wow. About 4 months ago I quit and decided to move on in my life. I’m not here to say I’m coming back. I’m here to update y’all about what has happened and how I feel after quitting. Cuz if you care about me, you will be happy for me after I tell you this.
Life’s been great. I got some more friends, lost a friend, but that’s okay. I enjoy making TikTok’s instead of YouTube videos. I have started embracing my fangirling. I’ve went to concerts. And have gained a lot of love from TikTok comments. I honestly don’t know what’s been good. But a lot, but I just can’t mark my words on it.
I obviously have my bad sides. Mental health has been.. pretty bad. I still overthink a lot. I don’t know if my best friend still wants to be my best friend. I hate changes. You will never meet someone that hates changes more than I do. There’s something in me that just hates the feeling of needing to change something. It could be moving on from a show, moving on from a friend or literally moving a plant to a different corner. Y’all understand.
I feel kinda drained ngl. I’ve been so glued to my screen this whole summer. I hated this summer. I hate 2025 so far. I’ve actually felt like shit most of the summer. It has to do with my brain and my thoughts. But it has nothing to do with socials. I feel like a terrible daughter and a terrible friend. This summer has been depressing and I start school on Tuesday. I’m nervous, and scared. I’m going into a grade where you need to take school a little more serious. I hate school. But it’s also kinda an escape from reality and my screen. I don’t have any hobby’s so I don’t know what to do except scrolling and playing Roblox. I wanna change. But not the change that makes my stomach twist. A change that I actually want. A change that makes me do other things than scrolling on socials.
But I’ve been great most of the time. As I’ve already said. I hate school but it will be nice to be back, in some way. When I’m happy, I’m very happy. I get happy when other people are happy. When I see someone smile. Or someone gets excited about something they love. So for the ones who cares: I’m okay, and my life and mental health has been a bit better after quitting YouTube and moving on from all the drama from here.
I share my thoughts and feelings with yall cuz I trust yall in some way. I wanna drain out all my feelings if it isn’t my notes.
🎀•iitblwotto ღ . . (quit)
wow. About 4 months ago I quit and decided to move on in my life. I’m not here to say I’m coming back. I’m here to update y’all about what has happened and how I feel after quitting. Cuz if you care about me, you will be happy for me after I tell you this.
Life’s been great. I got some more friends, lost a friend, but that’s okay. I enjoy making TikTok’s instead of YouTube videos. I have started embracing my fangirling. I’ve went to concerts. And have gained a lot of love from TikTok comments. I honestly don’t know what’s been good. But a lot, but I just can’t mark my words on it.
I obviously have my bad sides. Mental health has been.. pretty bad. I still overthink a lot. I don’t know if my best friend still wants to be my best friend. I hate changes. You will never meet someone that hates changes more than I do. There’s something in me that just hates the feeling of needing to change something. It could be moving on from a show, moving on from a friend or literally moving a plant to a different corner. Y’all understand.
I feel kinda drained ngl. I’ve been so glued to my screen this whole summer. I hated this summer. I hate 2025 so far. I’ve actually felt like shit most of the summer. It has to do with my brain and my thoughts. But it has nothing to do with socials. I feel like a terrible daughter and a terrible friend. This summer has been depressing and I start school on Tuesday. I’m nervous, and scared. I’m going into a grade where you need to take school a little more serious. I hate school. But it’s also kinda an escape from reality and my screen. I don’t have any hobby’s so I don’t know what to do except scrolling and playing Roblox. I wanna change. But not the change that makes my stomach twist. A change that I actually want. A change that makes me do other things than scrolling on socials.
But I’ve been great most of the time. As I’ve already said. I hate school but it will be nice to be back, in some way. When I’m happy, I’m very happy. I get happy when other people are happy. When I see someone smile. Or someone gets excited about something they love. So for the ones who cares: I’m okay, and my life and mental health has been a bit better after quitting YouTube and moving on from all the drama from here.
I share my thoughts and feelings with yall cuz I trust yall in some way. I wanna drain out all my feelings if it isn’t my notes.
Thank you for reading 🩷.
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