**listens to Lil Uzi Vert once** is all I have to say about this track musically.
As for the lyrics, I got the idea for this track from one moment I had last year; I was sitting outside, it was fall, the sun was out, I felt its rays on my skin, and I just felt so happy to be living. It was literally as if said rays restored love and faith in myself.
I deal with a lot of self-pity, insecurity, internalized ableism, noisy OCD thoughts, almost daily. I've done a lot of growth, soul-searching, socializing, and self-examination these past two years. This track in a nutshell is about: 1, a yearn for growth, maturely, something which I often feel is out of my reach. But 2, at the same time, learning to love or at least embrace how fuckin' odd I am and how different I roll. On one hand I've done many, many regrettable shit that I never would've done as a neurotypical, but I've reached a conclusion where I believe my mental, emotional, and social quirks or **ahem…** """""shortcomings""""" (frizzes, as I call them), are a blessing just as much as they can feel like a curse.
I reference a quote by some guy named Groucho Marx, "Blessed are the cracked, for they shall let in the light…", and that resonates with me so much. In a way, it's kind of awesome being a total weirdo, and having the opportunity to affect the world in angles which the "sane" or "typical" cannot. That's what I do this for.
It's too easy to hate (whether it be yrself or others), and I am *not* doing this for "easy". And sometimes it's little things like feeling the sun on my face that brings out those warm, hopeful, reinforcing feelings, ya dig?
Little Leonard
**listens to Lil Uzi Vert once** is all I have to say about this track musically.
As for the lyrics, I got the idea for this track from one moment I had last year; I was sitting outside, it was fall, the sun was out, I felt its rays on my skin, and I just felt so happy to be living. It was literally as if said rays restored love and faith in myself.
I deal with a lot of self-pity, insecurity, internalized ableism, noisy OCD thoughts, almost daily. I've done a lot of growth, soul-searching, socializing, and self-examination these past two years. This track in a nutshell is about: 1, a yearn for growth, maturely, something which I often feel is out of my reach. But 2, at the same time, learning to love or at least embrace how fuckin' odd I am and how different I roll. On one hand I've done many, many regrettable shit that I never would've done as a neurotypical, but I've reached a conclusion where I believe my mental, emotional, and social quirks or **ahem…** """""shortcomings""""" (frizzes, as I call them), are a blessing just as much as they can feel like a curse.
I reference a quote by some guy named Groucho Marx, "Blessed are the cracked, for they shall let in the light…", and that resonates with me so much. In a way, it's kind of awesome being a total weirdo, and having the opportunity to affect the world in angles which the "sane" or "typical" cannot. That's what I do this for.
It's too easy to hate (whether it be yrself or others), and I am *not* doing this for "easy". And sometimes it's little things like feeling the sun on my face that brings out those warm, hopeful, reinforcing feelings, ya dig?
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