John "Joy" Tay

in commemoration of the new collab with rrthiel,

these past few months have been pretty rough for me. i've been dealing with a lot of self-doubt and self-denial in fear of coming off as too arrogant, and my confidence was shot. all my self-sabotaging and people pleasing tendencies started to show up in that time. i could still write music and do it well, but for a while it felt like there wasn't much purpose behind it.

thiel and i working on 'look at me' for 2-ish months and finally releasing publicly made me remember why i was here in the first place. it was never truly about the fame, or the money, as much as i enjoyed these things. i enjoyed working with thiel, as much as we both were busy. we ended up with something that left a mark, and i think that's what matters.

i thank everyone for the support throughout these rough 6-7 years. feel free to listen to the song on thiel's channel!

edit: a lot of stress has built up from me doing freelance work so i have been very particular about how i have been writing music, i want to make a good impression for my clients so i don't let myself slack off haha. though sometimes being good at your job makes you very lonely

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