Ilona Ciunaite

There is something you call “me” that appears before thought, before language, before any story.

This sense of “me” is immediate and familiar.
It is felt rather than thought.
It shows up as sensation, emotion, and movement in the body.

This Thursday, I’m hosting a live Zoom meeting where we will slow down and meet this sense of self directly.
Through gentle inquiry and shared looking, clarity unfolds naturally.

If you would like to join, the Zoom details are shared through my email list.
You can subscribe here zcmp.eu/ArU9

You are welcome exactly as you are.
I’d love to meet you there.

2 weeks ago | [YT] | 34

Ilona Ciunaite

Happy New Year! We made it to 2026!

A new year often arrives with pressure. Pressure to improve yourself. To become calmer, wiser, more successful, and end bad habits. To finally get it right.

But I want to offer something different this year. Beyond the usual goals and resolutions, there is something more fundamental and powerful.

A permission.

Pause for a moment. Listen. You don’t need to feel peaceful or clear. Just be here.

Imagine it is the end of this year. 2026 is done. Nothing dramatic happened. You simply lived it, one ordinary day at a time.

From that place, let these permissions arise. You can read them quietly or speak them out loud.

I give myself permission to grow in a way that feels natural and sustainable for me.

I give myself permission to move at the pace my body and nervous system can handle.

I give myself permission to want what I want, without explaining or justifying it.

I give myself permission to earn, receive, and support myself in ways that feel clean and honest.

I give myself permission to rest, even when nothing is finished.

I give myself permission to stop comparing my path to anyone else’s.

I give myself permission to let go of what no longer fits, even if I once needed it.

I give myself permission to ask for help and be supported.

I give myself permission to make mistakes and learn from them.

I give myself permission to be ordinary and still meaningful.

I give myself permission to live from what feels true, not from what looks right.

You don’t need to believe these words.
You don’t need to live up to them.

Just let them be spoken. Out loud if you can. Three times each sentence with full breath at each dot.

Maybe this year doesn’t ask you to become someone new.
Maybe it asks you to stop withholding permission from yourself.

These permissions are allowed.

May you enjoy this year beyond what you thought was possible.
with love.

3 weeks ago | [YT] | 67

Ilona Ciunaite

Most seekers never say this out loud, but many feel it:
“I understand it… and still nothing has shifted.”

After today’s video, I wanted to offer something you can read slowly, in your own time.

It’s a short PDF that stays with that confusing, often unspoken place where the mind understands, but nothing feels resolved yet. Where effort has been applied for a long time, and still something feels unfinished. If you are in that place, this is for you.

There’s no method in it. No instruction. No promise of a breakthrough. Just a gentle, honest looking at what is actually here when nothing seems to move.

If it resonates, you’re welcome to read it here. Take your time.
→ bit.ly/45mtFef

1 month ago | [YT] | 36

Ilona Ciunaite

We are meeting on Zoom today at normal time, 7pm Mauritius. You are welcome to joing. To register and to receive the link click here ilona-ciunait.mykajabi.com/events. Hope to see YOU there!

1 month ago | [YT] | 22

Ilona Ciunaite

There are moments on this path when the body tightens, the breath shortens, and the mind tries to save us by solving everything at once. In my recent session with Tammy, we looked at what happens when relaxing feels dangerous and the whole system believes that tension is the only way to stay safe.

What opened was simple. The pain wasn’t the problem. The resistance to the pain was. And when she allowed herself to feel even a small part of what was here, the storm softened.

1 month ago | [YT] | 11

Ilona Ciunaite

I’d love to understand more about where you are on your path.

Many people who follow this channel are in very different places — some are still seeking, some have had glimpses, and some are already living from a quieter, more grounded recognition.

There is no right stage and no comparison.

Your answer helps me meet you more accurately and shape future videos in a way that truly supports where you are.

If you feel comfortable, choose the option that feels closest to your experience right now.

1 month ago | [YT] | 18

Ilona Ciunaite

My friend, in the new video something tender happened.
Bo spoke about a place inside him that had been calling for years, and his honesty opened the whole field.

He said, “I’ve discovered there’s such a… I would call it a scream inside of me.”
You may know this feeling too. It may show up as a pull, a pressure, a cry inside the body that won’t settle.

Later, he shared, “Either I try to be present with that part… or I get taken away by it.”
This is where so many seekers get stuck — caught between trying to stay with the pain or running from it.

And when we finally turned toward that tight place together, something shifted.
He said, “There’s some response… the spaciousness is more or something.”
And at the end, “Oh, I want to cry… really grateful.”

This video is about that moment — when a long-ignored part finally feels seen and begins to soften.

If you feel something inside you that won’t rest, this one may speak to you.

1 month ago | [YT] | 8

Ilona Ciunaite

There are parts inside us that never rest.
They scream for attention, pull us into habits we don’t understand, and make us reach outward for relief.

In this new session, we turn toward one of those parts — gently, directly, without trying to fix it — and what reveals itself is not a monster, but an innocent inner child waiting to be seen.

If this speaks to you, come watch the session.
You might recognise something in yourself — and you might feel what happens when that inner child is finally met.

1 month ago | [YT] | 7

Ilona Ciunaite

Today we talk with @LuchanaLubo⁩  , Luchana, about what happens once the awakening starts to settle in. I invite you to listen with your heart open and hear the message that will give you more confidence in what is going on for you. https://youtu.be/btBPOnZu-UU

2 months ago | [YT] | 12

Ilona Ciunaite

I love it when my cat climbs onto my lap.
She looks me in the eye and softly bumps her head against my nose —
so gentle, so sweet.

A precious moment.
Then it’s gone.
Something else comes, and it too passes.

The flow continues.
Everything keeps moving through.

2 months ago | [YT] | 53