LukasP

So, uh, I am back a bit earlier than I expected in terms of using this youtube channel for something. So, if you haven't heard, recently(I got the message for it like an 2 days ago), twitch is reducing the amount of hours of content you could store on your twitch account, aka, reducing the hours of HIGHLIGHTED content you can archive on your twitch channel because of storage and unpopularity reasons....if you didn't know, I highlighted every single twitch stream I have done for the past like, 6 years for the sake of archival reasons(since obviously, like to usually revisit streams and stuff like that), so now, I have to export a good amount of streams to this youtube channel(since thankfully like, half of the streams are saved on here already due to multi-streaming beforehand) for the sake of the content to not be lost media, which is, the last thing I want to happen.

After the whole twitch announcement about that, I also thought about it and decided that this youtube channel will be like THE twitch/streaming centric youtube channel of mine, since, I could just, never decide on what to do with this whole channel in all honesty, kept on trying to find new ways to "innovate"(like, thinking of new ideas and stuff to do with this channel) and, I just never got to them and/or just couldn't be bothered, so just continuing this as how it started mostly, just, the highlights and VODs of the streams channel would make the most amount of sense going forward, and with that, I will be uploading all the twitch streams to this(unlisted in the "My Twitch Streams" playlist to not clutter up the notifications, hopefully), and I will multi-stream every future stream on here as well(because I don't want this whole twitch fiasco sort of stuff happening again). Well, idk what else to say, it sucks, especially since this limit came out of NOWHERE all things considered, feeling like a sort of backstab when it was "fine" for YEARS, but eh, what can you do? some stuff changes fast and all you can do sometimes is just to adapt to them as soon as you can, ya know? As for fully original content, I still don't FULLY know, but I may make a new youtube channel for it, and I will announce it if I ever decide to make one.

Welp, sorry for a lackluster community post(well, in terms of new content), but, ye, that's all. Take care everyone and hopefully everyone has a good rest of their day/night.

8 months ago | [YT] | 1

LukasP

Hello everyone, first off, merry (very late) christmas, and happy new years to everyone, I know I usually don't know these like "End of the year" status reports I guess, since most of my previous years were pretty, bland all things considered, there wasn't really much to talk about...I am a bit of a bland person overall outside of streams, VCs and stuff like that, nothing to really write home about, but, this year has been such a polar opposite from the usual years I have been through, that I feel like I need to just, let it all out honestly, so if half of this post feels like a psychotic ramble...I am sorry. If you don't want to read the full thing, that's perfectly understandable(I would make a TL;DR but I literally reached the character limit here somehow).
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God, 2024 huh? this truly was, a year to be sure. Honestly I don't even know where to really begin since I am mostly used to years sort of just passing by with nothing much happening for the majority of it, this year tho, has been ANYTHING but "nothing happening" that is for damn sure.

I guess i'll just start with my mental health really since it has been, a rollercoaster. If I am going to be fully blunt, this year has been really rough mentally, since, you could probably figure but when your brain works like a 4D chess game, sometimes thinking of every single possible timeline of possibilities, outcomes, benefits and negatives for every single action or word to the point of shear paranoia and anxiety + also just sometimes having an identity crisis, having conflicting beliefs, trying to be selfless while sometimes having a selfish attitude, giving people mental advice that I struggle to follow and apply to myself, trying to be optimistic and giving people motivation while I slowly try self-destructing from shear self-hatred and imposter syndrome, etc...ye, my mind hasn't been in the most stable place to say the least, while I have been trying to fight back the notion and been trying to care for myself more and do things myself for once, treating myself as a person for once, it's kind of hard to see it, when nearly every corner you look, you feel like you haven't done much of worth at all, that or you didn't have the skills, time or opportunity to help out further really, the other stuff in my personal life like trying to find a job, scheduling(VCs, streams, etc.) conflicts and other stuff like that definitely didn't help ease me out of something like that either. While I obviously want to be just a goofy goober that gives people hope and motivation, since, I really want that for everyone else as much as I do for myself, sometimes it can be difficult to be in that mindset when you feel like everything is falling apart around you, especially other people that you care(d) for. While I am not going to pretend that this year has been great for my mental health overall, since even if I got over some fears and struggles, I acquired new ones that can be hard to ignore or forget really, I would be lying if I did say I didn't need to experience it atleast at some point, you know how the saying goes "Our Scars make us stronger", even if I am emotionally pretty numb after...everything really, maybe it's for the better if I want to help people I care for, you know? I mean, I started helping other people with their mental issues from seeing them suffering from the same stuff I have been trying to figure out for weeks if not months or even years how to overcome personally due to being pretty introverted for most of my life and not really knowing how to deal with them, and, I do feel some feeling of, hope and joy for once in my life when I can genuinely help out, and I really value that, as little as it can be sometimes. Trying to help people has really made me realize how weak and naïve I can be sometimes, to the point of self doubt and paranoia, but if I learnt anything from personal experience and stuff like that, sometimes, you got to brute force your fears and doubts to get something done, keep pushing the odds, even when they are stacked against you, I had plenty of times I wanted to just give up, for multiple reasons really, but didn't because I stood my ground, even if I got impatient, angry, annoyed, tired, sometimes even scared that all that help is for nothing, I tried to put those feelings to the side because I believed, and well, as far as I am aware of at least, that extra push did help a few people be in a better mental state. A friend of mine, NBF(xXNotBoyfriendXx), told me an analogy of hugging a cactus, hugging through the pain for the sake of making someone else feel better, and honestly that analogy really stuck with me. Another big factor is just my life ideology being "treat how you want to be treated", yes, I am aware that way of looking at life is kind of self-ish in a sense, but I do genuinely believe in it, I just hate the concept of immediately ditching or treating someone like shit because of a mistake during a rough time during their life(and no, I don't mean like doing a crime on "accident", I mean more so giving shitty advice, or acting irrationally at a really tense situation sort of thing, after all, ACTUAL mistakes shouldn't defy who a person is or isn't), and say or do things that you regret, that's also part why I usually try to be reasonable with people, by seeing their point of view, trying to understand their perspective, sometimes employing a sort of "forgive, forget, move on" sort of...philosophy I guess? since, if there's anything I learnt from being online for so long, most internet arguments and the sorts only get worse and worse over time, rage only breeds more rage towards each other, so cutting it off short, is just, a better use of everyone's time and patience really, people nowadays are already miserable, the last thing I want to do is make someone MORE miserable through unnecessary "agree to disagree" continuations. I could ramble on and on really, giving more analogies, examples and stuff like that since I have either thought about it extensively or experienced through those struggles in some shape or form personally, but most of it is much more, personal or private, so I would rather keep those sort of things to myself, that and for the sake of not making the next bible over here.

As for how I am doing currently? While I am still a bit all over the place from everything really, I can at least say, I am feeling much more, alive I guess than I did back in febuary-ish, even if I don't have a direct life goal other than "help people when you can" due to not even really knowing, who I am as a person all things considered, I do have a sense of reaching something more than just "a guy that existed", you know?

I do want to make more content for youtube and just in general, possibly some essay content since I have a lot of stuff I want to talk about, I also really want to improve as a video editor whenever I can, it's just difficult to find the time, patience or spark to make those videos really and this year really hasn't helped with that. As for streaming content, I really did enjoy making the content I did this year, it was like my personal palette cleanser, from, everything really, but I do want to branch out and do more variety stuff from the usual FNF and maybe 3 other games I usually do, even if I want to make those first new game streams as entertaining and hyped as they can be, I do want to not constantly wait for when I feel "ready for it".

As for hobbies, I tried, but didn't really succeed in actually going in on my art to get artblock out of my way for once in my life since I just, don't like my art in all honesty, but I do want to ramp up my arting to finally get back to making stuff I can be proud of. I may also try out making music again, since I do have FL studio and have been doing like, nothing with it for the past solid year now. I do want to make games at some point again as well, or at the very least learn programming better, but I have been pretty demotivated and dry of what to make really.

Well, that's it for the long version, sorry that it has been such a ramble, but I do want to be as extensive and honest as I can be, even if I sound like a dumbass that doesn't know what they are talking about in the slightest sometimes. I could say a million more things really, but, all I will say is for now is just, even if I have been pretty ignorant to it all, I do really appreciate everyone's support over the weeks, months or even years, even if I never FULLY expected to be as, "known" by some (mostly FNF) people as I am really, to the point of actually forming year long friendships with some, I do feel good knowing that my stupid ass can brighten someone's mood after a rough day/night, that's the least I can do to help.

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2025 Predictions

Predictions:

As for any predictions for what will happen and/or what I will do in 2025? honestly, I could pretend to know what I want to do and just, do that, but well, the last time I said that I would focus on doing more variety and stuff, this year happened, which threw most of my plans out the window, so in all honesty, I have no clue what 2025 will await, maybe I will do and reach something I could be proud of, maybe I won't, who is to say at this rate? All I will say is just, I hope that 2025 will be better for everyone, I do really hope I can finally break through my struggles and just, exist without eternal mental suffering on a daily basis, and I hope the same goes for everyone else. Wish everyone well, take care, and for now at least(in terms of youtube at least since I barely post anything here, oops), cya later everyone :heart:

10 months ago (edited) | [YT] | 2

LukasP

Uh, hello everyone, so, it's been a while, a GOOD damn while with nothing really happening on the channel, and, let me tell you, a LOT of stuff has happened or is happening, both behind the scenes and just in general, so I have been, really damn busy with life really, from helping people with depression, impostor syndrome and the like, to well, meeting some very damn good friends after well, being kind of in my own personal bubble for a good while. And it sure has been a journey to put it lightly. i could really ramble on and on for a good damn while, but I genuinely don't even know where to begin really, but at least for the youtube channel, I am going to be completely honest, I am not in the youtube spirit(if that wasn't obvious by the fact that I barely have done anything with this account, not counting watching videos, listening to songs and sometimes commenting on videos and talking in video/song priemeres, I haven't really done anything with it, hell I had an PFP made for it, and didn't even change it for like 6 months now really, so, ya know, very active amiright), most of the stuff I wanted to make into videos, I thought about making them into streams instead since I just didn't really like editing, and if I am going to be honest, I HATE my youtube videos, they are just, not great, even the video game corruption video doesn't flow well at all(but then again, that's what you get for having an hour video while not wanting to cut down on anything, when I really should have). this doesn't mean that I will never make videos or anything ever again, I am slowly but surely getting nostalgia to make videos, at least with some recorded stuff like lethal company stuff I played with some friends which I may or may not make into an edited video at some point(not confirming it, I am not in the editing spirit fully, that and I don't have MUCH MUCH footage to make a full on video with, so that's still a "maybe"), but at least as of right now, I will need to get a job soon enough, since, you know, not getting paid or anything, youtube being a hellhole for consistency and stuff like that, streaming generally being more fun for me to do and the sorts, ye...youtube is still going to be dead for a while longer, idk how long, but ye.

As for connecting with everyone and all that, while having no videos to speak of, well, you can always contact me via discord (@_lukasp) since I am REALLY active on there, like 17/7 so if you want to talk about anything, I am more than willing to do so, I am also mostly active on twitch (www.twitch.tv/lukasp), that's where most of my content, clips and the sorts come from, so if you like me for my personality(how dare you), I would advice you to go to twitch, since like I said, I am more active on there and generally have a bigger audience on there.

Also to the people out there with depression and stuff(since I can say from experience of dealing with a lot of mental problems of my own, and still sort of do), remember that there are people that care for you, if you are a good person deep down(as in like, you WANT to help people, not HAVE to help people, that sort of thing), I respect you, and many others will along the way, life can be hard, but there is always light at the end of the tunnel, even if it takes a while you can, and will reach it, don't give up.

And well, that's all I really have or want to say for now, again, I don't know what the future will bring or what can or will happen, but at least as of right now, that's all, cya later gamers, take care.

1 year ago | [YT] | 1

LukasP

Sorry for being a tad bit late, but HAPPY NEW YEAR EVERYONE
Also sorry for not making any videos for a while...also known as not a single video this entire year like a goof, while I can't promise anything(I mean come on, who do you think I am? a human with their sh*t figured out? ye,I god damn wished, but that ain't happening), I will TRY to actually post more content on this channel after like a full year, I sadly still don't have any videos prepared(because IMAGINE actually having stuff prepared, amiright?), but I am planning on making at least SOME videos, I don't exactly know what I want my channel to be, so I will just do a variety and see what sticks, hopefully after my 2023 compilation video I will start to get into the mood, maybe some essays, maybe some youtube exclusive let's plays, maybe some miscellanous stuff like my music and stuff, all of that. But for now, ye, peace out I guess, hopefully nobody goes into a dark mental place because I know how stuff like that can screw with you, good luck to everyone.

1 year ago | [YT] | 1

LukasP

Okay, from next month(so basically after this and the next week) onward, I will stop streaming on youtube and will only stream on twitch since I feel like it's been LONG enough of constant, daily streaming and most likely notification spam, I will stream on YouTube on special occasions(like the poll has voted) like a 1k sub goal or something like that, but otherwise all my future streams will be exclusive to Twitch only.

If you ever want to watch my live streams, here's the twitch link: www.twitch.tv/lukasp
I usually pay a lot more attention on twitch chat(no offense YouTube live chat, but sometimes I feel happier when it's empty because the chat messages are...brain melting)
My schedule is all over the place, so ye, just catch it when you can.

As for the videos? again, I will start doing more content starting December(for the 2023 best of video) and I will start doing other stuff in 2024(hopefully since knowing life, who knows)

2 years ago (edited) | [YT] | 1

LukasP

Sooo...Sorry about the lack of streams or anything for the past few days, it's been a REALLY rough couple of days and nights for me to say the least
(it's a long story, but I obviously install lots of FNF mods nearly daily that I find interesting/cool(I mean I am an lesser known mods guy for a reason, can't just play community game mods and fine hidden treasure you know),
one of them most likely(since I STILL don't know what even truly caused it) had malware, by the fact that after a few reboots the antivirus took like 80% of the CPU out of nowhere and like 20 powershells activated...which is not normal.
I reseted my pc(basically removed the important programs and reset some program settings) and got rid of the virus by disabling powershell, but one of the side effects of the virus was that ALL FNF mods/engines(Kade engine, psych engine, forever engine etc.(stuff like unity or godot were fine for some reason) run like UTTER SHIT and it has NO pattern of what or when it causes it to lag(it could be a good 60 FPS for a solid like 5 minutes and then it would randomly spasm out and rapidly go from 30-60 fps, sometimes it would just IMMEDIATELY by opening the pc in the morning and it become unstable and get back to 60FPS like 2 hours later, and the 30-60 FPS spasming also happens on the the equivalents on higher FPSs(basically if I increased the FPS to like 120 for example, it would just be like 60-110, it would not be a stable 120FPS for a while), making it nearly IMPOSSIBLE to play the game(no joke, even the BOTPLAY, gets "shit" ratings from how laggy and unstable it is)).
I am TRYING my damn hardest to fix it, and at this point I am losing my patience, mind and options(I have tried everything, memory leak fixing tutorials, Pc performance tutorials, lowering the quality in FNF mods in the options, gave psych engine administrator access, NOTHING has worked so far, and it doesn't help that I reseted my opera GX which had over like 1000+ BOOKMARKS OF FNF MODS, that's like a solid 30+ hours of looking through the mods, downloading some of them, getting a snippet of how they are like and stuff I am not getting back).

So, in the meantime of me having a mental breakdown and since I am not streaming, what should I do about the streaming thing going forward(before I get into the video making stuff again for next year)?

2 years ago | [YT] | 2

LukasP

This is going to be a LONG post, but just stick with me on this one since I have a lot to talk about, both with this channel and going forward with it

For one, thank you to who actually voted on the polls, I am going to be completely honest, I didn't think anyone would and I would just be talking to an invisible brick wall with no feedback, so I am honestly really surprised that at least SOMEONE cares in some shape or form(idk why you would honestly, my channel is utter garbage, like I am legit not good at ANYTHING, in the slightest, but that's besides the point).

Second of all, I thought about it and I saw the poll results, and came to the conclusion, that I will just remove the @ytlukasp(Lukas Poofus) channel and use this one from now on instead, while the benefit of not being flooded notifications is really useful and a smart logical/analytics thing in the long run, I don't think it's worth nearly starting ALL over just for some convenience for the viewers + I was never really about the viewers(don't get me wrong, views 100% motivate me to actual make videos and I will fully admit, I use some viewer grabbing stuff like tags and stuff, there's a fucking reason why I haven't uploaded anything in ages, but at the end of the day, I don't care what happens honestly, if I died as a nobody, then at least I died trying to do something good to this...cursed, decaying, garbage, "X"(Also known as twitter, but even more corporate and garbage) world), especially when I have such a small, barely existing, "following" in the first place(+ I barely switch accounts, if you have seen me around in comments and stuff, I ALWAYS use this account, I never use the others because I hate switching/using other accounts), meaning that I would have to go down the ladder of just HOPING the algorithm picks up the videos(which it won't, and for a good reason, the ONLY one that would even SLIGHTLY deserve to be recommended is the video game corruptions video since that took me a while to do and I think it has the most "character" in it, and even then most people would just be confused by the thumbnail alone and not click it anyways, which is fully fair, it's like not knowing a brand...except the brand has the quality of an MS paint drawing).

So, what is going to happen to this channel?

First of all, I am slowly but surely going to unlist most of my older videos, I will still have them in a playlist if you for whatever reason want to watch them for old time sake or whatever else really, but it just doesn't hold up anymore(to be fair, my standards were low to begin with, but stream highlights are really easy to make, they are just time consuming).

Second of all, I can't guarantee anything, I SUCK at making promises, but my new years resolution is going to be ACTUALLY TRYING to finally start uploading shit on this garbage ass channel FOR ONCE, instead of leaving this channel to die. While don't get me wrong, streaming helps me mentally a lot, it's legit one of the ONLY things that keeps me sane and makes me semi happy in this pessimistic hellhole we call "Earth", I can't keep on just streaming, I have barely developed any skills from trying so hard to stream instead of improve my art, music or even editing for example. I currently have a "Best of 2023 - Lukasp"(Basically twitch clips/highlights since...I haven't uploaded anything on youtube, what do you expect me to highlight, a "here lies the lukasp channel" gravestone for like 10 minutes?) video cooking in the background, idk when it will release, but I am GOING to try to not be a lazy bitch and actually upload it in December, instead of like April 2022 like I did with my Best of 2021. After that video releases, I am also planning of obviously rebranding a bit with new art and stuff, since. while I am a sucker for being stubborn and/or ignorant and never changing your profile picture or banner(since that turns into lost media if you lose the files) for example...in this case, they are not funny, interesting, memorable or even good looking in the first place to deserve to be kept the same(maybe I will keep the profile picture, but that's a HARD "maybe")

Third, you may ask "what will you do about the streaming/video notifications situation?", I know it sounds really convoluted, but I will make frequent community posts that will tell you at the top of what kind of post it is, if it's something like "New video", it's notification for a new video, if it's a poll "important poll time" or something like that...you aren't 9 years old, you know the drill. As for if I will stop streaming on this channel, or transition to a different streaming services instead, I will probably make a poll later asking about it and see how that goes

Fourth, I will switch this channel's handle to @YTlukasP instead of my current one of @lukaspGamer1 since it's much more simpler, more "legit", and just more fitting handle to have.

As to what I will upload in the future? I am going to be honest, I have no clue yet, for NOW, since I don't really have any real leg to stand on, audience wise at least(I 100% guarantee that like 90% of you came from or knew me from the FNF streams, which makes sense and I can't blame you from my actual crack addiction to that god damn game that milking a cash cow would be considered normal, but come on), I will just do random shit and see what sticks really, planning on doing:
- some edited gameplay videos(I Always wanted to make a gameplay series of earthbound or Five nights at fuckboys....yes I am a huge simp for turn based RPGs, leave me alone)
- some essay stuff in the future(since most people are FULLY aware of my fucking mountains of text I like to write sometimes....including right god damn now),
- some game reviews(I have been a big fan of flash and indie games and barely anyone is reviewing them nowadays, so might at least TRY to take that place).
- some random shit that comes to my brain(I UNIRONICALLY want to make a Among us parody of the FNAF 1 living tombstone song JUST because I once did a bit on stream, I am not fucking kidding).
- maybe some other stuff like speed paints or making some songs after like a year of retiring LMMS and not using soundcloud at all(since I am REALLY rusty at both, but I still want to showcase something when I am barely doing anything with my damn life...that is if I don't look at my art with disgust in the first place or know how to make a melody without amen breaks every 5 seconds in FL studio),
- among other things I think of really(Like, I have a TON of ideas for videos and stuff, it's just most of them aren't achievable right now(coding, friends, GOOD SCHEDULES, physical equipment(I have a goofy ass headset mic that looks ripped apart, that ain't gonna slide for long) etc.) or just not worth it right now(like I had an idea of doing EVERY SINGLE Bloons TD 5 calendar mission/challenge, as up to date possible(since it will obviously be outdated after uploading the video) or something along those lines.....which is like 5+ years worth of missions to go through...which ye maybe not now).

.....Anyways, TL:DR(since I know you cretins exist):

Channel will be different and I will maybe upload in 2024, maybe, hopefully, if it doesn't and I don't...sorry, my b :(

2 years ago (edited) | [YT] | 2

LukasP

Okay...I am genuinely confused since I keep on checking the "what should I do with this channel" poll and it keeps changing results every time I check, what should I ACTUALLY do?

2 years ago | [YT] | 1

LukasP

Hello everyone, what a wild time huh, anyways, I seen the poll and just generally thought about it, and I decided that I will upload new YouTube exclusive stuff on a channel called LukasPoofus (@LukasPoofus) and actually gonna start uploading stuff from time to time and talk about actual video stuff there.
What will I do with this channel? it's just gonna be for twitch vods, I am probably not gonna upload any new videos on this channel since I sort of decided this channels faith by streaming so many god damn times that people probably disabled the notifications(for good reason).

But ye, if you want youtube exclusive stuff, go to the LukasPoofus( @LukasPoofus ) channel, hopefully I will start uploading soon enough

2 years ago | [YT] | 1

LukasP

Hello everyone, I know, another post I haven't done in a while, how convenient, isn't it?

Anyways, I have been thinking about what and how to really use these channels, it feels like I have been all over the place with what content to make in these channels and I have been just running in circles doing nothing about it really, I haven't done anything with this youtube channel for a while and I REALLY want to change that since I feel like I have been misusing it a lot.

So, I thought about it, and decided that it's time to actually do stuff for once because I have been a lazy, useless bastard for WAY too long to the point where I want to change some things, so, my idea is to make 3 different youtube channels:

(DO NOTE: THIS CHOICE IS NOT FINAL, THE POLL BELLOW CAN DECIDE THE OUTPUT(If anyone even has the patience or time to vote for it that is), I AM NOT AGAINST DEMOCRACY AND I CAN CHANGE THIS ANY TIME.)
(If nobody will vote on the poll, I will just go with the plan I listed above, but I want to hear some feedback about this, also NO, just because I have this poll or will make multiple channels doesn't mean that I have crazy videos in storage or something, I just have felt like I have been using this channel for nothing really, and I want to change that)

- LukasP(This channel you are currently looking at right now, come on, can't you read?) will be the twitch centric channel, I will most likely post some twitch highlights once in a while when I feel like it and I will keep the "live" stuff since I have been doing that for a while, I used this as the "twitch backup" from the very start, so might as well keep going with it.

- Lukas Doofus(I am still trying to think of a name for it), it will be my youtube exclusive stuff, that's most likely will be all the future important content will be located, shorts, essays, gameplay videos, basically anything that isn't on the twitch streams will probably be here.

- Lukas's Miscellaneous Box(I am ALSO still thinking of a name for it), this channel will obviously be the ordinary secondary channel where I post random stuff that I want to post sometimes and/or helps me out(Gameplay videos of FNF mods, probably stuff like VFODs, etc.)

2 years ago | [YT] | 2