I've had a seasonal job from mid march - mid November and it was 6 days a week, so I didn't have much energy or mental clarity to create new content.
Lots of things happened in the island I was at🏝️ I basically ran my own tinder experiment during that time, saw some interesting things, have lots of stories to tell with educational value.
I have paused the double female gaze package on patreon (face rating by me and 2 girls), for a while now, because I've had a falling out with one of the girls. Nothing major happened, she just ghosted me, apologised, then did it again and that was it. We are still close with the other girl and I might be able to find a 2nd one soon, I'll update you on that.
The channel was also briefly demonetised until i got the ads back, the reason was that my content was mistakenly flagged due to the BP "rhetoric", something that lots of people are not fond of and find offensive. I explained that we mainly talk about men's aesthetics and also 2 women have regularly voiced their opinions here as well, and it was resolved, but it made me feel very insecure about the future.
There's also another thing going on with all the AI channels, YouTube doesn't like them too much, so even mine, where everything is manmade (edit, script, thumbnails etc) except the voice might be in trouble again soon.
I've been gone for a long time and feel rusty. I don't know where to begin. I have lots of new personal stories to share, but I'm afraid of the tiniest possibility that some of the persons involved in those stories find out , take what I say out of context and paint me as the bad guy. I never say real names, but still one could understand if i talk about them by the description. And i want to keep the stories authentic, so if i change them up a bit to throw any potential real life acquaintances off, it won't be the same. So far I didn't care much cause I hadn't shown my face, but now feels a little different...
I'd also like to make content about other things such as self improvement, meditation, mental health, not as some kind of guru, but what has worked for me as a regular guy, maybe take on challenges and show the results etc... To be honest that's what I feel as some kind of purpose, mental health. Talking about noses and jawlines is fun and all, but I feel like mental health is more important. Especially in our little niche, where we try to spot weaknesses and improve them, but we often end up getting obsessed.
That's it for now, I hope I'll make up my mind about what content to create soon enough. Thanks for reading 🙏
New Black
Anybody still here? 😂
It's been a while. I'll try to sum it up quickly.
I've had a seasonal job from mid march - mid November and it was 6 days a week, so I didn't have much energy or mental clarity to create new content.
Lots of things happened in the island I was at🏝️
I basically ran my own tinder experiment during that time, saw some interesting things, have lots of stories to tell with educational value.
I have paused the double female gaze package on patreon (face rating by me and 2 girls), for a while now, because I've had a falling out with one of the girls. Nothing major happened, she just ghosted me, apologised, then did it again and that was it.
We are still close with the other girl and I might be able to find a 2nd one soon, I'll update you on that.
The channel was also briefly demonetised until i got the ads back, the reason was that my content was mistakenly flagged due to the BP "rhetoric", something that lots of people are not fond of and find offensive. I explained that we mainly talk about men's aesthetics and also 2 women have regularly voiced their opinions here as well, and it was resolved, but it made me feel very insecure about the future.
There's also another thing going on with all the AI channels, YouTube doesn't like them too much, so even mine, where everything is manmade (edit, script, thumbnails etc) except the voice might be in trouble again soon.
I've been gone for a long time and feel rusty. I don't know where to begin. I have lots of new personal stories to share, but I'm afraid of the tiniest possibility that some of the persons involved in those stories find out , take what I say out of context and paint me as the bad guy. I never say real names, but still one could understand if i talk about them by the description. And i want to keep the stories authentic, so if i change them up a bit to throw any potential real life acquaintances off, it won't be the same. So far I didn't care much cause I hadn't shown my face, but now feels a little different...
I'd also like to make content about other things such as self improvement, meditation, mental health, not as some kind of guru, but what has worked for me as a regular guy, maybe take on challenges and show the results etc...
To be honest that's what I feel as some kind of purpose, mental health. Talking about noses and jawlines is fun and all, but I feel like mental health is more important. Especially in our little niche, where we try to spot weaknesses and improve them, but we often end up getting obsessed.
That's it for now, I hope I'll make up my mind about what content to create soon enough. Thanks for reading 🙏
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