Hi everyone. As you have seen, my channel activity has been decreasing constantly during the past 2 years, and it's not like I owe you an explanation, but I just want to tell you what's going on, because I love y'all and this channel, this life project wouldn't be anything without you.
Here we go. I suffer of anxiety and ahdh and my lifestyle doesn't help me fighting it. I always want to create new content, so I open my DAW in order to start making music, and almost always I get overwhelmed by the 5 first minutes of making it. Yes, ahdh also affects people (or at lest me) on hobbies, and anxiety just makes me feel like I'll never be able to finish it, with that unexplainable overwhelming sensation. I then try to continue those projects another day, but again, almost always I have to stop minutes after starting. That's one of the reasons why the upload rhythm has decreased so much, but there's another thing. I don't really have the same illusion for making remixes or music for any kind of project as some time ago, so it's harder to me to not upload anything more than OCs for projects I consider basically my children XD. I just wanted to make you know that, if even I'm not totally OK, I'm always doing my best to survive (kind of) and bring you some great content. I hope you understand my situation and still get ezcited when a new video shows up on your notifications, even if it's once a month. Thanks for reading, I love you all. ❤
RubiVGM
Hi everyone. As you have seen, my channel activity has been decreasing constantly during the past 2 years, and it's not like I owe you an explanation, but I just want to tell you what's going on, because I love y'all and this channel, this life project wouldn't be anything without you.
Here we go. I suffer of anxiety and ahdh and my lifestyle doesn't help me fighting it. I always want to create new content, so I open my DAW in order to start making music, and almost always I get overwhelmed by the 5 first minutes of making it. Yes, ahdh also affects people (or at lest me) on hobbies, and anxiety just makes me feel like I'll never be able to finish it, with that unexplainable overwhelming sensation. I then try to continue those projects another day, but again, almost always I have to stop minutes after starting. That's one of the reasons why the upload rhythm has decreased so much, but there's another thing. I don't really have the same illusion for making remixes or music for any kind of project as some time ago, so it's harder to me to not upload anything more than OCs for projects I consider basically my children XD. I just wanted to make you know that, if even I'm not totally OK, I'm always doing my best to survive (kind of) and bring you some great content. I hope you understand my situation and still get ezcited when a new video shows up on your notifications, even if it's once a month. Thanks for reading, I love you all. ❤
-Rubén
2 years ago | [YT] | 5