Hi there. Looks like I need this. I’ve been having bad time. It’s, about my best friend. Since may. I already had struggling with my studying, and then this. I’ve been knowing her for 8 years. This year will be the 9th one. She was my savior, hero, sun, and one of the my life meanings. Yet I wasn’t even her closest friend. I was afraid. I was hella afraid that she would get broken that I did everything I can do. Then She misunderstood it. I always knew, that no matter what I do, she won’t choose me as a closest friend. I’ll always be a second or third choice. I was full of anger, sadness, disappointment… I said some things that would break her heart. Despite she was the one who’s hurting me all this time. I hurt her once and now we don’t even talk anymore. She says she forgave me. But not her heart, non mine will be the same. Couldn’t eat, couldn’t sleep, didn’t want to go outside, didn’t want to talk with anyone. She had a big part of my life. I lost it. I wasn’t feeling good since all of these things ended. Since June. I’m really sorry for being inactive. I’ll be active next weeks. I will also be active on my editing page and Spotify page. I’ll be sure to come back. If we come to my (ex) best friend. I accepted the truth. Even though she was always by my side when I needed someone and I was in deep pain, I wasn’t her closest, best friend at all. I’ll just let her live peacefully. We go to same school so it will be little hard for me to see her having good time with her friends without me. Fun fact, half of her friends are also my close friends. But probably I won’t be there, with them. I’ll just watch them. Idk tbh. Just, sometimes, it hurts to remember. Can’t take it. But that’s alright. I just wanted you guys to know that I’m back. Love y’all. Mean it💗🫶🏻
nisha☁︎⋆｡ #westandwithgaza
Hi there.
Looks like I need this.
I’ve been having bad time. It’s, about my best friend. Since may. I already had struggling with my studying, and then this.
I’ve been knowing her for 8 years. This year will be the 9th one. She was my savior, hero, sun, and one of the my life meanings. Yet I wasn’t even her closest friend. I was afraid. I was hella afraid that she would get broken that I did everything I can do. Then She misunderstood it. I always knew, that no matter what I do, she won’t choose me as a closest friend. I’ll always be a second or third choice. I was full of anger, sadness, disappointment… I said some things that would break her heart. Despite she was the one who’s hurting me all this time. I hurt her once and now we don’t even talk anymore. She says she forgave me. But not her heart, non mine will be the same. Couldn’t eat, couldn’t sleep, didn’t want to go outside, didn’t want to talk with anyone. She had a big part of my life. I lost it. I wasn’t feeling good since all of these things ended. Since June. I’m really sorry for being inactive. I’ll be active next weeks. I will also be active on my editing page and Spotify page. I’ll be sure to come back. If we come to my (ex) best friend. I accepted the truth. Even though she was always by my side when I needed someone and I was in deep pain, I wasn’t her closest, best friend at all. I’ll just let her live peacefully. We go to same school so it will be little hard for me to see her having good time with her friends without me. Fun fact, half of her friends are also my close friends. But probably I won’t be there, with them. I’ll just watch them. Idk tbh. Just, sometimes, it hurts to remember. Can’t take it. But that’s alright. I just wanted you guys to know that I’m back. Love y’all. Mean it💗🫶🏻
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