ECerDamnum - Invidious

Speaking out loud in an empty theater.

I don't know what i'm doing.
Im still looking at the dried paint on my walls.
Simultaniously while asking myself questions.
I need something blank to focus my mind from other things.
The answer isnt gained from strangers.
The answer is gained from action.
Despite knowing that, i look any where for a hint.
Desperation out of impatience.
It's like a path that is travelled unknowingly.
Best to keep it that way, it's the sequence that leads everyone to the highest clarity in life.
Being pulled out of the flow as a kid, standing by watching people actively immersed in their journey.
They left and came and left. I met them, we became friends, they went back to their journey, we broke up.
V-V
Seeking familiarity, and comfort. 365 days at a time.
Still didn't let go. Never stuck to one thing.
But commitment till failure is part of the journey, you figure out ("this isn't what I want to do")that way.
Finding a purpose to anchor to.

I don't involve others because i feel it should be done alone, no matter the economy, nor the global tensions.
I know how to go about my way, i don't know why i keep jumping out the flow the days after.
Maybe lack of affirmations. Maybe i'm picky with who i take encouragement from. No idea.

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ECerDamnum

Oh gosh. O_O Oh shit... Oh fucking shit... what the FUCK. WHAT...this is hilarious.
this THING.... THis MUTHAFUKIN THANG. is crazy...
this ride, this evolution. at the end of the day, what other way to start the day is to get up, stretch your arms out, and sigh while looking up at the clouds.

open your window and just sigh then look up.

Lets say, you did look up. What did you feel?
Anything? Nothing? Did you question anything. like why was the bullshit on the ground and not falling from the sky out of a plane toilet? Like gravity on day one... :| like gravity... on day..... one.... :| day... one..... one.....one foo.

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