Hey! about time for an update, don't you think? :P
Being that I'm used to monthly uploads, I can understand how the lack of videos ever since the Persona 4 one might be intriguing to the few that always stick around for my uploads. But don't worry! It's not as if I haven't been uploading due to some weird situation, in fact I myself thought of it as simply taking a lil break from everything.
You see, I've been doing great! tho there is something I would like to talk about and I might mention it in a bit; but for the most part, my studies have been great, I'm feeling quite happy and healthy these days and I'm pretty much always busy with friends. And when I'm not, I'm playing a lot of games! I'm 100hs into Persona 5 and it is without a doubt one of the very best games I've played, as well as a game that has surpassed every single conceivable expectation I had for it going in. Which is saying a lot, since after so many years of hearing great things about it and after having my mind blown away by both Persona 3 and 4 as well as some Shin Megami Tensei games that I've played in the past few years, I had some real expectations!
Life has been really nice to me for the most part, and I like where I'm at currently.
Now, not everything is perfect, and there is something that I would like to open up about.
A dear old friend of mine passed away not too long ago, the news were quite shocking and it required me some time to begin to process it; even now I'm still processing it all. She was one of the kindest, smartest and coolest people I've ever met. And she was a big influence on my views on identity, gender, my taste on aesthetics, music, anime and even games were expanded thanks to her.
I wanted to take a moment to talk about this and remember her in here, since I don't think this channel would've been the same if it weren't for her. She was a big inspiration in so many ways and she was there from the very beginning, supporting and encouraging me to do what I loved.
Now, you might be thinking; "huh, maybe you weren't doing all that great if you had to process her passing and all" and in a way, you might be right. But, and here's the thing; she was a really loving person who not only wanted to be happy and feel comfortable in her own skin herself, but she was also someone who wanted the exact same for everyone around her.
She wanted me to be happy. She would've liked to see me give it my all and keep going, so that I can be as happy as she would've liked to be. It's not perfect, but I know that's what she would've wanted and I intend to honor her memory and friendship.
She knew me for my optimism, and I want to keep that part of me alive for her.
Now, let's take a little step back, and let me give you a bit of context as to what I meant when I talked about wanting to take a little break from everything at the beginning:
You see, during say, june/july/early august I had to work reaaally hard on my studies and some stuff. And it was totally worth it! everything came out exactly as it should and I'm super proud of everything I accomplished, but I was left a bit... not exactly burnt out but tired. And so I decided to just take it easy and focus on relaxing and avoid doing more than I needed to do. So for the past month I've been taking things slow, and made sure to use as much of my time for myself as both for getting together and doing stuff with close people. That's more or less also when I decided to start playing Persona 5! and I believe it was one of the very best decisions I've ever made, since now that I'll start having tests again and will need to work hard once more, I'm already quite rested and refreshed so it should be a breeze to get back into it! So yeah! the lack of videos was simply because I wanted to give myself time to just do whatever I wanted to at the moment, and making edits just wasn't on the list.
I was planning to come back with an edit soon, but then the passing of this friend kind of made me reevaluate a lot of stuff, and I've been thinking a lot about this channel and where I want to go next.
So, here's the thing:
I think I finally have the end of this channel in my sight. Now, let's not think of this in dramatic terms! This channel has been a project of mine that is really close to my heart and that I absolutely adore, but I want to give it some form of closure. Since I know for a fact that as time goes on it'll get harder and harder for me to remain consistent, as well as the fact that I don't really wanna keep making these videos forever and I know that even the people that watch me won't be there forever as well.
It's ok for things to have an end, and I believe that giving this channel closure would make it far more meaningful than simply keep it going mindlessly without any regard for my desires. And also, it's tiring! We all get bored of stuff, and that's completely healthy! I just want to make sure that I end this channel while my love and passion for it remains, and I hope that the few people that are still around will be able to watch that last video before they get bored of them.
I'm a creative person at heart, and I know I'll still be around making stuff in some way or another; it just won't be on this channel. And I'm completely satisfied with that idea!
Now, I do have a roadmap in case that you were wondering, and for now I know for a fact that there will be at least 2 more videos: I will make one edit for Persona 5 once I finish playing it, and then I'll make another edit for Persona 3 Reload once I've played through the entire game. Persona 3 Reload will release on february the 2nd 2024 tho, so I will ask for patience in this endeavor. There might also be another edit before the Persona 5 one comes around or after, tho I still don't know about that one.
But in any case, we are now entering the final phase of this channel.
I would like to extend my gratitude to anyone who might read this, to anyone who has ever watched any of my videos and for everyone kind enough to visit my channel and care about the person behind the edits.
I am so very thankful for everyone I've met and known throught the years thanks to this channel, as well as those who I met outside of it but who decided to join me on this journey.
This channel means so much to me, and I know it has meant a lot for others as well.
It's funny, being a super small channel and all. I never had more than 300 subscribers and yet I've never felt like I needed more than what I've had throught the years. I always said that I was happy with knowing that at least 3 people were commenting my videos, and that I didn't need more than that. And honestly I still think the same. What's more, I've had the fortune of meeting prominent figures in the editing scene to this channel, and I've had the chance to talk to so many cool people who have given me words of encouragement and support.
I have no way of thanking everyone individually but I mean it, thanks to absolutely everyone who has ever taken the time to watch any of my stuff, regardless of if you have commented or not. Just knowing that there is people out there and that my stuff might connect with them in some ways is more than enough to make me happy and feel realized.
I don't think many will read this, but for those that do; thank you, I'm thankful for your kindness and time.
Drink water, stay healthy, and I'll see you in the near future! (≧∇≦)ﾉ
Hi! Well this is my first time testing out this feature and I'm not too sure of how many people will get to see it, but I figured this could be a good way of more or less communicating what I got planned since I haven't uploaded in a while.
See, I've been working on an edit of chainsaw man for a while now, but it's taking me a bit and it will be at least some more days before I can put anything out. I've been quite busy and haven't had much time to edit, and even then when I do get around to editing, there's only so much I can get done per session. The main thing that's been taking so much time is the process of going through and cutting all of the chainsaw man episodes themselves; the amount of incredible looking shots and scenes far exceeds that of any regular seasonal show and even the amount that is seen on stuff like OVA's/ONA's. And the thing with this is that I've had a hard time deciding what to leave in and what to leave out, which is great! It means that there's so much great material to work with that I'm probably even going to end up having enough to make more than a single edit. Given my love for the manga and show as a whole, this makes me quite excited!
But for now that will be on hold, and I'm sorry I wasn't able to put anything out for a while. I usually try to make sure that I'll have at least an edit for each month of the year, and while I have broken these personal rules a couple of times already, I try to stick to it as much as possible.
There's no real reason though, this is a really small channel and I got 0 external pressure from anyone or anything to do any of this. But I love editing with a passion, and I love having an edit out every month. I don't really get a lot of comments but the couple that I do are just really motivating, heart warming and come from awesome people. I really like this space and I'll like to keep it going for as long as I'm able to, and I see this new feature as a way of communicating and also hopefully even make the channel a bit more active outside the videos themselves.
To wrap things up I do want to say that while I wasn't able to make a new video for the channel, I do actually have a february upload but it won't be in here. I made a second channel almost a year ago or so, and I was planning to use it as a place where I could upload stuff that wasn't so anime centered or straight up weird/experimental stuff. On this occasion I'm going to use it to upload a scraped project that I still think is good enough to be shared around. Hopefully you'll enjoy it and hopefully I'll be able to make fun stuff for that channel eventually too, as I do have many ideas around other forms of editing.
Thanks for being around, thanks to anyone who took the time to read any of this, and I hope you'll enjoy the video on the second channel and the eventual chainsaw man edit once it comes out! (≧∇≦)ﾉ
Drakmalar
Hey! about time for an update, don't you think? :P
Being that I'm used to monthly uploads, I can understand how the lack of videos ever since the Persona 4 one might be intriguing to the few that always stick around for my uploads. But don't worry! It's not as if I haven't been uploading due to some weird situation, in fact I myself thought of it as simply taking a lil break from everything.
You see, I've been doing great! tho there is something I would like to talk about and I might mention it in a bit; but for the most part, my studies have been great, I'm feeling quite happy and healthy these days and I'm pretty much always busy with friends. And when I'm not, I'm playing a lot of games! I'm 100hs into Persona 5 and it is without a doubt one of the very best games I've played, as well as a game that has surpassed every single conceivable expectation I had for it going in. Which is saying a lot, since after so many years of hearing great things about it and after having my mind blown away by both Persona 3 and 4 as well as some Shin Megami Tensei games that I've played in the past few years, I had some real expectations!
Life has been really nice to me for the most part, and I like where I'm at currently.
Now, not everything is perfect, and there is something that I would like to open up about.
A dear old friend of mine passed away not too long ago, the news were quite shocking and it required me some time to begin to process it; even now I'm still processing it all. She was one of the kindest, smartest and coolest people I've ever met. And she was a big influence on my views on identity, gender, my taste on aesthetics, music, anime and even games were expanded thanks to her.
I wanted to take a moment to talk about this and remember her in here, since I don't think this channel would've been the same if it weren't for her. She was a big inspiration in so many ways and she was there from the very beginning, supporting and encouraging me to do what I loved.
Now, you might be thinking; "huh, maybe you weren't doing all that great if you had to process her passing and all" and in a way, you might be right. But, and here's the thing; she was a really loving person who not only wanted to be happy and feel comfortable in her own skin herself, but she was also someone who wanted the exact same for everyone around her.
She wanted me to be happy. She would've liked to see me give it my all and keep going, so that I can be as happy as she would've liked to be. It's not perfect, but I know that's what she would've wanted and I intend to honor her memory and friendship.
She knew me for my optimism, and I want to keep that part of me alive for her.
Now, let's take a little step back, and let me give you a bit of context as to what I meant when I talked about wanting to take a little break from everything at the beginning:
You see, during say, june/july/early august I had to work reaaally hard on my studies and some stuff. And it was totally worth it! everything came out exactly as it should and I'm super proud of everything I accomplished, but I was left a bit... not exactly burnt out but tired. And so I decided to just take it easy and focus on relaxing and avoid doing more than I needed to do. So for the past month I've been taking things slow, and made sure to use as much of my time for myself as both for getting together and doing stuff with close people. That's more or less also when I decided to start playing Persona 5! and I believe it was one of the very best decisions I've ever made, since now that I'll start having tests again and will need to work hard once more, I'm already quite rested and refreshed so it should be a breeze to get back into it!
So yeah! the lack of videos was simply because I wanted to give myself time to just do whatever I wanted to at the moment, and making edits just wasn't on the list.
I was planning to come back with an edit soon, but then the passing of this friend kind of made me reevaluate a lot of stuff, and I've been thinking a lot about this channel and where I want to go next.
So, here's the thing:
I think I finally have the end of this channel in my sight. Now, let's not think of this in dramatic terms! This channel has been a project of mine that is really close to my heart and that I absolutely adore, but I want to give it some form of closure. Since I know for a fact that as time goes on it'll get harder and harder for me to remain consistent, as well as the fact that I don't really wanna keep making these videos forever and I know that even the people that watch me won't be there forever as well.
It's ok for things to have an end, and I believe that giving this channel closure would make it far more meaningful than simply keep it going mindlessly without any regard for my desires. And also, it's tiring! We all get bored of stuff, and that's completely healthy! I just want to make sure that I end this channel while my love and passion for it remains, and I hope that the few people that are still around will be able to watch that last video before they get bored of them.
I'm a creative person at heart, and I know I'll still be around making stuff in some way or another; it just won't be on this channel. And I'm completely satisfied with that idea!
Now, I do have a roadmap in case that you were wondering, and for now I know for a fact that there will be at least 2 more videos: I will make one edit for Persona 5 once I finish playing it, and then I'll make another edit for Persona 3 Reload once I've played through the entire game.
Persona 3 Reload will release on february the 2nd 2024 tho, so I will ask for patience in this endeavor.
There might also be another edit before the Persona 5 one comes around or after, tho I still don't know about that one.
But in any case, we are now entering the final phase of this channel.
I would like to extend my gratitude to anyone who might read this, to anyone who has ever watched any of my videos and for everyone kind enough to visit my channel and care about the person behind the edits.
I am so very thankful for everyone I've met and known throught the years thanks to this channel, as well as those who I met outside of it but who decided to join me on this journey.
This channel means so much to me, and I know it has meant a lot for others as well.
It's funny, being a super small channel and all. I never had more than 300 subscribers and yet I've never felt like I needed more than what I've had throught the years. I always said that I was happy with knowing that at least 3 people were commenting my videos, and that I didn't need more than that. And honestly I still think the same. What's more, I've had the fortune of meeting prominent figures in the editing scene to this channel, and I've had the chance to talk to so many cool people who have given me words of encouragement and support.
I have no way of thanking everyone individually but I mean it, thanks to absolutely everyone who has ever taken the time to watch any of my stuff, regardless of if you have commented or not. Just knowing that there is people out there and that my stuff might connect with them in some ways is more than enough to make me happy and feel realized.
I don't think many will read this, but for those that do; thank you, I'm thankful for your kindness and time.
Drink water, stay healthy, and I'll see you in the near future! (≧∇≦)ﾉ
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Drakmalar
Hi! Well this is my first time testing out this feature and I'm not too sure of how many people will get to see it, but I figured this could be a good way of more or less communicating what I got planned since I haven't uploaded in a while.
See, I've been working on an edit of chainsaw man for a while now, but it's taking me a bit and it will be at least some more days before I can put anything out. I've been quite busy and haven't had much time to edit, and even then when I do get around to editing, there's only so much I can get done per session.
The main thing that's been taking so much time is the process of going through and cutting all of the chainsaw man episodes themselves; the amount of incredible looking shots and scenes far exceeds that of any regular seasonal show and even the amount that is seen on stuff like OVA's/ONA's. And the thing with this is that I've had a hard time deciding what to leave in and what to leave out, which is great! It means that there's so much great material to work with that I'm probably even going to end up having enough to make more than a single edit. Given my love for the manga and show as a whole, this makes me quite excited!
But for now that will be on hold, and I'm sorry I wasn't able to put anything out for a while. I usually try to make sure that I'll have at least an edit for each month of the year, and while I have broken these personal rules a couple of times already, I try to stick to it as much as possible.
There's no real reason though, this is a really small channel and I got 0 external pressure from anyone or anything to do any of this. But I love editing with a passion, and I love having an edit out every month. I don't really get a lot of comments but the couple that I do are just really motivating, heart warming and come from awesome people. I really like this space and I'll like to keep it going for as long as I'm able to, and I see this new feature as a way of communicating and also hopefully even make the channel a bit more active outside the videos themselves.
To wrap things up I do want to say that while I wasn't able to make a new video for the channel, I do actually have a february upload but it won't be in here. I made a second channel almost a year ago or so, and I was planning to use it as a place where I could upload stuff that wasn't so anime centered or straight up weird/experimental stuff. On this occasion I'm going to use it to upload a scraped project that I still think is good enough to be shared around. Hopefully you'll enjoy it and hopefully I'll be able to make fun stuff for that channel eventually too, as I do have many ideas around other forms of editing.
Thanks for being around, thanks to anyone who took the time to read any of this, and I hope you'll enjoy the video on the second channel and the eventual chainsaw man edit once it comes out! (≧∇≦)ﾉ
https://youtu.be/I5Yq7sh6K1M
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