I didn't go looking for spirituality. It found me — through a spontaneous Kundalini awakening that dismantled my entire life.
I'm Courtney. At 50, I'm rebuilding from the ground up — in real time, in public, on my own terms.
This isn't a polished life. It's what happens after everything breaks open.
RV living. Nervous system healing. Letting go of old identities. Rebuilding income. Relearning relationships. Creating from nothing.
No scripts. No pretending. No guru.
Just lived experience — and the willingness to face it.
Everything runs through one thing: Mission Love. Not the soft, surface version — the kind that forces truth, growth, and real change.
If your life has cracked open… or you can feel it starting to… you're in the right place.
Authentic Courtney
This just happened again, and it’s not new for me.
YouTube flagged a video where someone downloaded my work, stripped out my music, added their own, and reposted it. And this isn’t a one-time thing—I’ve had this happen hundreds of times.
You can’t just take people’s work.
This isn’t complicated. It’s not a gray area, and it’s not “just how the internet works.” You don’t get to download someone’s video, strip out their music, drop your own track on it, and repost it like it’s yours without even asking.
That’s not creativity. That’s not collaboration. That’s taking something you didn’t make and hoping no one calls it out.
Most of the time I wouldn’t even know if YouTube’s content detection didn’t catch it. So I’m not out here hunting people down. This gets flagged and put in front of me.
So what exactly am I supposed to do—ignore it? Reach out nicely? Ask for permission to protect my own work?
No.
If you’re using someone else’s content, you ask first. Not after it’s already posted, not after it’s getting views, and not after you get caught.
Before. That’s the baseline.
I’m open to collaboration. I’m open to people who want to build something real. But using someone’s work without permission isn’t collaboration—it’s a choice to take and use something somebody else created and called as yours.
And I’m not standing for it.
If my work is reuploaded without permission, it will be taken down. That’s not personal—it’s standard.
If you want to use my content, reach out first. I’m open to working with people who move with respect. ✌️
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People tell me they feel better after talking to me.
So I opened up a few 1:1 sessions.
No scripts. No fixing. Just real conversation.
authenticcourtney.com/talk-with-courtney/
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I keep finding heart-shaped rocks in the desert…
At first I ignored it. Now I’ve written everything I think they mean and what to do with them.
authenticcourtney.com/heart-shaped-rocks-meaning/
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'I came. I saw. I found a cool rock.' Tees available on my site authenticcourtney.com/product/cool-rock-t-shirt/
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I spent the better part of last week updating my site, quitting shopify and moving my shop to woo and my domain. 💪🏻
It's not perfect but it's a work in progress.
check it out. authenticcourtney.com/shop
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Time to Show my Feet to the World ♥️
I'll be updating my links
Https://shop.authenticcourtney.com/links
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I'm selling my love!
Find out more at authenticCourtney.com/heart-shop
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Mission Love
January 29, 2026
I’m rebuilding my life, and I refuse to let that process harden me.
To start raising money to get me on my feet and do all of the necessary things in order to start an official mission as a minister, I’m kicking this off by sharing my love – in the form of my heart shaped rock collection. I’m sharing heart-shaped rocks that come with a handwritten note that says, “You’re not alone.” The funds well help me get on solid ground—transportation, financial obligations, basic stability—the unglamorous but necessary parts that make everything else possible.
But this isn’t really about rocks.
It’s about choosing love while rebuilding, instead of bitterness or shutdown.
I’m a minister through the Universal Life Church because I wanted a way to build something rooted in compassion, sovereignty, and choice—not control. As I stabilize, this will grow into Mission Love: a living, love-based network where people can connect without being torn apart, collaborate without being used, and share resources, work, and ideas without cruelty.
Think less “organization” and more mycelium.
People who receive a heart are called Heart Holders—not as a label or a rank, but as a simple description. They’re people choosing to hold love in a complicated world.
Some will pass through quietly. Some will collaborate. Some will help build things like a job board, creative partnerships, sponsorships, and eventually a physical place—Love Ranch—where healing, rest, and rebuilding are possible.
No one has to belong to anything. No one is signing up for a belief system. There are no tiers of worth.
If this resonates, you’re welcome to stay nearby as it unfolds. If it doesn’t, that’s okay too.
For now, the first step is getting my feet under me—choosing love while I do that—and letting something real grow from there.
If you’d like to receive a heart, visit my heart shop authenticcourtney.com/heart-shop
Love,
Courtney 💛
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Streaming now on my Psychedelic Zen channel
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Spiritual AF. Broke AF. But I’ve got a mission. 🪨💥
Last week I had a full-on meltdown — family, partner, life... everything.
I burned it all down and walked straight through a portal on 1/11.
Now I’m in the desert, collecting heart rocks, talking to spirit guides, and figuring out how the hell to build a healing center from scratch — because I know I was never meant to fit in. I came here to change things.
If you’ve ever felt like the black sheep, like you were breaking just before you were becoming — this video is for you.
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