The continuation for the 「Ordeal Call Ⅳ -overture-」 summary.
Since this is just fan translations, you might get confused on several things. You can read the official translation when FGONA reaching this main story.
It may contain major spoiler, so read it at your own risk.
Enjoy~
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Irine: "So you found an answer to the task I left you with. What is it?"
Mashu: "---Yes. The emotion I'm feeling is...."
Whenever I see this person, I feel pain somewhere in my heart. I feel my thoughts becoming narrower. Even though my body heat is warm, I feel my sweat strangely cold. I cannot look away from her, but I still feel a urge to avert my eyes.
Her very existence disturbs my heart. After thinking through all of that, I was finally able to give this emotion a name. What kind of emotion does Irene Adler holds towards me?
Mashu: "I... I'm being hated by you. That's the conclusion I've drawn after pondering about it for this past month. I'm not sure if it's the correct answer, though."
Irene: "What, so you're not even sure of it? Did you simply sort that pain through some mechanism to check what matched it best?"
Mashu: "...Is this not good enough?"
Irene: "No, it's not. But well, I guess it can't be helped. This is probably your current limit, so fine. I'll consider your task cleared. And I'll also give you the correct answer to that conclusion. But, let's start with your reward. Kyrielight, listen well."
My true name is Lilith. The woman of storms of Mesopotamia, and the mother of the Lilims. So let's not get along from now on too, okay?
Mashu: "Let's not get along?"
Lilith: "Yep. I hate you, after all."
Mashu: "...So that's really the case."
Lilith: "Yes, I hate you. I truly do so, from the bottom of my heart. The so-called 'you disgust me'. I'll be happy if you get hurt, and I'll be happy if you're sad. I'll feel great if you feel unhappy. I hate your face, your voice, your manner of speaking, your personality. If I had to choose between kissing you and kissing a toilet, I'd choose the latter without a shred of doubt."
Mashu: "Is that because... you hate humanity? And because I am also within that category?"
Lilith: "No, that's wrong, you're mistaken there, completely off the mark."
Lilith: "There's no way I hate humanity. I simply hate you, Kyrielight, as the one individual you are."
Mashu: "Is that so... but why?"
Lilith: "Do you want to know the reason?"
Mashu: "Yes. What led you to hate me? The reason for that is unclear to me. Have I met you before coming to this singularity?"
Lilith: "Completely wrong again. That thing at the beginning was indeed our first meeting."
Mashu: "If that's the case then why---"
Lilith: "However, I know your past. I know all about it. About you being a Demi-Servant. About you being a Designer Baby. About how you're merely acting like a human when you're actually just an automated being."
Mashu: "I'm certainly a Demi-Servant, but...there's no way it's an act that I'm doing...!"
Lilith: "Kyrielight, have you ever thought of 'evil' as despicable? You must've thought before that you have no choice but to fight. You must've thought before that you must correct things. However---"
Have you ever thought that an existence like that mustn't be forgiven?
Mashu: "I..."
Lilith: "This is why you're not a human, Kyrielight. All humans harbors good and evil in a scale, in order to separate things between like and dislike."
Lilith: "If you have 100 humans, you have 100 different scales, and no matter what you put on these scales, they'll wave without balance. If the loved one was evil, then that scale will waver. If the hated one was in the right, then the scale will likewise waver. That's because not a single person has a truly fair balance. However, humans are fine just like that. Uncertain, half-assed, vague, imprecise. That ambiguity itself is the human aspect which I love. Even Ritsuka is the same. His balance is absolutely uncertain. He hates, pities, emphasizes, enrages, forgives, disappoints, lose hope, and each time that happens-----"
Lilith: "The good the and evils of his scales wavered."
Lilith: "This is why, Kyrielight. I am normally fond of Ritsuka. While I did tell many lies, this is definitely not one of them. ...You understand that, don't you?"
Mashu: "Yes, I do."
Lilith: "However, your scales are different."
Mashu: "My scales..."
Lilith: "Your scales are one worthy of scorn and disgust. That's because they don't move. They won't move no matter what's put into them. No matter what kind of evildoer you come across, your balance of good and evil doesn't move at all, and you never hate anyone. And that---it's extremely ugly. So ugly that I hate it."
Mashu: "...Is that really wrong?"
Lilith: "Are you thinking that it's not wrong?"
Mashu: "...No, that's..."
Lilith: "......Ahahaha! That's right. That's why I hate you. Kyrielight."
Mashu: "Yes? ...!!"
Lilith: "Humans sometimes push their ideals into someone else, don't they. I want them to become a child like this. I want to be a parent like this. A king, a hero like this. I wish that you may remain lively. I wish that you may remain clean. I wish that you may remain obedient. I wish that you may remain tough. I wish that you may remain clear. I wish that you may remain clever. I wish----that you may remain pure forever."
Mashu: "......."
Lilith: "Most humans add some few concessions to their perceptions of each other and accept it that way. I wish that you may remain lively, but you're feeling down so it can't be helped. I wish that you may remain obedient, but you have an objective so it can't be helped."
Lilith: "-----I wish you may stay as a sinless being; perhaps that may have been Chaldea's feelings. However, what's the reason that made you go along with it and remained pure? Even though you had many, countless opportunities to be born anew amidst this long, really long journey..."
Mashu: "I!! I... to think about staying pure... I didn't..."
Lilith: "You did, didn't you?"
Mashu: "There's no way... you could know something like that... Lilith-san..."
Lilith: "But, I do know. You are using that shield, after all."
Mashu: "Ah...."
Lilith: "It doesn't matter what kind of functional errors it may be occurring, as long as you're still using that shield, that will be the evidence that you're pure. This is why, Kyrielight, you haven't shouldered the sin of erasing the Lostbelts, or not even a single person. The problem isn't that you've erased the Lostbelts. Your sin, your pureness, is that you don't even try to shoulder that sin."
Lilith: "-----You absolutely won't be able to leave this Singularity. Do you understand now?"
Mashu: "Lilith-san?"
Lilith: "Ah, right right, you don't need to worry about it. Things like opposing Chaldea, or killing your Master, I don't really think about things like that, you see. I simply hate you. That's all."
Lilith: "That's why, if I were to kill someone, then it'll definitely be you. Or maybe I should go kill your Master, actually. If it's to piss you off, then I can do that much."
Mashu: "-----That is the one thing I won't allow, no matter what."
Lilith: "Hahaha! There you go again, acting like you're angry, that doesn't suit you at all."
Lilith: "-----Even if your Master's head were to be chopped off, you wouldn't despise the one who did it. You won't come to hate them. Even if you may perform some logical criticism, you won't allow yourself to give in to some emotional rampage."
Lilith: "So naive, so naive. Really, it makes me want to puke. But I'll forgive you, since I'm really magnanimous, you see. From here on, I will keep getting in your way. I will become an obstacle, a wall. I have no idea whether I can win or not. And I don't care. I'll do it."
Lilith: "If you incite your Master to be your ally in this then you can win without a doubt. It would be a pity for me, though. But well, in that case---I will use every remaining ounce of strength I have to cut off his head and put an end to it. You'll be able to win and solve things, and I'll be able to get one shot back at you. And Ritsuka will also end up not needing to suffer any further. It would end up well for all three of us, wouldn't it?"
Mashu: "I won't... permit that...!"
Lilith: "IF YOU SAY YOU WON'T PERMIT THAT! Then this will be a battle between only the two of us. A battle where we cannot forgive each other's existence. A kill-or-be-killed without any room for negotiation. ---Do you accept?"
Mashu: "...Yes."
Lilith: "Okay~ Don't worry, what I said just now was just a joke. Killing the Master, right? I wouldn't do anything that cruel, would I. Only if you can promise to fight all alone, that is."
Mashu: "I know. Lilith-sa... or rather, you are that kind of person."
Lilith: "Don't you dare glare at me, defective human. Get lost already."
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TL:DR: Lilith explained that every human has their own "scale," in which they judge what is right and wrong, what do they like and hate, and so on. The crux of their decision-making and how their emotion swings. The moral compass, so to speak.
Mashu's, however, does not possess that. She remained "Innocent" in a sense that her "scale" never moves towards any direction meaningfully. She would never truly hate anyone from the bottom of her heart, no matter how despicable the person she's facing might be. And Lilith hates that about Mashu, how she continues to be "Innocent" despite having so many chances to change throughout her long journey.
Perhaps that's what they meant with the whole "Mashu will only be judged once she's aware of her own sin." She's still sinful for the Lostbelt genocide, but unlike Ritsuka who does feel the weight of such an act, Mashu only "logically" feel it, not "emotionally."
Raizu Stash
The continuation for the 「Ordeal Call Ⅳ -overture-」 summary.
Since this is just fan translations, you might get confused on several things.
You can read the official translation when FGONA reaching this main story.
It may contain major spoiler, so read it at your own risk.
Enjoy~
===========
........
Irine: "So you found an answer to the task I left you with. What is it?"
Mashu: "---Yes. The emotion I'm feeling is...."
Whenever I see this person, I feel pain somewhere in my heart. I feel my thoughts becoming narrower. Even though my body heat is warm, I feel my sweat strangely cold. I cannot look away from her, but I still feel a urge to avert my eyes.
Her very existence disturbs my heart. After thinking through all of that, I was finally able to give this emotion a name. What kind of emotion does Irene Adler holds towards me?
Mashu: "I... I'm being hated by you. That's the conclusion I've drawn after pondering about it for this past month. I'm not sure if it's the correct answer, though."
Irene: "What, so you're not even sure of it? Did you simply sort that pain through some mechanism to check what matched it best?"
Mashu: "...Is this not good enough?"
Irene: "No, it's not. But well, I guess it can't be helped. This is probably your current limit, so fine. I'll consider your task cleared. And I'll also give you the correct answer to that conclusion. But, let's start with your reward. Kyrielight, listen well."
My true name is Lilith. The woman of storms of Mesopotamia, and the mother of the Lilims. So let's not get along from now on too, okay?
Mashu: "Let's not get along?"
Lilith: "Yep. I hate you, after all."
Mashu: "...So that's really the case."
Lilith: "Yes, I hate you. I truly do so, from the bottom of my heart. The so-called 'you disgust me'. I'll be happy if you get hurt, and I'll be happy if you're sad. I'll feel great if you feel unhappy. I hate your face, your voice, your manner of speaking, your personality. If I had to choose between kissing you and kissing a toilet, I'd choose the latter without a shred of doubt."
Mashu: "Is that because... you hate humanity? And because I am also within that category?"
Lilith: "No, that's wrong, you're mistaken there, completely off the mark."
Lilith: "There's no way I hate humanity. I simply hate you, Kyrielight, as the one individual you are."
Mashu: "Is that so... but why?"
Lilith: "Do you want to know the reason?"
Mashu: "Yes. What led you to hate me? The reason for that is unclear to me. Have I met you before coming to this singularity?"
Lilith: "Completely wrong again. That thing at the beginning was indeed our first meeting."
Mashu: "If that's the case then why---"
Lilith: "However, I know your past. I know all about it. About you being a Demi-Servant. About you being a Designer Baby. About how you're merely acting like a human when you're actually just an automated being."
Mashu: "I'm certainly a Demi-Servant, but...there's no way it's an act that I'm doing...!"
Lilith: "Kyrielight, have you ever thought of 'evil' as despicable? You must've thought before that you have no choice but to fight. You must've thought before that you must correct things. However---"
Have you ever thought that an existence like that mustn't be forgiven?
Mashu: "I..."
Lilith: "This is why you're not a human, Kyrielight. All humans harbors good and evil in a scale, in order to separate things between like and dislike."
Lilith: "If you have 100 humans, you have 100 different scales, and no matter what you put on these scales, they'll wave without balance. If the loved one was evil, then that scale will waver. If the hated one was in the right, then the scale will likewise waver. That's because not a single person has a truly fair balance. However, humans are fine just like that. Uncertain, half-assed, vague, imprecise. That ambiguity itself is the human aspect which I love. Even Ritsuka is the same. His balance is absolutely uncertain. He hates, pities, emphasizes, enrages, forgives, disappoints, lose hope, and each time that happens-----"
Lilith: "The good the and evils of his scales wavered."
Lilith: "This is why, Kyrielight. I am normally fond of Ritsuka. While I did tell many lies, this is definitely not one of them. ...You understand that, don't you?"
Mashu: "Yes, I do."
Lilith: "However, your scales are different."
Mashu: "My scales..."
Lilith: "Your scales are one worthy of scorn and disgust. That's because they don't move. They won't move no matter what's put into them. No matter what kind of evildoer you come across, your balance of good and evil doesn't move at all, and you never hate anyone. And that---it's extremely ugly. So ugly that I hate it."
Mashu: "...Is that really wrong?"
Lilith: "Are you thinking that it's not wrong?"
Mashu: "...No, that's..."
Lilith: "......Ahahaha! That's right. That's why I hate you. Kyrielight."
Mashu: "Yes? ...!!"
Lilith: "Humans sometimes push their ideals into someone else, don't they. I want them to become a child like this. I want to be a parent like this. A king, a hero like this. I wish that you may remain lively. I wish that you may remain clean. I wish that you may remain obedient. I wish that you may remain tough. I wish that you may remain clear. I wish that you may remain clever. I wish----that you may remain pure forever."
Mashu: "......."
Lilith: "Most humans add some few concessions to their perceptions of each other and accept it that way. I wish that you may remain lively, but you're feeling down so it can't be helped. I wish that you may remain obedient, but you have an objective so it can't be helped."
Lilith: "-----I wish you may stay as a sinless being; perhaps that may have been Chaldea's feelings. However, what's the reason that made you go along with it and remained pure? Even though you had many, countless opportunities to be born anew amidst this long, really long journey..."
Mashu: "I!! I... to think about staying pure... I didn't..."
Lilith: "You did, didn't you?"
Mashu: "There's no way... you could know something like that... Lilith-san..."
Lilith: "But, I do know. You are using that shield, after all."
Mashu: "Ah...."
Lilith: "It doesn't matter what kind of functional errors it may be occurring, as long as you're still using that shield, that will be the evidence that you're pure. This is why, Kyrielight, you haven't shouldered the sin of erasing the Lostbelts, or not even a single person. The problem isn't that you've erased the Lostbelts. Your sin, your pureness, is that you don't even try to shoulder that sin."
Lilith: "-----You absolutely won't be able to leave this Singularity. Do you understand now?"
Mashu: "Lilith-san?"
Lilith: "Ah, right right, you don't need to worry about it. Things like opposing Chaldea, or killing your Master, I don't really think about things like that, you see. I simply hate you. That's all."
Lilith: "That's why, if I were to kill someone, then it'll definitely be you. Or maybe I should go kill your Master, actually. If it's to piss you off, then I can do that much."
Mashu: "-----That is the one thing I won't allow, no matter what."
Lilith: "Hahaha! There you go again, acting like you're angry, that doesn't suit you at all."
Lilith: "-----Even if your Master's head were to be chopped off, you wouldn't despise the one who did it. You won't come to hate them. Even if you may perform some logical criticism, you won't allow yourself to give in to some emotional rampage."
Mashu: "...You're wrong! You're wrong, that's... I...! You... Lilith-san...!"
Lilith: "So naive, so naive. Really, it makes me want to puke. But I'll forgive you, since I'm really magnanimous, you see. From here on, I will keep getting in your way. I will become an obstacle, a wall. I have no idea whether I can win or not. And I don't care. I'll do it."
Lilith: "If you incite your Master to be your ally in this then you can win without a doubt. It would be a pity for me, though. But well, in that case---I will use every remaining ounce of strength I have to cut off his head and put an end to it. You'll be able to win and solve things, and I'll be able to get one shot back at you. And Ritsuka will also end up not needing to suffer any further. It would end up well for all three of us, wouldn't it?"
Mashu: "I won't... permit that...!"
Lilith: "IF YOU SAY YOU WON'T PERMIT THAT! Then this will be a battle between only the two of us. A battle where we cannot forgive each other's existence. A kill-or-be-killed without any room for negotiation. ---Do you accept?"
Mashu: "...Yes."
Lilith: "Okay~ Don't worry, what I said just now was just a joke. Killing the Master, right? I wouldn't do anything that cruel, would I. Only if you can promise to fight all alone, that is."
Mashu: "I know. Lilith-sa... or rather, you are that kind of person."
Lilith: "Don't you dare glare at me, defective human. Get lost already."
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TL:DR:
Lilith explained that every human has their own "scale," in which they judge what is right and wrong, what do they like and hate, and so on. The crux of their decision-making and how their emotion swings. The moral compass, so to speak.
Mashu's, however, does not possess that. She remained "Innocent" in a sense that her "scale" never moves towards any direction meaningfully. She would never truly hate anyone from the bottom of her heart, no matter how despicable the person she's facing might be. And Lilith hates that about Mashu, how she continues to be "Innocent" despite having so many chances to change throughout her long journey.
Perhaps that's what they meant with the whole "Mashu will only be judged once she's aware of her own sin." She's still sinful for the Lostbelt genocide, but unlike Ritsuka who does feel the weight of such an act, Mashu only "logically" feel it, not "emotionally."
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To be continued...
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