These comments. MY HEART. Honestly I didn't know what to expect posting this and honestly I did fear the worst, but the response here is so kind, so validating and so wholesome. Genuinely moved by the comments and the relief that you've all been so lovely and it's not just been a repeat of the worst things I've heard here is... incredible. Thank you so much for all the kind words of support and encouragement and proving that this is absolutely a place I still want to be!! I am so excited for the new chapter and being able to balance making content here for you all. Thank you so much. <3
1 year ago | 17
Your content is absolutely charming no matter where it lives! Thank you for taking steps to safeguard your health and wellbeing. I'll be sure to give your Twitch a follow.
1 year ago
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Sorry that you've had issues with people on YT in the past. Mental health is so important (speaking as someone who struggles with depression). I am very rarely on Twitch, but I enjoyed your first episode so I will try to make the effort to follow the rest of your adventure over there. Best.
1 year ago
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It's hard to believe that someone as kind and genuine as you gets hurtful comments here, but, unfortunately, I know it happens. You take care of your mental health, stay true to yourself and your fans will understand. I love your humor and desire to play games completely blind so you can experience a new game (new for you, lol) to the fullest.
1 year ago
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Things like this happening to genuine, kind people like you just shows once again that attacks like this aren't anyone's 'fault', some people are just absolute a**holes with lifes so miserable they only feel better by trying to drag others down. Thank you for being so transparent.
1 year ago
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YT sucks at showing Community posts so only just read this after wondering when the next BG3 would arrive. I've given a Follow over on Twitch and appreciate you having a schedule so I know when new content lands. I rarely watch streams live but know that I'm out here, lurking in VoD-land with my hobnobs and enjoying the cheer of your personality. Health and wellbeing first! Looking forward to seeing your journey through the game; I've never seen someone so immersed in their playthrough, it's wonderful. Being yourself is the best thing you can offer us.
1 year ago
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@AlexanderIsOrangeCountyWalking
I used to watch your channel when I used to watch Twitch. Glad to see you’re still around after all this time.
1 year ago | 0
Thanks for being so open with us. I entirely enjoy your content, control chaos and laughter all around never gets old. Much love and respect, Kolo and Pumpkin!!
1 year ago
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You always bring me such joy in all you do on this crazy Internet thinggy, I will gladly watch whatever you manage to upload. Also, never be afraid of being yourself - you are the only person qualified for the job, and you do it exceptionally well. Big Virtual Hugs xx
1 year ago
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Update, 18th March 2025 - Twitch have changed the way their videos work which means... things have changed. I made a video about it here: youtu.be/IUxGUhFNTCs Thank you so much for all the kindness shown in this comment section - I appreciate every one of you <3
8 months ago | 1
Hey Kolo, I haven’t commented before but watched all your content from pretty much day one. It’s so relaxing. You have been hours with me when I was working and you don’t even know about that. Hah fun fact there! Anyway I’ll keep watching wherever you’re going. Take it easy!
1 year ago (edited)
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I've only watched the one Baldur's Gate video of yours so far, but from what I've seen, it's boggling that someone as funny and as sweet and enthusiastic as you seem to be would draw such noxious comments. (Though not wholly surprising; Youtube comments have a reputation for a reason.) I'm glad that you have somewhere where you feel comfortable to keep doing what you do, even if it's not on the site that I personally prefer. When you say your videos will be available for free without a subscription on Twitch, do you mean indefinitely? That's always been one of my hurdles with trying to follow creators on that site (other than the interface being generally less brain-friendly for me)- the fact that I frequently can't go back and re-watch parts of earlier videos, or that if I fail to keep up watching regularly I can end up permanently locked out of seeing part of a series, since it seems like most people only have their most recent content able to be viewed by non-subscribers. I don't know how much you'll see of me beyond this (and maybe future first-in-series vids), since I don't know how often I'll be able to catch you when you're live on Twitch, and I'm much more comfortable leaving comments after a video than I am participating in a live chat, but I definitely want to see more of you, and if your stuff is available long-term and asynchronously I'm absolutely planning on watching.
1 year ago
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Completely understandable! Never feel bad about putting your mental health first - the amount of vitriol on youtube, the internet in general, is enough to drive anyone to madness.
1 year ago
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Twitch is harder to watch the VODs with every android update it seems, but I am excited enough to see your BG3 playthrough to try to catch it live or use the laptop to watch if I have to!
1 year ago | 2
Heyo Kolo, it's camelchild here - i understand where you are coming from, it hurts to know the toxicity of youtube even burned you (as well as the algorithm demands of posting every week). Here's to seeing more of you over on Twitch, I'll be sure to catch you live soon enough. It is inspiring to see you take care of your beautiful, gentle light 🫂
1 year ago
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HelloItsKolo
What's happening on this channel?!
Hi YouTube pals! My BG3 Character creation (episode 0!) will be with you this weekend! In the meantime... here's a lil update to explain what this channel will be used for moving forwards... and why!
Some of you will know that this channel was left abandoned for over a year at one point - the reason for that, to be 100% transparent, is the affect that YouTube has on my mental health. Now don't get me wrong, it's absolutely not all bad! It's been a privilege to be able to upload here, and I have met some incredible people and had some of the most beautiful, kind and wonderful comments a person could ask for. To those of you who have made that happen, thank you so much for making this a much more lovely space to have content on! Please know that you've made it worth it, and I'm very appreciative that you share so much of your time with me. You're the reason I came back; thank you!!
Sadly, it's not always been a positive experience, and taking a break for a year was because it got to a point where the negatives of uploading to YouTube outweighed the positives. After taking some time and coming back, I realised that I do genuinely really want to make content here, I don't want to leave the channel abandoned(!!) but, in order to keep doing that, I do need to change the way I approach YouTube, to ensure I don't end up back in that place where it massively affects me, the negatives of uploading outweigh the positives... and I stop posting. This does mean the way I upload here has changed, and I'm here to be transparent about it.
One of the reasons it's hard to keep up with posting here, is the time and energy (physical, emotional and mental!) it takes to maintain the channel. Another reason is that even when I turn off comments, I'm so aware of some of the abuse I've been subject to here, that knowing that... well, it changes my content style, and it's really hard to not let that happen. The result is that I end up making content where I'm more self protective, anxious and I second guess what I do. It's something I can do occasionally, but this does really make it tricky to be at peace with regularly making content knowing it's going to be uploaded here. When I upload here once every 4-6 weeks, it's manageable for me to be me and make content for you all that feels like me, that feels genuine, and that I'm really proud of! When upload here every week, for example when uploading every episode of a playthrough series... it's no longer manageable. It changes my style and it leaves me making very self protective content; because I'm anxious about those vocal, abusive few who would have me believe they are the majority (they're not!). This is a hugely nuanced thing to explain and I feel very vulnerable explaining it, but I hope this makes enough sense to help folks understand; this is about making sure I can still make content for people, as myself. Genuine content that I feel good about, that connects with people, instead of making content for an algorhythm, and allowing my decisions to be shaped by those vocal few.
This is why, moving forwards, it's likely that only the first episode of new let's play series will be uploaded to YouTube, with the rest of the episodes being available on Twitch; you'll be able to watch for free, you don't need an account, and recordings of live streams are available too so if you can't catch it live, don't worry, you can still watch the recording! YouTube will also get specific videos especially made for here and not seen on Twitch, for example unboxing the PlayStation Access Controller or explaining my foot controller or showing you round my streaming space (those latter two are coming soon!!). The other thing you'll find here will be uploads of a specific moment from a playthrough I think you'll enjoy, for example BG3 character creation, running out of fuel in Elite Dangerous or meeting that big dragon Partysnacks in Skyrim! The reason for playthrough "episodes 2" and beyond will be on Twitch but not YouTube is simply because I don't have the same tricky relationship with Twitch as I do with YouTube; I feel far more able to make that "content for people" there.
It's been tricky to figure out how to do this, as I am desperate to not punish those of you who have met my YouTube uploads with nothing but respect and kindness! But realistically, I've done my best to keep up with entire series on here and regardless of whether comments are on or off, I need to acknowledge the impact it has on me, and this solution is the way I've been able to find that healthy balance, which I'm genuinely really excited about!
I know that Twitch isn't everyone's cup of tea, I totally get that and please know there's never any pressure to hop over to a different platform if you don't want to! You'll absolutely still be able to enjoy uploads here, and even get some content that Twitch doesn't! I think for me it's just important to be honest with you all about the reasoning here, and be as transparent as possible about it all. Mental health is so important, and I'm really grateful that I've found a way to keep the balance.
Thank you so much for reading this long ass post, and thank you so much for your support, and for spending your time with me!
Until next time,
Kolo (and Pumpkin) x
Ps if you're looking for videos on twitch go here, and you'll see all the playlists there! If you are looking for a specific game, you can use the dropdown menu to "filter by: All Videos" and use the box there to search for the game name. If you're stuck, leave me a comment here and I'll help you find what you're looking for! Here's the link: www.twitch.tv/helloitskolo/videos
1 year ago | [YT] | 166