It's said that to quit drinking is one of the hardest things a person will ever do. No. For me, continuing to drink - fully cognizant of the peril I put my career, marriage, family, self-respect and even freedom at risk....now that was hard. The depression, that feeling of impending doom watching as I shit it all away just completely fucked with my head.
Even after quitting, I'm left with what could have been - how better of a husband, father, Ranger, athlete or student I could have been. If only I had focused on self-development and not the bottle. But at least I can address those dreaded thoughts with a sense of clarity and resolve and not reach for the bottle to make be feel better about myself or my condition.
Nah, quitting alcohol was easy. Living with alcohol was hell. I'm sober enough now to make that distinction.
Faccia Brutta
It's said that to quit drinking is one of the hardest things a person will ever do. No. For me, continuing to drink - fully cognizant of the peril I put my career, marriage, family, self-respect and even freedom at risk....now that was hard. The depression, that feeling of impending doom watching as I shit it all away just completely fucked with my head.
Even after quitting, I'm left with what could have been - how better of a husband, father, Ranger, athlete or student I could have been. If only I had focused on self-development and not the bottle. But at least I can address those dreaded thoughts with a sense of clarity and resolve and not reach for the bottle to make be feel better about myself or my condition.
Nah, quitting alcohol was easy. Living with alcohol was hell. I'm sober enough now to make that distinction.
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