Theres actually something wrong with me like academically or something cause like Why for the LIFE of me can i not do this course Like i can and i really want to, i do really want art to be in my life in some way whether it’s my main job or just some side thing but WHY can i not just GO IN!!!
In short i got sick the first 2 or 3 weeks of school got in full attendance basically for half the week for the first week then Took the next week and a half off basically only going in the classes i knew i would probably like or knew was good and the ones i didn’t go to essentially just got abandoned by me Like i have 2 classes wednesday been to them once and never since like I’m genuinely scared to go into all these classes i’ve barely been into with nothing that i just avoid them all together I am doing slightly better with the classes though Like paint class i FINALLY got brushes after something like 7 or 8 weeks of school and it’s going good same with the friday classes but every other class has just gone to shit Some classes like those Wednesday ones i dont even have a sketchbook for and things like photo class i haven’t even shown up since halloween
Like i genuinely dont even know whats wrong with me anymore 😭😭 Like i dont know if im burnt out of school or art i dont know but i just cant idk why 😭 im just scared idk man
Gone from one of “the best in class” to “as long as i pass” to this, i used to love school one of my favourite things and now i can’t even get up out of bed at 8am for a 9pm class mean while i have friends who are getting up at 6 am to go get 2 busses to a 9 am class and i cant even go walk 10-20 mins down the road
I have a small feeling it’s things like having no friends, like i have trouble making friends anyway but the school being like 80% women doesn’t really help >.<
Like it feels like i should just be having a gap year bc i practically am already with how ts is going so far but at the same time i dont want to do jackshit because thats just fucking boring and i dont wanna just sit at home and play games all day I do that to escape reality anyway and with how school is going so far i dont think it’ll work for any longer
Sorry for being so depressing ik it’s not how i usually am, i just felt like i had to get some of that out to at least to the fbi agent reading my phone or even the youtube ai
Thanks for reading if you got this far though, that was nice Uh…. Have a good rest of your day i guess
☆CelestialCam☆
BIG RANT
(Read if u want i dont rlly care)
Theres actually something wrong with me like academically or something cause like
Why for the LIFE of me can i not do this course
Like i can and i really want to, i do really want art to be in my life in some way whether it’s my main job or just some side thing but WHY can i not just GO IN!!!
In short i got sick the first 2 or 3 weeks of school got in full attendance basically for half the week for the first week then Took the next week and a half off basically only going in the classes i knew i would probably like or knew was good and the ones i didn’t go to essentially just got abandoned by me
Like i have 2 classes wednesday been to them once and never since like I’m genuinely scared to go into all these classes i’ve barely been into with nothing that i just avoid them all together
I am doing slightly better with the classes though
Like paint class i FINALLY got brushes after something like 7 or 8 weeks of school and it’s going good same with the friday classes but every other class has just gone to shit
Some classes like those Wednesday ones i dont even have a sketchbook for and things like photo class i haven’t even shown up since halloween
Like i genuinely dont even know whats wrong with me anymore 😭😭
Like i dont know if im burnt out of school or art i dont know but i just cant idk why 😭 im just scared idk man
Gone from one of “the best in class” to “as long as i pass” to this, i used to love school one of my favourite things and now i can’t even get up out of bed at 8am for a 9pm class mean while i have friends who are getting up at 6 am to go get 2 busses to a 9 am class and i cant even go walk 10-20 mins down the road
I have a small feeling it’s things like having no friends, like i have trouble making friends anyway but the school being like 80% women doesn’t really help >.<
Like it feels like i should just be having a gap year bc i practically am already with how ts is going so far but at the same time i dont want to do jackshit because thats just fucking boring and i dont wanna just sit at home and play games all day
I do that to escape reality anyway and with how school is going so far i dont think it’ll work for any longer
Sorry for being so depressing ik it’s not how i usually am, i just felt like i had to get some of that out to at least to the fbi agent reading my phone or even the youtube ai
Thanks for reading if you got this far though, that was nice
Uh….
Have a good rest of your day i guess
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