🎀•iitblwotto ღ . . (quit)

wow. About 4 months ago I quit and decided to move on in my life. I’m not here to say I’m coming back. I’m here to update y’all about what has happened and how I feel after quitting. Cuz if you care about me, you will be happy for me after I tell you this.

Life’s been great. I got some more friends, lost a friend, but that’s okay. I enjoy making TikTok’s instead of YouTube videos. I have started embracing my fangirling. I’ve went to concerts. And have gained a lot of love from TikTok comments. I honestly don’t know what’s been good. But a lot, but I just can’t mark my words on it.

I obviously have my bad sides. Mental health has been.. pretty bad. I still overthink a lot. I don’t know if my best friend still wants to be my best friend. I hate changes. You will never meet someone that hates changes more than I do. There’s something in me that just hates the feeling of needing to change something. It could be moving on from a show, moving on from a friend or literally moving a plant to a different corner. Y’all understand.

I feel kinda drained ngl. I’ve been so glued to my screen this whole summer. I hated this summer. I hate 2025 so far. I’ve actually felt like shit most of the summer. It has to do with my brain and my thoughts. But it has nothing to do with socials. I feel like a terrible daughter and a terrible friend. This summer has been depressing and I start school on Tuesday. I’m nervous, and scared. I’m going into a grade where you need to take school a little more serious. I hate school. But it’s also kinda an escape from reality and my screen. I don’t have any hobby’s so I don’t know what to do except scrolling and playing Roblox. I wanna change. But not the change that makes my stomach twist. A change that I actually want. A change that makes me do other things than scrolling on socials.

But I’ve been great most of the time. As I’ve already said. I hate school but it will be nice to be back, in some way. When I’m happy, I’m very happy. I get happy when other people are happy. When I see someone smile. Or someone gets excited about something they love. So for the ones who cares: I’m okay, and my life and mental health has been a bit better after quitting YouTube and moving on from all the drama from here.

I share my thoughts and feelings with yall cuz I trust yall in some way. I wanna drain out all my feelings if it isn’t my notes.

Thank you for reading 🩷.

3 months ago | [YT] | 5

🎀•iitblwotto ღ . . (quit)

hello everyone

I know I left y’all hanging with just saying I might not come back. I’m here to try to explain in the most non-personal ways why Ive decided to quit.

First of all when I was on YouTube I made lots of online friends. Which was really fun and exciting but it had its bad sides too. More friends meant more drama, arguments and much more pressure on me. This isn’t targeted to anyone but i felt like i needed to take care of it all. This led to that my mental health deteriorated. I’ve lost a few friends because of arguments and miss understandings. I gained more trust issues and had a hard time trusting others. That’s a reason why I’ve stopped talking to some friends.

Second of all I just don’t enjoy toca anymore. I now have a TikTok account where I edit my favourite show. I used to edit and post some videos on my edit account but they never went viral. But they do on TikTok. I enjoy editing that WAY more than playing and editing toca. I love this tv show with my life and it helped me through a lot. I also edit my favourite artist. He has also helped me through a lot. I met two friends from Sweden because of the show and that artist. I found a girls TikTok account where she edits the same show as me and I started following her. I was commenting on some videos and she sometimes replied. I found out she was from Sweden and I texted her on TikTok asking if she was going to the same concert as me. She said she was and I got her Snapchat. We started talking and that same day we FaceTimed and talked for like 2 hours. I found her really nice and had great energy. Even though she’s one year older than me. She loves the exakt same things as me and we became friends IMMEDIATELY. We met irl for the first time at that concert and got to know each other a little more. I also got to know her best friend. We are now all best friends. We have the same obsessions with things and I trust these girls with my life. I trusted the first girl I met the same day as we started talking. Some people from other countries have tried becoming friends with me but I’ve said that I don’t want to. The reason to that is that I have such trust issues. I got a lot of trust issues after YouTube. It’s just easier to have friends from the same country. I still love the people im friends with right now but I just won’t talk to them <3

Third of all I’ve struggled with a lot of things in 2023 to now. I want to leave the YouTube life behind me and move on. I want to move on and keep doing the things I love the most.

I do not want to tell yall what I’ve struggled with <3

so in summery im quitting to move on and post things on tikok that I love. I won’t get any online friends that aren’t from Sweden that I have the chance to meet. There’s nothing wrong with you guys. I promise yall it’s only me and not yall.

So, I’ve made my decision. I’m quitting and I won’t come back again. I hope yall understand and accept my decision. I loved YouTube, I mean that with my whole heart.

Thank you so much for the support and love from everyone and I appreciate every single one of you guys <3
Thank you that I could reach 1000 subscribers, it was my biggest dream when I was younger, THIS was my biggest dream when I was younger <3
Thank you for the happy moments even though we’ve had sad ones as well <3
Thank you to all my friends that I’m not friends with anymore, even though we have argued some times I still appreciate yall for being my friend <3
Thank you to all my newest friends for wanting to become my friend <3

Thank you all, for everything ❤️‍🩹


-otter, over and out 💋

8 months ago | [YT] | 14

🎀•iitblwotto ღ . . (quit)

hi everyone. I’m still thinking about the whole quitting thing. And it’s cuz I’m struggling with stuff right now and I don’t feel like doing videos. I’m getting bored of toca and I’m unmotivated to build my house. I will be taking a break and probably won’t come back. So this might be my last goodbye. I know I’ve taken many breaks before and then coming back. Just putting yall hopes up for no reason. I’m really sorry about that but it’s cuz I’m tryna find the right time. But I can’t. So if this is my last goodbye then I just wanna say thank you for the support I have been getting and I’m really grateful that I got to reach 1000 subscribers.

thank you 🫶🏻

-xoxo otter, might not or might be coming back

10 months ago | [YT] | 9

🎀•iitblwotto ღ . . (quit)

I’m taking a break for a while, please don’t unsub or do anything, I’ll be back soon, hopefully 🫶🏻🎀

11 months ago | [YT] | 7

🎀•iitblwotto ღ . . (quit)

I can’t believe 2024 is over in just a few hours


I just wanna say thank you all for the support and love I’ve been getting this year, even tho I’m close to quitting

a lot happened this year and it’s been tough, but now it’s almost over

it’s kinda sad but there’s nothing we can do about it 🥹

I’ll miss 2024 but still won’t, 2024 was a hard year for me and many others, I won’t miss the hard times but I will 100% miss the good times

I love you guys even though I’m extremely close to quitting

I won’t post anything today, so I just need to say..

..happy new year 💗

11 months ago | [YT] | 3

🎀•iitblwotto ღ . . (quit)

god he’s so gorgeous

11 months ago | [YT] | 3

🎀•iitblwotto ღ . . (quit)

good job to everyone that went thru a hard Christmas 🩷 some ppl have it hard on Christmas but dw ml I believe in u!! Ur amazing and deserve sm better, im proud of u hun 💗 ily 🫶🏻

11 months ago (edited) | [YT] | 4

🎀•iitblwotto ღ . . (quit)

😍🎀

11 months ago | [YT] | 2

🎀•iitblwotto ღ . . (quit)

merry Christmas to ppl that celebrate today!! 💗🎄💗

11 months ago | [YT] | 5

🎀•iitblwotto ღ . . (quit)

merry Christmas to ppl celebrating today!! (including meeeee) 💗💗

11 months ago | [YT] | 8