When I posted about yellow smiley faces used in torture programming people posted them in comments

Another personality the cult created was a marionette puppet & puppet master

There are so many long-term effects from the torture

Cult got off on our pain and terror,and had no compassion or empathy

Some cult-created personalities' only job is to make me feel the torture when we break a rule

Even though I am finally safe from the cult torture there are so many triggers to the torture

Cult did a lot of torture around death, funerals, and coffins

One of the common requests in trafficking was to hurt us & for S&M

It is not always the same personality (DID) fronting with me for videos.

People often ask me why the cult abusers did what they did

It can take so long to get fully safe from organized cult torture

Needle torture happened frequently in the organized cult torture

We created inner lands some folksinside (DID) could to escape intobecause the torture was unbearable

Cult intentionally created self-hating & self-criticizing personalities (DID)

Cult deliberately stripped our selfconfidence & built us up in a way that would bond us to cult

While my cult abuser parents & many others went to United Church many other religions were involved

Cult taught me I was hated. But somuch healing can happen in relationships including therapy

Cult made sure that the people whorented us got what they wanted

Cult used our blood in so many ways; they were obsessed with blood

Cult created Memory Eater personalities to erase torture memories from my consious awareness

I didn't think I would live to be an adult & some folks inside think they they're dead or should die

Some things in the trafficking reinforced the cult torture & some of the mind control messages

Cult used things people have an aversion to in torture to increase dissociation & programming

Cult regularly took me past endurance; we needed DID to survive

Cult created "demon" personalities to bond us to cult, keep us isolated,& continue programming

Cult deliberately created DID robot personalities to control us

Cult tried to keep me from having independence or a feeling of safety.

Cult taught us not to change anything in our internal worlds (DID)

Most of what the cult taught us was to protect the cult & allow them to continue unstopped

We try to do & think the opposite of cult; everything they did was hateful & for their own benefit

Cult uses holidays which makes them so triggering of trauma

Cult murdered children & animals so often; they got off on it.

Victims are taught to lose compassion; some become cult abusers like my family

Cult tried to convince us they couldsee and hear everything we did

Cult was careful to hide the torture and to lessen the effects afterwards

Often in the trafficking abusers wanted us young or to act younger

Cult used "cement" & sewn lips to keep us from talking.

I am somewhat claustrophobic because of things cult did

Cult used blood in so many ways

I don't think cult believed the ideologies they used; I think it was just to discredit us

I dissociated from joint instability my entire life

As a cult torture survivor some days it is hard to see hope, but it is there

Sometimes I still get SH urges (which I will not act on), since folks inside (DID) were taught to SH

I think my cult parents experienced similar torture & mind control andthey made a choice to torture

My cult parents locked me up in apsych hospital as a teen to discredit me & keep me silent

When I first disclosed at 13 my cult abuser parents got me a cult-involved therapist

With our DID folks inside present differently both inside & out

With our DID some folks inside sway or rock back & forth yet many don't

Because we (DID) resisted in the cult torture they kept putting us in victim position

Even now that we (DID) are safe, time can be fuzzy for us

We (DID) made a personality off of one of our good therapists

My cult parents being so cold even in everyday non abuse time helped me see through the lies

Cult frequently murdered & used it as a way to control us & trauma bond us

Cult members choose their jobs andvolunteer work to access and suppress victims

I don't want vengeance. I just want survivors to get safe sooner

There were women only cults inaddition to male only and mixed cults

With DID we can ask for info inside & the ones who know can answer,even often what cult hid from us

For much of the torture we (DID) wanted to die & the cult knew & built on that.

When mind control is strong in us it helps us to draw on helper parts, map programs & use creativity

Cult deliberately pitted us victims against each other. #cultsurvivor