𓁹☽𝕒𝕥𝕤𝕦🕯️๑

4 days ago | [YT] | 10

𓁹☽𝕒𝕥𝕤𝕦🕯️๑

ill never forget.

ill never forget what she did to me all these years and years.

ill never forget the time she used to be nice in public but manipulating,gaslighting, emotionally and verbally abusing behind closed doors.

ill never forget when she was basically never there for me emotionally when i was a kid and needed it the most.

ill never forget when she talked to our family members/cousins some false information about me and said things that i didn't do.

ill never forget how she used to get mad at me at the smallest mistakes and accidents.

ill never forget how she basically never teached me how to do basic stuff like cooking and etc and then get angry at me when i didn't know how to do stuff like that when she had never or barely teached me anything.

ill never forget so so so much more things that she did to me that i didn't say here.

ill never forget no matter how much she now tries to act like a good person suddenly towards me.

ill never forget no matter how much she now tries to act like a good parent suddenly.

ill never forget no matter how much she now tries to act nice and normal suddenly towards me.

ill never forget how much she has ruined and hurt me.

ill
never
forget.

1 week ago | [YT] | 11

𓁹☽𝕒𝕥𝕤𝕦🕯️๑

HAPPY NEW YEAAARRRR YALL!!!^^^˗ˋˏ( ´͈ ᗜ `͈ )ˎˊ˗
(★^O^★)
(ik its not new year for everyone yet but for me it is so still lol ヾ(*T▽T*) )

2 weeks ago (edited) | [YT] | 7

𓁹☽𝕒𝕥𝕤𝕦🕯️๑

bro i hate when i go tell my mom about something weird that i do or a problem i have and she says i have a high possibility that i have that disorder or that thing(she used to learn about these stuff in college or something so she knows what she's talking about) and then ten seconds later tells me that she won't let me get a diagnosis for that tho like bro
and she has said many stuff like she won't ever let me get any kind of diagnosis and etc, and it sucks cuz ik for a fact theres something deeply wrong whit me but i cant know what it is because of my mom bruh, i feel like im trapped :/.

2 weeks ago | [YT] | 10

𓁹☽𝕒𝕥𝕤𝕦🕯️๑

yall i lowkey feel like I'm a bad person and i wanna try to fix that finally, i actually struggle alot ALOT whit sympathy and emotional emphaty (i only have cognitive empathy) towards others and that lowkey means im not really good at comforting or being there for others when they need it cuz im litterly having a hard time to litterly feel bad or care for them 😭 its like no matter how much i try to feel bad or care its like impossible (trust me i have tried like since my earliest memories lol,basically since i was a kid) but im sure theres a way to maybe fix this and be able to feel it finally actually and be a better person 😔

second problem is that when im enough comfortable whit u, i might sometimes be a little too honest or straightforward about my opinions and etc and that sometimes is a little too harsh and hurtful for others ig which i don't really understand why cuz bro atleast im not lying and im being honest about what i think? but yeah ig idk

third problem is that im super forgetful no matter how much i try my best to remember stuff 💔(apparently somehow i forget everything expect some traumatic things but everything i actually need to remember i forget bruh ヾ(*T▽T*) my brain is ragebaiting me fr)

and also theres this one specific thing that i won't go into detail but i force myself to do one thing for one person to make them happy even tho i myself i am uncomfortable whit that whole topic and thing its probably not very understandable since im not going into detail so u might aswell ignore this last one since theres probably not much tips u can give to me about it (ᐡ т ̫ т ᐡ)

and theres probably more that i cant remember rn
and also ig this becoming a better person will be hard to me especially because i often times when im mentally very low or horrible then apparently for some reason my brain wants to get even worse and when i get even worse then i wanna get even worse again and more and more so yeah once that happens its pretty impossible to get to the feeling to want to get better lol ╥﹏╥ but yeah idk as long that doesn't happen i can try my best to try become a better person ig

if u have tips for these stuff pls do share! i would really appreciate it ꒰⌗´͈ ᵕ `͈⌗꒱৩

2 weeks ago | [YT] | 17

𓁹☽𝕒𝕥𝕤𝕦🕯️๑

meow me and kitties wish you a great day and night! :3 ૮₍ˊᗜˋ₎ა

2 weeks ago | [YT] | 9

𓁹☽𝕒𝕥𝕤𝕦🕯️๑

yall idk if im tweaking or something but my computer somehow genuinely f opened this randomly by itself rn when i was litterly playing Minecraft /gen
😭😭😭 help whats going on 😭😭
😭😭😭😭did i just genuinely just get Rickrolled by my own computer man 😭😭😭😭 help im so confused man 😭😭😭 idk even what to say 😭😭😭

(edit:bro now im overthinking it im confused how can it even do that and im even more confused now😭 like am i hacked or idk im playing Minecrafts whit a modpack maybe it has a mod that does that idk man honestly 😭😭)

3 weeks ago (edited) | [YT] | 10

𓁹☽𝕒𝕥𝕤𝕦🕯️๑

is it just me or is it the same for you?
like for me my mom really never celebrated christmas (i only remember only one time when she did when i was really really young but like almost all of my life not) like no christmas tree, no making gingerbread houses or anything, and just like nothing not even decoration, just nothing? just curious yk :p.

(we do have family gathering where celebrate Christmas But we don't celebrate it at home tho thats what i ment)

3 weeks ago (edited) | [YT] | 13

𓁹☽𝕒𝕥𝕤𝕦🕯️๑

why is talking irl so hard, i just often feel unable to talk and its the worst when I'm in class and i get asked a question and i might even know the answer but just no word comes out of my mouth or when i should say thank you to something then sometimes i just have to nod cuz i genuinely feel like i cant talk at all its starting bother me cuz idk
it makes it harder for others to understand me and i will just feel embarrassed or guilty after too for all day

1 month ago | [YT] | 14

𓁹☽𝕒𝕥𝕤𝕦🕯️๑

i just turned fifteen years old 8 minutes ago
:3 ૮₍ˊᗜˋ₎ა!!!^^

1 month ago | [YT] | 18