You know what you want to do and you try to do it but you can't do it when you feel that your life is being disregarded. I want to lose weight and live a healthy life but we can't afford it. All we can afford are TV dinners, sweets, chips but it just makes me think that my body is gonna get worse from here. I try to stick to a strict diet but it comes back to kick me in the ass when my parents come home from the grocery store with milk and cookies and other things such as chicken patties, pizza rolls, ramen noodles, ice cream, burger patties, mac n cheese, Totino's Party Pizza, Market Side Pizza, cereal and juices that look healthy but are just so sweet it feels like artificial juice. We do have canned green beans, peas, rice and beans but it's not enough to help me lose weight. I feel bad because it feels like I have no other choice but to eat it. I have been told not to eat the food just because it's there. I get it, but it feels harder each time I try not to. I wish there was some kind of fairy dust to make my body a little slim but not bony skinny but a healthy looking body. Most of the time I don't even look at myself with disgust but I am aware that I need to make a change in my life and make it happen now. But it's hard to get that help when you're a 2024 graduate living under my parents' roof waiting to move into the promised apartment. I even remember telling my mom that I am fat and she tells me "No, you're not." It feels like she's trying to tell me to lie to myself. I know saying I'm fat feels like I'm degrading myself, but it's true. I am obese and I can admit that. But it feels like my Mom can't see that. I love her to death but I blame her.
Valkery
You know what you want to do and you try to do it but you can't do it when you feel that your life is being disregarded. I want to lose weight and live a healthy life but we can't afford it. All we can afford are TV dinners, sweets, chips but it just makes me think that my body is gonna get worse from here. I try to stick to a strict diet but it comes back to kick me in the ass when my parents come home from the grocery store with milk and cookies and other things such as chicken patties, pizza rolls, ramen noodles, ice cream, burger patties, mac n cheese, Totino's Party Pizza, Market Side Pizza, cereal and juices that look healthy but are just so sweet it feels like artificial juice. We do have canned green beans, peas, rice and beans but it's not enough to help me lose weight. I feel bad because it feels like I have no other choice but to eat it. I have been told not to eat the food just because it's there. I get it, but it feels harder each time I try not to. I wish there was some kind of fairy dust to make my body a little slim but not bony skinny but a healthy looking body. Most of the time I don't even look at myself with disgust but I am aware that I need to make a change in my life and make it happen now. But it's hard to get that help when you're a 2024 graduate living under my parents' roof waiting to move into the promised apartment. I even remember telling my mom that I am fat and she tells me "No, you're not." It feels like she's trying to tell me to lie to myself. I know saying I'm fat feels like I'm degrading myself, but it's true. I am obese and I can admit that. But it feels like my Mom can't see that. I love her to death but I blame her.
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