Our late cat. Bicucha. I hate to see that so many of my loved ones are now gone. Hope she's resting easy with Edu now. He loved her so much.
I felt so guilty when Bicucha passed. It happened so quickly. Weeks after I left my house with Edu, the weight of seeing our relationship getting harder every day due his drinking addiction was awful, I couldn't handle that anymore. I tried everything I could, and when I left home, Bicucha died shortly after. I ran straight to the vet, they told me that hopefully she would be fine, but she didn't. She got worse and left us some hours later that day. I felt guilty for not being there.
I couldn't imagine that some months after, Edu would be gone, too. I still think it's not true, I wish so much it wasn't true, but it is. I can't handle the guilt, I think about this so much, about if I was still there, he would still be here, and she would too.
He couldn't even see my last message to him, but I sent that with so much hope he could change. I hoped he could get better, seek help, treatment, and start life again. But it was so quick. It was a day like any other, until it wasn't anymore.
In Portuguese, we have a word: Saudade. There's no exact translation, but it can almost be explained by the feeling of melancholy due to missing something or someone so much. Saudade can be felt when you don't meet your loved ones for a while, but it can be solved when you see them again. Saudade is the worst when you have the knowledge that the missed person will not return, ever again.
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Our late cat. Bicucha. I hate to see that so many of my loved ones are now gone. Hope she's resting easy with Edu now. He loved her so much.
I felt so guilty when Bicucha passed. It happened so quickly. Weeks after I left my house with Edu, the weight of seeing our relationship getting harder every day due his drinking addiction was awful, I couldn't handle that anymore. I tried everything I could, and when I left home, Bicucha died shortly after. I ran straight to the vet, they told me that hopefully she would be fine, but she didn't. She got worse and left us some hours later that day. I felt guilty for not being there.
I couldn't imagine that some months after, Edu would be gone, too. I still think it's not true, I wish so much it wasn't true, but it is. I can't handle the guilt, I think about this so much, about if I was still there, he would still be here, and she would too.
He couldn't even see my last message to him, but I sent that with so much hope he could change. I hoped he could get better, seek help, treatment, and start life again. But it was so quick. It was a day like any other, until it wasn't anymore.
In Portuguese, we have a word: Saudade. There's no exact translation, but it can almost be explained by the feeling of melancholy due to missing something or someone so much. Saudade can be felt when you don't meet your loved ones for a while, but it can be solved when you see them again. Saudade is the worst when you have the knowledge that the missed person will not return, ever again.
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