I don't know what i'm doing. Im still looking at the dried paint on my walls. Simultaniously while asking myself questions. I need something blank to focus my mind from other things. The answer isnt gained from strangers. The answer is gained from action. Despite knowing that, i look any where for a hint. Desperation out of impatience. It's like a path that is travelled unknowingly. Best to keep it that way, it's the sequence that leads everyone to the highest clarity in life. Being pulled out of the flow as a kid, standing by watching people actively immersed in their journey. They left and came and left. I met them, we became friends, they went back to their journey, we broke up. V-V Seeking familiarity, and comfort. 365 days at a time. Still didn't let go. Never stuck to one thing. But commitment till failure is part of the journey, you figure out ("this isn't what I want to do")that way. Finding a purpose to anchor to.
I don't involve others because i feel it should be done alone, no matter the economy, nor the global tensions. I know how to go about my way, i don't know why i keep jumping out the flow the days after. Maybe lack of affirmations. Maybe i'm picky with who i take encouragement from. No idea.
ECerDamnum
Speaking out loud in an empty theater.
I don't know what i'm doing.
Im still looking at the dried paint on my walls.
Simultaniously while asking myself questions.
I need something blank to focus my mind from other things.
The answer isnt gained from strangers.
The answer is gained from action.
Despite knowing that, i look any where for a hint.
Desperation out of impatience.
It's like a path that is travelled unknowingly.
Best to keep it that way, it's the sequence that leads everyone to the highest clarity in life.
Being pulled out of the flow as a kid, standing by watching people actively immersed in their journey.
They left and came and left. I met them, we became friends, they went back to their journey, we broke up.
V-V
Seeking familiarity, and comfort. 365 days at a time.
Still didn't let go. Never stuck to one thing.
But commitment till failure is part of the journey, you figure out ("this isn't what I want to do")that way.
Finding a purpose to anchor to.
I don't involve others because i feel it should be done alone, no matter the economy, nor the global tensions.
I know how to go about my way, i don't know why i keep jumping out the flow the days after.
Maybe lack of affirmations. Maybe i'm picky with who i take encouragement from. No idea.
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