I would write notes in my phone whenever I felt like things were becoming too crazy to make sense of. It was mostly to keep my own sanity in check!! It slowly lead me to things like gaslighting, and all the other terminology linked to it. It felt like I had the biggest epiphany of my life when I understood I was being heavily emotionally traumatised by the narc in my life for years!!!! I’m so grateful for the realisation…and all the helpful resources that I found…there’s only moving forward from now!
4 years ago | 1
In the beginning, he made me fill so LOVED, wanted, very affectionate...life was great, but as time went on I soon started to see another side of him, the yelling, making fun of me in front of my son's family, he stopped telling me he loved me, pulling away not affectionate anymore...I left him due to I saw a text message on his phone from another woman...that was my sign from GOD looking out for me again in my life...I am truely BLESSED and very Thankful for that sign!!! If I hadn't seen that text message, I do not know where my life would at this time...
4 years ago | 1
Luckily, after about the 5th or 6th break up, which was particularly brutal and cruel, a friend told me I was dealing with a narcissist. Gave me some stuff to read, and my jaw hit the floor. It was like I was reading from her playbook. It was the outline of our relationship.
4 years ago (edited) | 2
I wish i knew then what I know now. Thankfully I’m alive, being alive and single is reward enough after such an experience. But justice and karma will hopefully take care of the rest. Being labeled as a liar behind ones back while together hurts, but what hurts the most is being labeled a liar just because u finally see the truth and speak up about it. I guess that when people feels threatened by the truth it’s much easier to put the blame on everyone else rather than take accountability and show regret. Some things can’t be forgiven. But those that are up to our selfs to forgive, we can do for our own sake. And actually find comfort in our own hearts being big enough to forgive and walk away. Being happy is more important than trying to fix something, others cry for help to fix. But they don’t actually see it as a problem that needs fixing. So lesson learned. If someone asks for my help and understanding of their bad abusive behavior, and they never learn from my tears. I’ll walk away and let them be someone else’s tears. I’ve cried my buckets and started my healing. I’ll never put my self into another relationship before I’ve healed my self, because if I’m not strong enough by my self, then that’s not fair to another partner either. Someone deserve my full heart and if I can’t give my self that first. I’m in no condition to give anyone just a sliver of what’s there. Finding out you are strong enough on your own is more worth than getting affirmation from someone that abuses that love. And while being vulnerable after something like that, chances are that you meet another abusive partner if not healed from the last one. Love and light to you all❤️
4 years ago | 2
When I unknowingly went supernova and started searching videos Also my abandonment issue's and then learned I was a codependent super empath This is the hardest thing I have ever experienced in my life
4 years ago (edited) | 2
NarcAWAY
What clued you into your abusive situation? What were the first signs that made you start googling behaviours and reactions?
And at what point did the light bulb turn on for you?
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