I built my entire life on hustle and grind. On the belief I had to juggle everything, work 24/7, make sure everything was perfect so I could try to outsmart the other shoe dropping….
I never felt like I could rest. Not fully. In the moments where I would time slot myself time off I was constantly doing mental gymnastics over due dates, emails, meetings, contracts, getting back to clients, phone calls, deadlines, organizing my calendar…. My rest was never truly resting it was filled with a mental capacity that was drowning me. & my nervous system? She was running on fumes and a frayed prayer lol
I grew up believing I had to hustle, grind, push, and perform to earn my place. I had to EARN my right to be me. So I became the girl who worked 24/7. The one juggling everything. The one holding the entire world on a nervous system running on E.
Many of you remember that version of me. the one who never took days off, Who over booked, who said yes to everyone, who had no boundaries, Who even did every single bit of paperwork myself because I couldn’t relinquish control to anyone for fear someone would drop the ball I carefully kept spinning at the expense of every last brain cell. I believed burnout was a badge of honor.
And yes… I had success. But it came at the expense of my nervous system and at the expense of my happiness. And ultimately? I found myself in a world of just making it by day to day waiting for something to change. The next milestone in my business would SURELY be what made me happy and bring me peace right? The next pivot would bring me peace. The next plaque would soothe my burnt to a crisp soul. But it never came. Because I never truly knew what the goal was. It wasn’t MORE. It was finding peace, It was taking back my mental capacity I was letting everyone tap into like public WiFi. It was rock solid clarity and boundaries around my time and day that ultimately lead to the desired life I wanted. It wasn’t in a trophy. The trophy was my body in rest, my mind at ease and my happiness being found in the new structure built for me to thrive.
I began noticing the patterns. Why it was so hard for me to give up patterns that sabotaged my health etc. They were all rooted in burn out culture. Endless coffee and dry shooting back pre workout in my 20s to work 3-4 jobs and then push through daily workouts that pushed my body into a cortisol spike that lasted weeks.
I listen to my body now. & work with it.
But here’s the truth no one taught me: Your life expands at the speed your nervous system can receive.
The moment I stopped performing for my worth and started regulating my body, everything shifted.
And my life finally felt like mine.
You are allowed to build a life that doesn’t exhaust you. You are allowed to feel safe in ease. You are allowed to win from a regulated nervous system.
Your success doesn’t require the badge of suffrage city. It requires you rising into the version of you that can hold what you desire with more ease and no collapse.
Celia Cavalli
I built my entire life on hustle and grind.
On the belief I had to juggle everything, work 24/7, make sure everything was perfect so I could try to outsmart the other shoe dropping….
I never felt like I could rest.
Not fully.
In the moments where I would time slot myself time off I was constantly doing mental gymnastics over due dates, emails, meetings, contracts, getting back to clients, phone calls, deadlines, organizing my calendar….
My rest was never truly resting it was filled with a mental capacity that was drowning me.
& my nervous system?
She was running on fumes and a frayed prayer lol
I grew up believing I had to hustle, grind, push, and perform to earn my place.
I had to EARN my right to be me.
So I became the girl who worked 24/7.
The one juggling everything.
The one holding the entire world on a nervous system running on E.
Many of you remember that version of me.
the one who never took days off,
Who over booked,
who said yes to everyone,
who had no boundaries,
Who even did every single bit of paperwork myself because I couldn’t relinquish control to anyone for fear someone would drop the ball I carefully kept spinning at the expense of every last brain cell.
I believed burnout was a badge of honor.
And yes… I had success.
But it came at the expense of my nervous system
and at the expense of my happiness.
And ultimately?
I found myself in a world of just making it by day to day waiting for something to change.
The next milestone in my business would SURELY be what made me happy and bring me peace right?
The next pivot would bring me peace.
The next plaque would soothe my burnt to a crisp soul.
But it never came.
Because I never truly knew what the goal was.
It wasn’t MORE.
It was finding peace,
It was taking back my mental capacity I was letting everyone tap into like public WiFi.
It was rock solid clarity and boundaries around my time and day that ultimately lead to the desired life I wanted.
It wasn’t in a trophy.
The trophy was my body in rest, my mind at ease and my happiness being found in the new structure built for me to thrive.
I began noticing the patterns.
Why it was so hard for me to give up patterns that sabotaged my health etc.
They were all rooted in burn out culture.
Endless coffee and dry shooting back pre workout in my 20s to work 3-4 jobs and then push through daily workouts that pushed my body into a cortisol spike that lasted weeks.
I listen to my body now.
& work with it.
But here’s the truth no one taught me:
Your life expands at the speed your nervous system can receive.
The moment I stopped performing for my worth
and started regulating my body,
everything shifted.
And my life finally felt like mine.
You are allowed to build a life that doesn’t exhaust you.
You are allowed to feel safe in ease.
You are allowed to win from a regulated nervous system.
Your success doesn’t require the badge of suffrage city.
It requires you rising into the version of you that can hold what you desire with more ease and no collapse.
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