Welcome to the Small Bow Podcast. I’m your host, A.J. Daulerio. This is a show about expanding the definition of recovery, where we talk to writers, entertainers, recovering addicts, recovering jerks, and even the occasional normal person about their struggles with love, sex, money, loneliness, shame, grief, drugs, alcohol, ego, identity, fame, and other fun things.

In addition to this podcast, the Small Bow is a newsletter and recovery community that I started in 2018 to chronicle my own path toward sobriety and sanity following multiple rehab stints and a very public ordeal in which I was a co-defendant in Gawker's groundbreaking legal trial against pro wrestler Hulk Hogan. A Florida jury voted in favor of Hogan and awarded him $115 million, which bankrupted the company and torched my former life. Good times.

But out of all that grew the Small Bow. If you like what we do, consider subscribing to our newsletter and joining our community.



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This week, legendary soul artist Swamp Dogg joins AJ Daulerio on #TheSmallBow to talk about his new album “Swamp Dogg Contemplates the Afterlife” and stays for a candid conversation about the fluid nature of success, navigating a seven-decade career, and contemplating life, death, and debt. From refusing to imitate his idols like Otis Redding to surviving childhood curses, to never really feeling like a star after a storied career, Swamp Dogg breaks down the radical philosophies that keep him going…and he might contemplate the afterlife?

Tune in to find out. Listen to the full conversation here 👉https://youtu.be/o2iHBt8b06s

#SwampDogg #SoulMusic #TheSmallBow #RadicalThinking #MusicLegend #SwampDoggContemplatesTheAfterlife #SearchingForHeaven

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This week, writer and comedian Megan Koester joins AJ on #TheSmallBow for a funny (yet insightful) conversation about trading self-sabotage for intentional healing. She goes into why she lied about her sobriety when AJ interviewed her the first time, her experience with EMDR therapy and processing childhood trauma, and the surprising utility of prayer for a skeptic.

Watch the full conversation with Megan Koester here 👉 https://youtu.be/aOZfQ9xBh8s

#MeganKoester #EMDRTherapy #ChildhoodNeglect #SoberLies #BodyKeepsTheScore #BackgroundExtraLife #ComedyOfGrief #GriftHorse

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In this week's episode of #TheSmallBow, AJ sits down with Richard Rushfield, co-founder and columnist for The Ankler, to discuss his thirty years of sobriety. They explore the technicalities of the “uninsurable actor” and the systemic pathologies of child stardom that Richard views as an industry-wide failure. Richard also recounts how he learned to navigate social anxiety by simply learning to entertain himself at parties.

Watch the new episode here 👉 https://youtu.be/yCK7mxsK0EY

#RichardRushfield #TheAnkler #LongTermRecovery #30YearsSober #Phish #ShowerPrayer #SocialAnxiety #ChildStars

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You don’t know him yet, but you’ll remember his words. Peaceful John joins #TheSmallBow this week to explain why you have to hate first before you can ever truly forgive. He answers how to move through grief with love, why your 401k won’t fix your self-esteem, and the terrifying reality of true intimacy. Peaceful John reminds us that healing isn't about performing a fake, forced peace, it’s about naming the good and bad to find radical acceptance.

Watch the new episode of The Small Bow here 👉 https://youtu.be/g4nUGdWdb1A

#PeacefulJohn #12StepRecovery #AdultChildren #ACA #CODA #AlAnon #RadicalAcceptance #Detachment #MentalHealth #GriefHealing #InnerPeace

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This week, Mary H. K. Choi joins AJ Daulerio on #TheSmallBow for a candid conversation about confronting family trauma and the clarity her late-life autism diagnosis has brought. From reconciling with her “ghost dad” to the exhausting reality of book promotion as an introvert, Mary digs into what it means to navigate a world not built for neurodivergent people and the equalizing truth that we are all in recovery from something.

Watch the full conversation with author Mary H. K. Choi here 👉 https://youtu.be/YvdGWr9xSgY

#MaryHKChoi #PoolHouse #LateAutismDiagnosis #AlAnonRecovery #TheSmallBow #SelfPromotion #HealingTrauma #PowerofIntroverts

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This week on , Anna Sale (host of Death, Sex & Money) joins AJ Daulerio on #TheSmallBow for an honest look about the things we keep hidden. From the “secret church” feeling that recovery rooms can give, to the profound vulnerability that comes with facing your own mortality, Anna Sale gets into what it truly means to connect.

Watch the new episode with Anna Sale here 👉 https://youtu.be/2pwxLGk6rwU

#AnnaSale #DeathSexAndMoney #GriefSupport #Recovery #FacingMortality #ParentingTruths #MentalHealth #HumanConnection

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This week, Ryan O’Connell (Special, Queer As Folk) sits down with AJ on #TheSmallBow to talk about his unique path as a writer turned TV star. He breaks down why his “healthy dollop of delusion” helped him build a career in an industry that lacked a reference point for someone like him. From the New York blog era to Netflix showrunner and actor, he candidly shares his untraditional path to getting sober after years of managing a high-functioning addiction in a Hollywood pressure cooker.

Watch the new episode of #TheSmallBow here 👉 https://youtu.be/ldXe3kOJ2SU

#RyanOConnell #InspirationPorn #Sobriety #DisabilityRepresentation #NetflixSpecial #AddictionRecovery #HollywoodIndustry

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From “rebel” musician to a present and grateful father, Langhorne Slim joins The Small Bow to talk about his road to recovery and the insights he’s gained along the way. From an irreverent look at how schools fail creative kids, to the petty resentment of not being the #1 notable person on his hometown’s Wikipedia page, Langhorne shares why he’s grateful for the relapse that proved substances could never fulfill him, and how his life has authentically fallen into place.

Watch the full episode here 👉 https://youtu.be/0HdTlPjUtjE

#LanghorneSlim #GretaVanFleet #PickleDad #Stillness #SobrietyStories #SustainableSelfEsteem #TheSmallBowPodcast

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On this week’s episode, Dave Manheim, the host of “Dopey”, stops by to talk about the paradox of being ambitious in recovery. Whether it’s the burden of creative control or the addictive nature of success, Dave and AJ discuss how leading with love is typically a fail-safe. Sometimes it takes a $60 million “dream come true” to realize that external validation is a moving target.

Listen to the full episode with Dave Manheim here: https://youtu.be/5Z6Q6V-1V9I

#DopeyPodcast #DaveManheim #Recovery #Friendship #Dopey #Comedy

1 month ago | [YT] | 1

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Publicist Mitchell Jackson explains the reality of crisis management, from using physical lockboxes to stop celebrity tweet-storms to firing billionaire clients who want to break the law. He reveals how his "Mean Mitchell" persona helped him avoid bullying and how a chaotic childhood in Florida prepared him to manage professional meltdowns.

AJ and Mitchell chat about his sobriety during the drug-heavy VICE Media era and his theory that “cancel culture” is a choice at this point.

Learn how he manages the chaos.

Watch the full interview here: https://youtu.be/MSHflEadrDE

New episodes of The Small Bow drop every Wednesday.

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