Hi peeps, hope you're all doing fine. Obviously it's been a hot minute since my last video... I got some good and some bad news in that regard. The good news is that a new video is coming in the next, i don't know, let's just say ~7 days. The bad news is that it's very likely going to be my last video. As a matter of fact i've been trying to finish the upcoming video for the last two years but life just continuously keeps f'ing me over with 2024 certainly being one of the worst years of my life. I lost my dad in march, due to an heart attack that came out of absolutely nowhere, and in november my mum had a heart surgery that completely went to shit and ended up with her needing to be put into an artificial coma. During the coma she went through very critical phases and surgeries, often times with uncertain outcomes, but thankfully she somehow managed to make it through and eventually woke up. Unfortunately only with one third of the heart she was born with because the other two-thirds needed to be replaced with an artificial heart. While this artificial heart is thankfully keeping her alive it sadly ties her to the hospital until she is fit enough to get on an transplant list for a donor heart and it's safe to say that it'll be a long road until she's even fit enough to get on that transplant list, let alone to recieve a donor heart. It goes without saying that the only thing i care about right now is to be with my mum and support her as much as i can and considering the long road she has ahead of her, there's just not a chance in the world that i'll be able to work on a youtube project in the foreseeable future. That's why i decided to upload the mentioned video now, although it isn't completely finished. There are a few things in that video that i would've liked to do different, a few things that i would've liked to smooth out, a thing or two that i would've liked to add but i don't think i need to explain to you that i couldn't give less of a fuck about trivial shit like that right now. Trust me though, the video is going to be up to my usual standards regardless and i'm very confident that you peeps gonna like it. After this video i might actually do one more video. Some type of best moments montage type of shit. A proper closer. I really can't promise if or when i'm going to be able to make that happen though. This is definitely not the time i wanted to put an end to this channel, especially considering all the ideas i still have in my mind but as i've said before : the only thing i care about right now is supporting my mum as much as i can in what's ahead of her. Finally i'd like to thank you peeps for supporting me in whichever form throughout the years. It was always been appreciated and although the circumstances around announcing my retirement from youtube are definitely on the sad side of life don't let the sadness creep too much into the commentary section of my upcoming video. Since it's most likely my final proper youtube project i'd love to see some comments that appreciate the actual content. Of course i'm not going to tell you what to do or what to comment, obviously that's completely up to you, i just wanted to express what i would love to see in the commentary section of this last project. To my twitch friends (you guys know who you are) : Give me some good old twitch reaction content on old mate clockni's new and most likely last youtube vidja, my goodni... Obviously i'm just kidding though. If you guys can make it happen it would be great and if not, it's not the end of the world so don't sweat it. Thank you guys for the dope time we had in the past. Great memories. Alright, i think that's it from my side. Take care everyone and go see your loved ones. You never know what's around the corner...
clockner
Hi peeps, hope you're all doing fine.
Obviously it's been a hot minute since my last video... I got some good and some bad news in that regard. The good news is that a new video is coming in the next, i don't know, let's just say ~7 days. The bad news is that it's very likely going to be my last video. As a matter of fact i've been trying to finish the upcoming video for the last two years but life just continuously keeps f'ing me over with 2024 certainly being one of the worst years of my life.
I lost my dad in march, due to an heart attack that came out of absolutely nowhere, and in november my mum had a heart surgery that completely went to shit and ended up with her needing to be put into an artificial coma. During the coma she went through very critical phases and surgeries, often times with uncertain outcomes, but thankfully she somehow managed to make it through and eventually woke up. Unfortunately only with one third of the heart she was born with because the other two-thirds needed to be replaced with an artificial heart. While this artificial heart is thankfully keeping her alive it sadly ties her to the hospital until she is fit enough to get on an transplant list for a donor heart and it's safe to say that it'll be a long road until she's even fit enough to get on that transplant list, let alone to recieve a donor heart. It goes without saying that the only thing i care about right now is to be with my mum and support her as much as i can and considering the long road she has ahead of her, there's just not a chance in the world that i'll be able to work on a youtube project in the foreseeable future. That's why i decided to upload the mentioned video now, although it isn't completely finished. There are a few things in that video that i would've liked to do different, a few things that i would've liked to smooth out, a thing or two that i would've liked to add but i don't think i need to explain to you that i couldn't give less of a fuck about trivial shit like that right now. Trust me though, the video is going to be up to my usual standards regardless and i'm very confident that you peeps gonna like it. After this video i might actually do one more video. Some type of best moments montage type of shit. A proper closer. I really can't promise if or when i'm going to be able to make that happen though. This is definitely not the time i wanted to put an end to this channel, especially considering all the ideas i still have in my mind but as i've said before : the only thing i care about right now is supporting my mum as much as i can in what's ahead of her.
Finally i'd like to thank you peeps for supporting me in whichever form throughout the years. It was always been appreciated and although the circumstances around announcing my retirement from youtube are definitely on the sad side of life don't let the sadness creep too much into the commentary section of my upcoming video. Since it's most likely my final proper youtube project i'd love to see some comments that appreciate the actual content. Of course i'm not going to tell you what to do or what to comment, obviously that's completely up to you, i just wanted to express what i would love to see in the commentary section of this last project.
To my twitch friends (you guys know who you are) : Give me some good old twitch reaction content on old mate clockni's new and most likely last youtube vidja, my goodni... Obviously i'm just kidding though. If you guys can make it happen it would be great and if not, it's not the end of the world so don't sweat it. Thank you guys for the dope time we had in the past. Great memories.
Alright, i think that's it from my side. Take care everyone and go see your loved ones. You never know what's around the corner...
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