Hi all, This has come to me for a while now, and it's something I'm unsure on what to do. I've really noticed how dead this channel is nowadays, and that most of my subscribers aren't actually here anymore. I've been trying to bring this channel back to life, yet I always feel like now this channel isn't the same as it was in the past.
Another thing is, I generally hate looking at my channel now, especially older videos. I just don't enjoy looking at the kind of person that I used to be and compare myself today to other editors in the community. I really do feel like I'm no longer part of the community, that rarely any other editors talk to me now. I have to admit I was a pretty shitty person years back, and it's caused me to lose a lot of friends. Honestly most people that really support this channel now are just fans from @tarasdiary. Which I highly appreciate a lot.
I've always wondered if I should continue this channel and continue the name xfantasybr0, but generally I just don't know. I like my name, I just don't like the person I was behind it, I don't like the history I've had as an editor in the community. I kinda just want to move on and start a new path as the person I've grown into. I'm not obviously going to say I'm 100% a changed person and I'm nothing like the old Tara, but I have grown and I hate having to look back at my past behaviour, how I behaved in situations, how I treated others. It's always been something that's been in the back of the mind, and it's always when I come back to this channel. Yet, that was still me, and I guess it's just a part of me now.
I want to also give my biggest, hugest apology to anyone that I may have upset, hurt in the past within the years 2013 - 2017. I really am sorry. There's many things I wish I hadn't done or said when I was a bigger part of the editing community, and I hope there are still some editors out there that are still happy to support me.
Now I'm here to ask the biggest question of all, should I leave this channel? Just this channel. I'm happy with @tarasdiary and @tara's diary. I'm just no longer happy with this one. I'll keep just a few videos up, but overall I just don't want to see most of them now. I don't know if it's right to carry on what I started since I was a kid, or move on from it and start a new path. I don't edit as much as I used to now, I only actually make an edit if I really have time or if it's for any of my close friends.
I'd highly appreciate if anyone could let me know what they think, thanks so much for those that still support me to this day.
xfantasybr0 [moved to tarasdiary]
Hi all,
This has come to me for a while now, and it's something I'm unsure on what to do. I've really noticed how dead this channel is nowadays, and that most of my subscribers aren't actually here anymore. I've been trying to bring this channel back to life, yet I always feel like now this channel isn't the same as it was in the past.
Another thing is, I generally hate looking at my channel now, especially older videos. I just don't enjoy looking at the kind of person that I used to be and compare myself today to other editors in the community. I really do feel like I'm no longer part of the community, that rarely any other editors talk to me now. I have to admit I was a pretty shitty person years back, and it's caused me to lose a lot of friends. Honestly most people that really support this channel now are just fans from @tarasdiary. Which I highly appreciate a lot.
I've always wondered if I should continue this channel and continue the name xfantasybr0, but generally I just don't know. I like my name, I just don't like the person I was behind it, I don't like the history I've had as an editor in the community. I kinda just want to move on and start a new path as the person I've grown into. I'm not obviously going to say I'm 100% a changed person and I'm nothing like the old Tara, but I have grown and I hate having to look back at my past behaviour, how I behaved in situations, how I treated others. It's always been something that's been in the back of the mind, and it's always when I come back to this channel. Yet, that was still me, and I guess it's just a part of me now.
I want to also give my biggest, hugest apology to anyone that I may have upset, hurt in the past within the years 2013 - 2017. I really am sorry. There's many things I wish I hadn't done or said when I was a bigger part of the editing community, and I hope there are still some editors out there that are still happy to support me.
Now I'm here to ask the biggest question of all, should I leave this channel? Just this channel. I'm happy with @tarasdiary and @tara's diary. I'm just no longer happy with this one. I'll keep just a few videos up, but overall I just don't want to see most of them now. I don't know if it's right to carry on what I started since I was a kid, or move on from it and start a new path. I don't edit as much as I used to now, I only actually make an edit if I really have time or if it's for any of my close friends.
I'd highly appreciate if anyone could let me know what they think, thanks so much for those that still support me to this day.
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