I'm actually not sure what next weeks video is yet; its either The Island of Doctor Moreau, H.G. Wells' message against a toxic idea of humans as "superior beings," or a rethinking of Gainax anime, that they were never really about growing up. The former is better for spacing out certain topics, but I kind of want to make parts of it almost like an audio drama, having different voices for each character who's quoted, and that would take more than a week to get together. The latter is a conscious choice I made to take myself a bit less serious though, saving all the dramatic speech for later in the video, I think to good effect. I feel I've gotten a bit to dour at times and want to have videos which can be more "fun" before becoming engrossed in the point. They're both videos that are pushing the boundaries of what I usually create, probably because I'm losing sight of what the boundaries of my own self are. Who do I really want to be? I feel envious in contrary directions all at once. That's probably something I'll find a video for in the near future. But core to that feeling is that being myself feels like an act of transgression, a survival necessity rather than a simple act of expression. A quite tiring effort of not just being, but trying to be, and the exhaustion of hiding myself, since hiding oneself is never a passive action. In many ways, I feel "forced to be free," which is something that's led me back to the Samurai Champloo soundtrack since that anime oozes such an idea. That's what I got from it, and presented here, at least.
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I'm actually not sure what next weeks video is yet; its either The Island of Doctor Moreau, H.G. Wells' message against a toxic idea of humans as "superior beings," or a rethinking of Gainax anime, that they were never really about growing up. The former is better for spacing out certain topics, but I kind of want to make parts of it almost like an audio drama, having different voices for each character who's quoted, and that would take more than a week to get together. The latter is a conscious choice I made to take myself a bit less serious though, saving all the dramatic speech for later in the video, I think to good effect. I feel I've gotten a bit to dour at times and want to have videos which can be more "fun" before becoming engrossed in the point.
They're both videos that are pushing the boundaries of what I usually create, probably because I'm losing sight of what the boundaries of my own self are. Who do I really want to be? I feel envious in contrary directions all at once. That's probably something I'll find a video for in the near future.
But core to that feeling is that being myself feels like an act of transgression, a survival necessity rather than a simple act of expression. A quite tiring effort of not just being, but trying to be, and the exhaustion of hiding myself, since hiding oneself is never a passive action. In many ways, I feel "forced to be free," which is something that's led me back to the Samurai Champloo soundtrack since that anime oozes such an idea. That's what I got from it, and presented here, at least.
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