chlo

i told you things

i told you things
that i never said
you're the golden boy
and my worst regret
so i cut the cost
and i limit feeling

you were all at once
'til the fade to black
took your cigarettes and your poems back
you were in my hands
now you're on my ceiling

but how's the city been?
you get recognized
at the local bar
by the drunken guys
and the starlet girls
they claw for pieces

do you give a few?
do you like that?
do you freak out?
or get sad?
do you go home?
or am i reaching?

hey, wait
guess what?
yesterday i stopped and played it safe
instead of walking straight to you
to say "stay"
nevermind, okay
don't mean it
plus you've changed
not much but just enough to throw away

fake fantasies and games
i've lost a year it's strange
come close to hundred ways to tell you
"hey, what if i took your call as more than just a call? as writing on the walls?"
you built this cage
lost colour in my face
you're fair and i'm insane
hallucination, shame, guilt, pain

more pain (don't let them know)
more pain (don't let them know)
more pain (don't let them know)
more pain (don't let them know)

i told you things
that i never said
to anybody else
i regret them
but i'll pack it up and practice leaving

mmm
you were all at once
'til the fade to black
'til the yellow glow
turned a little sad
you were in my hands
but you're good at leaving

10 months ago (edited) | [YT] | 7