10 years since you’ve been gone. 10 years since I’ve lost one of my best friends. 10 years since I’ve heard your voice, missed birthdays, Christmas, Father’s Day. I wish I could call you and just hear your voice. I wish I could just talk to you and hear your laugh. Smoke with you, listen to your stories growing up.. have you physically there at my wedding… I mean I know your brother will be there but. I’m still hurting.. losing my mother in law so abruptly this year just brought all my emotions back to the surface.
Did I even grieve you properly? Or was I too caught up in my own feelings. I don’t know.. but I know as we celebrate today. Know that I never would have wished for a better father. Know that even though I can’t hear you God has blessed me to see the signs that allow me comfort knowing that you’re in a better place. And that you’re okay. And I don’t know why these things happen.. why people we hold the closest to us get taken away.. I don’t know why there isn’t a cure for cancer. Or better why there isn’t an affordable cure for people that truly need it.. it’s a lot of emotions I’m feeling today. But I love you. And I just want you to be proud of me.
“I love you, more than I love Chinese. More than I Van Camp loves pork and beans.” You’re my ABC. And I pray that I am even half of a father that you were. And I really hope you’re there for my wedding in October. If I don’t see you or hear from you for the rest of my life if you could just be there in spirit that day. It would mean the world to me..
D LIT© GAMING
10 years since you’ve been gone. 10 years since I’ve lost one of my best friends. 10 years since I’ve heard your voice, missed birthdays, Christmas, Father’s Day. I wish I could call you and just hear your voice. I wish I could just talk to you and hear your laugh. Smoke with you, listen to your stories growing up.. have you physically there at my wedding… I mean I know your brother will be there but. I’m still hurting.. losing my mother in law so abruptly this year just brought all my emotions back to the surface.
Did I even grieve you properly? Or was I too caught up in my own feelings. I don’t know.. but I know as we celebrate today. Know that I never would have wished for a better father. Know that even though I can’t hear you God has blessed me to see the signs that allow me comfort knowing that you’re in a better place. And that you’re okay. And I don’t know why these things happen.. why people we hold the closest to us get taken away.. I don’t know why there isn’t a cure for cancer. Or better why there isn’t an affordable cure for people that truly need it.. it’s a lot of emotions I’m feeling today. But I love you. And I just want you to be proud of me.
“I love you, more than I love Chinese. More than I Van Camp loves pork and beans.” You’re my ABC. And I pray that I am even half of a father that you were. And I really hope you’re there for my wedding in October. If I don’t see you or hear from you for the rest of my life if you could just be there in spirit that day. It would mean the world to me..
Love you to the moon and back.
7/24/15 💜💛
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