I'm planning on coming back soon because my time away hasn't really been the time away I was looking for 😅
A break from the channel apparently doesn't mean a break from stress and like most things, I can't change that
Love you all to pieces and I'm sorry for the scares recently, I haven't meant to upset anyone or be an asshole, just going through a lot, always am.
If it's one thing I've learnt from my time away is no matter how much you change your perspective on life, it'll never actually change anything. Nobody cares about you or what you do as long as it doesn't effect them.
You can't be a burden to anyone
Throughout my entire lovely little sabbatical, my life has been. I'm in pain.
Can I change it?
No
Can anyone else change it?
No
Does anyone care to?
No
And I've come to accept that, the world is a cruel fucked up place that I wouldn't wish on anyone.
People only express empathy over me because they feel guilty if they don't, and at that point they may as well just cry and get therapy for me too, it changes nothing, it means nothing.
Alternatively they don't express empathy and just abuse you to feel better instead. Means nothing.
I'm completely broken and have been for years, nothing I do can fix that. I've just been trying to distract myself and like always, I will continue to do so, This channel being my continued cycle of that.
On a lighter note, my birthday has been and went, in college but already want to retire! 😅
Had fun, ate some grub and got a little tipsy, but it was okay all around..
Now my family will pay absolutely zero attention to me for the rest of the year and shut me up if I complain about it by deflecting or other means.
Sorry for this dumb sorta vent/update post but I thought you guys kinda deserved an update after quarter of a year... Time goes really fast like holy SHI-
It's probably better I post this though than make my other sorta video's about feeling glum or.. you know..
So yeah. Sorry I've been away so long. Expect me soon but not too soon, maybe a little before or after Halloween. And I sincerely hope your all having a better day than I am rn.
ʍɨʀɛ ֆօʊʟ
Hey I'm alive.. kinda..
I'm planning on coming back soon because my time away hasn't really been the time away I was looking for 😅
A break from the channel apparently doesn't mean a break from stress and like most things, I can't change that
Love you all to pieces and I'm sorry for the scares recently, I haven't meant to upset anyone or be an asshole, just going through a lot, always am.
If it's one thing I've learnt from my time away is no matter how much you change your perspective on life, it'll never actually change anything. Nobody cares about you or what you do as long as it doesn't effect them.
You can't be a burden to anyone
Throughout my entire lovely little sabbatical, my life has been. I'm in pain.
Can I change it?
No
Can anyone else change it?
No
Does anyone care to?
No
And I've come to accept that, the world is a cruel fucked up place that I wouldn't wish on anyone.
People only express empathy over me because they feel guilty if they don't, and at that point they may as well just cry and get therapy for me too, it changes nothing, it means nothing.
Alternatively they don't express empathy and just abuse you to feel better instead. Means nothing.
I'm completely broken and have been for years, nothing I do can fix that. I've just been trying to distract myself and like always, I will continue to do so, This channel being my continued cycle of that.
On a lighter note, my birthday has been and went, in college but already want to retire! 😅
Had fun, ate some grub and got a little tipsy, but it was okay all around..
Now my family will pay absolutely zero attention to me for the rest of the year and shut me up if I complain about it by deflecting or other means.
Sorry for this dumb sorta vent/update post but I thought you guys kinda deserved an update after quarter of a year... Time goes really fast like holy SHI-
It's probably better I post this though than make my other sorta video's about feeling glum or.. you know..
So yeah. Sorry I've been away so long. Expect me soon but not too soon, maybe a little before or after Halloween. And I sincerely hope your all having a better day than I am rn.
Oh and happy spooky season! 💕✨🎃
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