Wow, my last community post was talking about my marriage date. That was 2019. This post is more or less a month late.
2020 was a hell of a year. It had some amazing times, and probably the lowest times I've ever had. I am no longer married, COVID kinda fucked up everyone, and sooo many more things happened. Tail end of 2020, things started picking up for me, especially in content creation. My stream was doing good, and I finally started putting out a decent amount of videos for a channel like mine and my time priorities.
BUT
I have had so many video ideas I haven't finished, either unedited piles of footage, dozens of hours of stream footage to scan through, or videos and clips completely scrapped. I don't have a lot of time to edit, so I try to prioritize what I think would be the most ideal to put out.
In September, when I broke my wrist, I did a lot of R6 streams, and was making comedy/entertainment based streams there. I had every intention of converting these moments into videos, as you can even see by some of the love that people I ran into in matches gave on my last R6 video. It honestly would have been a banger. But my depression really got hold of me for a while, and being alone in a city where I didn't know anyone, unable to lift a cup with one of my hands, I gave up.
Eventually, I came back and played some Genshin Impact, and that really did well. I was immersed, probably unhealthily, in getting all the 5 star heroes with big luck. My stream was doing numbers it hadn't done in 5 years -- and they aren't necessarily impressive numbers, not that I care. From there, I've done a lot of things. The aforementioned R6 clips are long gone and I'm no longer able to make a video from them despite really wanting to.
In the end, I either need an editor, or need to reduce the amount I stream to focus on editing. Last year was a strange one, and I didn't like doing my usual loud/energetic videos and streams because I wanted my (ex) wife to focus on school, even though she said it was ok (and she meant it). It was just a mental block I made myself. I released like, 7 actual videos (excluding my Among Us funny moments clip and short things like that) in the last 5ish months and 3-4 from Jan-June. I want to make more videos.
I've started and completed Minecraft builds or Minecraft SMPs, done amazing Cyberpunk 2077 playthroughs, had hilarious Jackbox moments--everything. And I've made amazing friends along the way, as well as discovered alot about myself both as a person and a creator. I want to do more, it's just hard. I don't have the money for an editor, and part of me wouldn't trust an editor -- not that they wouldn't do a good job, but just because I'd just feel distanced from my content and at first it'd make me uncomfortable.
I don't really know why I'm typing any of this, I'm aware YouTube is a platform in which I don't get much direct engagement, it's one of the reasons I like streaming more. I also don't know why I'm rambling.
But I do want to thank everyone who's been there, in streams, in videos; everything. I don't know if I'd still be here if it wasn't for you and your support. I want to make a best of 2020 video, although it'd be late, so lmk if that's something that makes sense or not. Anyways, thank you all. I hope to catch you later and let's have a kickass 2021.
Draenen
Wow, my last community post was talking about my marriage date. That was 2019. This post is more or less a month late.
2020 was a hell of a year. It had some amazing times, and probably the lowest times I've ever had. I am no longer married, COVID kinda fucked up everyone, and sooo many more things happened. Tail end of 2020, things started picking up for me, especially in content creation. My stream was doing good, and I finally started putting out a decent amount of videos for a channel like mine and my time priorities.
BUT
I have had so many video ideas I haven't finished, either unedited piles of footage, dozens of hours of stream footage to scan through, or videos and clips completely scrapped. I don't have a lot of time to edit, so I try to prioritize what I think would be the most ideal to put out.
In September, when I broke my wrist, I did a lot of R6 streams, and was making comedy/entertainment based streams there. I had every intention of converting these moments into videos, as you can even see by some of the love that people I ran into in matches gave on my last R6 video. It honestly would have been a banger.
But my depression really got hold of me for a while, and being alone in a city where I didn't know anyone, unable to lift a cup with one of my hands, I gave up.
Eventually, I came back and played some Genshin Impact, and that really did well. I was immersed, probably unhealthily, in getting all the 5 star heroes with big luck. My stream was doing numbers it hadn't done in 5 years -- and they aren't necessarily impressive numbers, not that I care.
From there, I've done a lot of things. The aforementioned R6 clips are long gone and I'm no longer able to make a video from them despite really wanting to.
In the end, I either need an editor, or need to reduce the amount I stream to focus on editing. Last year was a strange one, and I didn't like doing my usual loud/energetic videos and streams because I wanted my (ex) wife to focus on school, even though she said it was ok (and she meant it). It was just a mental block I made myself.
I released like, 7 actual videos (excluding my Among Us funny moments clip and short things like that) in the last 5ish months and 3-4 from Jan-June. I want to make more videos.
I've started and completed Minecraft builds or Minecraft SMPs, done amazing Cyberpunk 2077 playthroughs, had hilarious Jackbox moments--everything. And I've made amazing friends along the way, as well as discovered alot about myself both as a person and a creator. I want to do more, it's just hard.
I don't have the money for an editor, and part of me wouldn't trust an editor -- not that they wouldn't do a good job, but just because I'd just feel distanced from my content and at first it'd make me uncomfortable.
I don't really know why I'm typing any of this, I'm aware YouTube is a platform in which I don't get much direct engagement, it's one of the reasons I like streaming more. I also don't know why I'm rambling.
But I do want to thank everyone who's been there, in streams, in videos; everything. I don't know if I'd still be here if it wasn't for you and your support. I want to make a best of 2020 video, although it'd be late, so lmk if that's something that makes sense or not. Anyways, thank you all. I hope to catch you later and let's have a kickass 2021.
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