Mrs. Zippy is in heaven. I had to put her down this week. I've had a pretty good life so I can easily say it is the worst thing I have ever done in my life. Hands down. I want to claw the experience out of my soul and apologize to her over and over. I get monomaniacal about it. (It's not very healthy.)
She was so sick. Couldn't walk more than a few feet without lying down, weighted 4.8 pounds, but... But the vet couldn't find her vein right away and Zipper didn't like it. 😠All I wanted was dignity and peace for her, and I don't feel like I gave it to her. Guilt. All I could do was look in her eyes, pet her and coo how beautiful and perfect she was. "Zipper's perfect. Zipper's beautiful." You can call me stupid, because this is pretty stupid, but I never really thought she would die. We were together for 15 years. That's a long time.
Zippy was always there, just chillin'. Whenever I'd come across her: outside, on my bed, under the covers, in the bathroom, at the woodshed, at the entryway, at the chicken coop, on the porch, wherever, I'd be so happy for it! "ZIPPY!!!" I'd say. And she ALWAYS said hello back.
That's it.
My advice? I have none.
I always liked a line from The Office that Andy Bernard said: "I wish there was a way to know you were in the good old days before you actually left them." I like that line. The thing is, I'm always aware that I'm in those days. Frankly I still am. I think I'm just sad that Zipper isn't.
Jennifer Moleski
Mrs. Zippy is in heaven.
I had to put her down this week.
I've had a pretty good life so I can easily say it is the worst thing I have ever done in my life.
Hands down.
I want to claw the experience out of my soul and apologize to her over and over. I get monomaniacal about it. (It's not very healthy.)
She was so sick. Couldn't walk more than a few feet without lying down, weighted 4.8 pounds, but...
But the vet couldn't find her vein right away and Zipper didn't like it. ðŸ˜
All I wanted was dignity and peace for her, and I don't feel like I gave it to her.
Guilt.
All I could do was look in her eyes, pet her and coo how beautiful and perfect she was.
"Zipper's perfect. Zipper's beautiful."
You can call me stupid, because this is pretty stupid, but I never really thought she would die.
We were together for 15 years. That's a long time.
Zippy was always there, just chillin'. Whenever I'd come across her: outside, on my bed, under the covers, in the bathroom, at the woodshed, at the entryway, at the chicken coop, on the porch, wherever, I'd be so happy for it! "ZIPPY!!!" I'd say. And she ALWAYS said hello back.
That's it.
My advice?
I have none.
I always liked a line from The Office that Andy Bernard said: "I wish there was a way to know you were in the good old days before you actually left them."
I like that line.
The thing is, I'm always aware that I'm in those days. Frankly I still am. I think I'm just sad that Zipper isn't.
Be well.
Thanks for reading.
Jennifer
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