Amanda Dances

DANCE REQUESTS are rolling in! I've got 3 on the docket for this evening, and I'm up for doing more! Post your song requests here or on any one of my videos, and watch for uploads! Thanks everyone for continuing to tune in!

I'm contemplating a special livestream later this week, so watch for that as well!

Everyone stay golden! 💃🏼🙏🏼🥰

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1 day ago | [YT] | 3

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Hey, friends! I think it's time to dance! Tonight!! 🥰💃🏼

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Hoping to be back in action by this evening! If not, definitely before the weekend! I've got company coming and have been cleaning and fighting off the sickness...but cleaning also makes me sick, so it's been real fun...not! 😆 I'm ready to get back to dancing! 💃🏼💯

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5 days ago | [YT] | 3

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Hey guys! I'm really sick today. Been sleeping most of the day. I hope to be better very soon. Feeding my body well with fruits, veggies, broth, and fluids. See you all soon!

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1 week ago | [YT] | 7

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Turn Pain Into Power — My Pre-Dance Grind

✨ From warm-up to flow ✨
25 minutes of sweat, strength, and soul—condensed into just 2:29. Pre-dance workout powered by my original track Holy Possession. 💃🔥

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2 weeks ago | [YT] | 2

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Mornin'!

I have two dance requests on my docket for today;

Virtual Insanity by @Jamiroquai
for @williamsteven2154

and

World Go Round by @sts9
for Miss Swan

As always, I accept dance requests 24/7 - you can drop suggestions in the comments below, or on any of my videos!

Thanks for watching, all!

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2 weeks ago | [YT] | 3

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Hello!
My black eye is healing nicely! And I've posted 13 new dance shorts, you can find them on my shorts page! If you haven't yet subscribed, please do! And be sure to like my videos to help the algorithm along! Thanks, guys! Have a beautiful day, and I'll be back with more new dances very soon! As always, please send me dance requests! I absolutely love dancing to your song suggestions and it keeps me going! Couldn't do this without everyone's support, so make this monkey DANCE! 💃🏼🐒

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Hey guys! I did a livestream today. In case you missed it, here it is! 😉

3 weeks ago | [YT] | 3

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Went to a live show last night with the hubs and his new boss — The Grateful Phish Heads; it was a combo cover band of The Grateful Dead, Phish, and The Talking Heads. I enjoy good music and great musicians, so I was relatively entertained, even though I’m more of a My Morning Jacket / Ween / Violent Femmes person — if we’re talking about jam bands, anyway.
I was probably one of the younger ones in there at 42, but dang, did I feel old! 😆 People always shame me for not knowing more Grateful Dead, but then I’ll be like, “Well, Jerry Garcia…” and go off about MKULTRA. 😆

Anyway, as I’m in my own world just kind of dancing along, I kept spotting this old guy — looking like Anthony Fauci — just staring at me with his arms crossed and an evil grin on his face. He had his back turned from the show, full-on watching my every move as I stimmed about in my autistic/ADHD way. He almost seemed like a spy or secret agent of some kind. He did not avert his eyes at any point.

Like I said, very Anthony Fauci-looking — sinister. He was wearing khaki shorts, a dark blue polo, and glasses. At some point, he disappeared, and I leaned over and told my husband. My husband said the typical husband things like, “’Cause you’re the hottest lady in here,” and all that jazz 😆, but then my husband finally was able to see this guy when he came over to our table, sat his drink down, and then turned his back on the concert and stared at me — at our own table.

The dude was two feet from my face, burning holes through my soul with his sinister Fauci face. I moved to the opposite side of the table and told my husband, “That’s him! That’s the guy!” and then my husband couldn’t believe how intensely this guy was just burning holes through me with his gaze.

I even did my Amanda thing when someone is making me uncomfortable — I stared back with huge eyes and a grimacing face, showed him my teeth like a threatened dog, and shook my head at him. The dude didn’t blink. Just kept on staring with the creepiest smirk.

This was definitely an exercise in restraint on my end. The old Amanda would have popped off on this guy, grabbed him by the shoulders, spun him around, and yelled, “The show’s this way, buddy!”

I’m really glad I don’t drink alcohol anymore; it definitely helps me stay alert and slightly less bothered than I used to be. I had to escape outside to smoke a couple of cigarettes, though — and that’s when my next social encounter happened.

This time it was a couple of females, and one was about nine times drunker than her friend. She immediately called out my busted-up face and said, “What’d you do to your face?!” So I proceeded to tell the story, which somehow turned into us talking about fibromyalgia and chronic pain. She proceeded to hug me four different times during the course of our brief chat.
I was fine with it — I don’t mind hugs from strangers — and it felt like a mini therapy session as we talked about the dangers of acetaminophen and the benefits of drinking celery juice every day.

I really do not get out much at all since I stopped drinking back in 2017, and I’m always somewhat amused crowd-watching in bars. There’s something I find internally peaceful about being the sober one in a room full of drunk people. Like, if shit went down, I’d have my wits about me and be able to help people in the chaos.

There’s also a good feeling in not being as reactive as I used to be. Drunk me probably would’ve retorted to the drunk lady, “What’s wrong with your face?!” And even though I would have been joking, I probably would have offended her. I was pretty good at pissing people off in my drinking days.
Well, anyway — after Creepy Fauci took over our table and wouldn’t avert his eyes, the three of us decided to call it a night and leave.

On further reflection this morning, I’m telling myself I’m gonna need to get used to people staring at me. I have a deep desire — always have had — to be the one in the spotlight performing. I can’t allow myself to be shaken by people that want to stare at me.
Imagine me dancing and singing on stage and being like, “What the hell are you all looking at, you freaks!” I am the freak. I know this. I’ve always known this. Everywhere I go, there always seems to be someone who is extra intrigued at what I’m doing with my hands and feet.

Perhaps it was the years of being bullied when nobody, including myself, knew I had Tourette’s. People would randomly say things to me like, “Whatever drugs you’re on, gimme some!” I always took great offense to these sorts of comments growing up, and that was a big reason I abused alcohol for so many years. It made me not care.
I was in my own world in those days, and didn’t pay any mind to anyone around me. I liked that I didn’t care or notice anyone’s shock or disapproval when I’d be the first one on the dance floor cutting a rug. Hell, I could get everyone going and start dance circles. I aspire to be that girl again without the booze, and I know she’s in there — but I hide a bit now.

I wear a hat, keep my head down, do my thing… but it still draws attention. My only problem is when I recognize the attention I’m getting on other people’s faces.
Many years ago, in a podunk town in Kansas, I was punched in the face while dancing. This girl just couldn’t handle the attention I was getting or something, and she shuffled right up to me with a smile on her face that quickly devolved into a rage face — and she just hit me in the face!
It shocked me. I had to think quick: Punch her back? I didn’t, of course, because I’m not the type to resort to violence — but it ruined my night and I left.

I just feel sometimes like I attract haters and creepers. But then again, there have been many times in my past where people have come up to me after dancing and said, “That was awesome!” and wanted to high-five or hug me. I like those moments and welcome them.

Anyway — relearning to be myself, but sober, continues to be quite the journey for me. I just have to decide if I’m okay with being the center of attention, even when it’s negative or unwanted attention.

Like Alan Watts said:
“So this is the problem for every artist. Because an artist is a man who makes his living by playing — whether he’s dancing, or painting, or playing music, or whatever it is. And he has to overcome this problem. He has to know how to play in public at a given time, on an appointment. See? And that’s not an easy thing to learn. But when you catch on to the trick of it — you can do it. To play on demand.”

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3 weeks ago | [YT] | 1

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5 days into my healing journey...
It's honestly going GREAT! It's already turning a nice yellow/green color, and the pain is subsiding. I use ice, saline, eating well, avoiding sugar, and drinking lots of water! I am SO thankful for my eyesight, no nerve damage, minimal concussion, and all the positive vibes and prayers I recieved from those concerned. My doctors are extremely impressed with my ability to heal so expeditiously, but I give full credit to my heavenly Father. Good looking out, dad! Everyone, take good care of your bodies, we only get one! 🖤💙💜

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