*please read if you are wondering where my weekly uploads have gone*
Hi guys,
Just popping on here to have an honest chat - not sure how many people will see this but I’m really not in the position to make a video talking about it. I decided to vlog my time at university in order to show you guys what life at uni is like, but after this last term I have decided to stop. For a few reasons:
1. whilst I am lucky enough to receive many many lovely comments, this term I’ve received so so so many comments that have slowly and insidiously taken a toll on my mental health: I am someone who is extremely self critical and the constant criticism of every aspect of my uni lifestyle has really started to make me dislike myself which I don’t think is healthy.
2. I am a normal human, a normal student who makes mistakes and is learning to balance everything: Oxford terms (this isn’t me saying oxford is any better than other unis just to clarify) are SO compressed and intense that it’s very hard to manage your social life with a work load and with a YouTube channel. Everyone else at uni lives a similar lifestyle yet I feel like a lot of the comments seem very targeted at me which then makes me question myself every day.
3. I have exams next term and so do many of you, so I feel like moving back towards revision and study videos will benefit us both.
4. As lovely as it is to be able to look back on my time at uni, the constant pressure that documenting and publicising every day of my life and trying to make the vlogs interesting (ironic that when I do try to make them interesting I just get told I go out too much) has made me ill and tired both physically and mentally, and I know it would not be wise to carry them on.
So to conclude, I have a couple of prefilmed videos already scheduled BUT other than that I’m going to take a break and I’ll be back with normal sit down videos in a couple of weeks, but I’m off on work experience in London for the next 2 weeks and quite frankly I need some time away from YouTube as it’s made me feel incredibly isolated from myself as a person. Whilst most of the comments are definitely well intentioned, i can imagine that any uni student who put their life online like I have would find it just as difficult.
Eve Bennett
*please read if you are wondering where my weekly uploads have gone*
Hi guys,
Just popping on here to have an honest chat - not sure how many people will see this but I’m really not in the position to make a video talking about it. I decided to vlog my time at university in order to show you guys what life at uni is like, but after this last term I have decided to stop. For a few reasons:
1. whilst I am lucky enough to receive many many lovely comments, this term I’ve received so so so many comments that have slowly and insidiously taken a toll on my mental health: I am someone who is extremely self critical and the constant criticism of every aspect of my uni lifestyle has really started to make me dislike myself which I don’t think is healthy.
2. I am a normal human, a normal student who makes mistakes and is learning to balance everything: Oxford terms (this isn’t me saying oxford is any better than other unis just to clarify) are SO compressed and intense that it’s very hard to manage your social life with a work load and with a YouTube channel. Everyone else at uni lives a similar lifestyle yet I feel like a lot of the comments seem very targeted at me which then makes me question myself every day.
3. I have exams next term and so do many of you, so I feel like moving back towards revision and study videos will benefit us both.
4. As lovely as it is to be able to look back on my time at uni, the constant pressure that documenting and publicising every day of my life and trying to make the vlogs interesting (ironic that when I do try to make them interesting I just get told I go out too much) has made me ill and tired both physically and mentally, and I know it would not be wise to carry them on.
So to conclude, I have a couple of prefilmed videos already scheduled BUT other than that I’m going to take a break and I’ll be back with normal sit down videos in a couple of weeks, but I’m off on work experience in London for the next 2 weeks and quite frankly I need some time away from YouTube as it’s made me feel incredibly isolated from myself as a person. Whilst most of the comments are definitely well intentioned, i can imagine that any uni student who put their life online like I have would find it just as difficult.
See you soon,
Eve. ❤️
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