it's making it almost impossible to make friends on YouTube

God I feel ashamed of myself after what happened... I'm really going to miss AJ for a while

💔😢

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heatherthedisventurecampfan2025

Missing my mamaw tonight


I miss... Her... So much...

That's why I can't sleep right now 😭

And I apologize for deleting all of my community posts because I just been feeling very depressed and burned out lately

And I had my anger on me earlier so that's why I didn't post and I apologize for what happened

Can anyone make me feel better or make a vent post for me

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I'm sorry if I'm feeling like this but this has been rough on me that's why I can't sleep and it's currently 2:00 in the morning and I've been really stressed out and I really need people to talk to
right now

Can anyone please make a vent post or something to make me feel better because I am in a deep depression again

I'm sorry but I don't think psychology and therapy is going to help me at all because that will make me even more sadder

Because it's going to be sad without my mother and my grandma and my Mamaw for Easter and I miss them so much and it's been a really rough April for me ever since this happened

Please understand what I'm saying

Thanks....

Because it's been a really rough week for me because between me trying to find a job and me being out of school it's going to be really hard for me now

It's just been really rough on me since everything happened in March and I just can't keep my mind off my lost family members

I hope you guys understand....

Thanks guys

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