Hey Erutan. I miss you and your music so much. I hope you are able to come back to it at some point, I really think you would be able to support yourself with it now with YouTube partnership program and everything. It would not only make my day, week, month, or year but if you came back to music I would be so ecstatic. I think it would be so fantastic to see you on Patreon. Just the thought of it makes me happy! I've been a fan of yours since 2009, and have been watching that long. Watching you in my teenage years has formed so much of what I now love, and also aspire to be. I know it's a slim change of you responding to or even seeing this, but what it's worth I would support you every step of the way if you did. I would be your first patron if that ever happened and probably the most loyal to. I know something happened with your voice and I'm so sorry. I can't imagine how devastating that must have been for you. Just know I care about you on a deeper level than your music and should you ever find yourself returning to music or YouTube I would support you every step of the way. But if you are done with music and don't want to come back, then I understand. Everyone moves on and changes. Still know that I love your music and draw inspiration from it every day. It would be SO epic for you to cover today's video game music! Everything is so much more diverse now, the opportunities are endless. It would truly be a thing to behold. 😉
3 years ago (edited) | 168
Update in her website https://www.erutanmusic.com/drinks "Hi everyone. So it has now been quite a few years since I have been on the music scene. There was a time (about seven years ago) where my voice began degrading in quality, to the point where I could no longer create the sounds that I could before. Even talking for any length quickly sent me into hoarseness. We went to several doctors in several cities, but the American healthcare system is very expensive and we could only do this so many times. The different diagnoses I was given were possible acid reflux, possible allergies, possible thyroid disorder, and possible autoimmune disorder. I also received many emails from concerned listeners with their own thoughts as to what might cure my condition, vacillating from diet changes and physical/mental exercises to changes in religious and political affiliation. I value my voice enough to have explored many, many avenues from the practical to the bizarre, bought many sorts of pills, changed my diet (and kept them for adequate months) many times, and tossed a few prayers in some interesting directions. As for the clinical route, I was on prescription anti-acid pills and a low acid diet for around two years (not great for other parts of my heath, I will add) and my voice did not return to normal. It is safe to say it is NOT acid reflux as I had previously thought. My thyroid levels showed normal, though it is hard to say what is low or high for a particular individual. Perhaps normal for one person is out of balance for me. But placing that aside, autoimmune issues DO run heavy in my family, and I have many other symptoms of it, from joints that suddenly hurt and swell for no reason, to the morphea that suddenly decided to appear and make a scar on my back, to various other ghostly things that come and go at their leisure. When I sing nowadays, while I did not get my chest voice back, I can do my head voice/classical and it sounds almost okay. But any sort of steady practice, no matter how careful or correct, will bring the inflammation back for a few weeks, just as deciding to take up a good walking regimen will bring a bout of sciatica to my back or swelling to my knees. There is no cure for an autoimmune disorder, only steroids that can suppress your own body’s defense mechanisms for a time, and this is not good long term. It is something that will have to be lived with/ worked around as possible. I am singing occasionally, but definitely not enough to bring my vocal muscles back to where they were. I do plan on making music again, putting voice to all those songs I have written in the meantime. When I start, my voice will not sound as good as it did before, but I am working up my courage for that. (and the rotten tomatoes) My life is more private than it was in the past. I admit I have dealt with a form of PTSD regarding my social media, with it bringing back all the myriad anxieties surrounding the loss of my singing voice, blows to my identity and self worth and the career I might have had. And it was never easy seeing/hearing reminders of how my voice used to be. It still isn't. But I am feeling better from keeping a bit of a distance, and have built a happy, busy life filled with many activities I love. That said, I know I've missed much kindness and good times with many wonderful people, and that is a deep regret of mine, but I've had to listen to what my mind and body were telling me in order to get through this very difficult time. I hope you will forgive me. Hope to see you all soon! - Kate Covington / Erutan " If you ever see this message Erutan, know this. There is nothing to forgive. Your work is wonderful and you are a very talented musician, singing or otherwise. Thank you for everything.
1 year ago | 147
Been following 13 years, but I didn’t know you had this channel. Thanks, Kate!
5 years ago | 15
Ahhh... You're my fav artist from my junior high school era cause of Dragon Nest music! I hope you comeback to the scene.
1 year ago | 7
Remember when Erutan made music? I hope she comes back one day.
4 years ago | 81
I really also want to hear you do a cover of dulaman. It sounds so ancient, i feel it fits.
5 years ago | 29
It's been a while since you take your break, i, we to be fair, miss you so much, your songs are amazing and your voice is angelical, my only regret is that i didn't discovered your channel in time to see you active, but above of all, hope that you're good and doing well with your life, being happy, because even being sad or in my difficult moments, your songs always give me peace and comfort, even your beautiful instrumental, miss you Kate, but i love you, we love you, and really really hope you're happy wherever you are
2 years ago (edited) | 27
Erutan, beautiful songs, music and your adbilities with the lenguage is awsome, you remember me to J.R.R Tolkien but in girl, hehehe. Have a nice day, and I hope that you come back with your musical spirit.
3 years ago (edited) | 3
I just want you to know you made my childhood and my days very nostalgic and good with your songs, specially the willow maid one ☺️ I wish you the best, God bless 💜
1 year ago | 5
Hello Erutan! I just wanted to leave a comment on how much I've missed your presence. You're so incredibly talented and I always find myself revisiting your beautiful music. I never knew there was an update on your website in 2023 and I'm so sorry to hear about what developed. I hope you are doing well and wanted to wish you a happy new year!
4 months ago | 2
Dear Erutan, I miss you sooo MUCH! I regret that I was too young until 2020, I wish I had been able to find you sooner... I hope you will someday, anyday come back. You captured me in your songs, I live in someplace across the globe, yet you captured me. THANK YOU for helping me escape a place where horrible people surrounded me. If you have lost interest in music, and never return, it's alright because your songs are enternal....
1 year ago | 1
We love and Miss you our Magical fiery Princess xoxoxo.. Love from NYC <3
3 years ago | 2
🌸Songstress Kate you may have forgotten me it's been years now but I came here just to say thank you for being a wonderful person and for your beautiful music it has been a comfort to me especially the years passed I went through a hard time. By that thank you for being there for me (◕ᴗ◕✿
2 years ago | 14
Erutan
Hi all! I finished a new instrumental! Please enjoy :)
5 years ago | [YT] | 896