Some of you have been asking why I have been inactive here and on YouTube. The truth is my retail job has wrung me out right as I'm receiving medical help for something. So I'm scrambling to find more work to keep my insurance.
I've had no time to do much animation work and I'm trying to focus on my health at the moment. My job however cut my hours just as I received my insurance after spending 9 months of back to back of retail work.
Would I not be needing it, I'd enjoy the time off but to cut my hours right after I get the insurance to pay for what I need...it's just unfair. Not even just to me but my coworkers as well.
The situation is depressing me, I am for the moment able to get the health care I need but I don't know for how long. I am seeking work elsewhere to enable me to have the care I need, but professional animation work is...very hard to break into.
With the rise of these a and I stuff, I feel like I made a mistake trying to get into the animation field. I am mentally exhausted, physically exhausted, from the constant angry customers I deal with all because I need SOME form of Income. And for all my hard work I am just...cast aside.
My knees hurt, my pent up anger is so bottled up, my fear and anxiety due to my health issues is driving me up a wall and the one shining grace just...taken away from me. My reward for all my hard work just..I so angry right now.
I only took this job to provide some income until I could find work anywhere. From any game dev group, from any animation studio, big or indie...and yet, my lack of portfolio work and my mental state to WANT to animate is being sapped by this menial retail job, constantly yelled at due to the policies of the place causing them to shift their anger towards me. And I have to sit there and endure it. I endured it for ten months to finally get something out of it..and it's taken away from me.
The only saving grace is I picked up more hours at a different chain of the same store I work at. But the whole situation just...saps my sanity, my drive.
I am terribly sorry for the long rant, but I needed to vent. And you all deserve to know the reason of my lack of work. That said, I have not been idle, and am currently working on a "Godzilla vs Bagan" short for someone I put on the backburner for too long.
But understand, my situation...makes it very difficult to muster up the will to work on anything.
And to clarify, the medical help I need is dental related, so it's fairly expensive, even with the insurance. The original intent was to remove an infected tooth (which I managed to get done thanks to you all who pitched in months ago as well as what little i got from my job at first), but now they need to do deep cleanings, and an extraction of an old crown that was for a root canal I got sixteen years ago.
Without insurance it would have been 5k. With it, its...fairly managable. So you can see my sudden descent into this state after all my work, a light at the end of the tunnel to help myself like a proper adult..and then it slams shut in my face.
Ultraman.Ultimo
Some of you have been asking why I have been inactive here and on YouTube. The truth is my retail job has wrung me out right as I'm receiving medical help for something. So I'm scrambling to find more work to keep my insurance.
I've had no time to do much animation work and I'm trying to focus on my health at the moment. My job however cut my hours just as I received my insurance after spending 9 months of back to back of retail work.
Would I not be needing it, I'd enjoy the time off but to cut my hours right after I get the insurance to pay for what I need...it's just unfair. Not even just to me but my coworkers as well.
The situation is depressing me, I am for the moment able to get the health care I need but I don't know for how long. I am seeking work elsewhere to enable me to have the care I need, but professional animation work is...very hard to break into.
With the rise of these a and I stuff, I feel like I made a mistake trying to get into the animation field. I am mentally exhausted, physically exhausted, from the constant angry customers I deal with all because I need SOME form of Income. And for all my hard work I am just...cast aside.
My knees hurt, my pent up anger is so bottled up, my fear and anxiety due to my health issues is driving me up a wall and the one shining grace just...taken away from me. My reward for all my hard work just..I so angry right now.
I only took this job to provide some income until I could find work anywhere. From any game dev group, from any animation studio, big or indie...and yet, my lack of portfolio work and my mental state to WANT to animate is being sapped by this menial retail job, constantly yelled at due to the policies of the place causing them to shift their anger towards me. And I have to sit there and endure it. I endured it for ten months to finally get something out of it..and it's taken away from me.
The only saving grace is I picked up more hours at a different chain of the same store I work at. But the whole situation just...saps my sanity, my drive.
I am terribly sorry for the long rant, but I needed to vent. And you all deserve to know the reason of my lack of work. That said, I have not been idle, and am currently working on a "Godzilla vs Bagan" short for someone I put on the backburner for too long.
But understand, my situation...makes it very difficult to muster up the will to work on anything.
And to clarify, the medical help I need is dental related, so it's fairly expensive, even with the insurance. The original intent was to remove an infected tooth (which I managed to get done thanks to you all who pitched in months ago as well as what little i got from my job at first), but now they need to do deep cleanings, and an extraction of an old crown that was for a root canal I got sixteen years ago.
Without insurance it would have been 5k. With it, its...fairly managable. So you can see my sudden descent into this state after all my work, a light at the end of the tunnel to help myself like a proper adult..and then it slams shut in my face.
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