It’s been almost two years since the last Loop SMP stream. I think about it more than I probably should.
Fans still ask about it like it was yesterday. I don’t know how to explain that I miss terribly and can’t go back at the same time. Because I miss it, I really do. Not just the server, but the feeling of being present in those moments, creating stories together in real time while we played games and laughed out loud. I’ve tried to recapture that magic in writing, but it’ll never be the same.
Some friendships from that era are still alive. Others exist only in fan art now, gone, and that’s haunting in a way that I can’t describe. Sometimes, I see artwork of myself standing with people I haven’t seen in years. It feels like I’m looking at pictures of a ghost. There’s a part of me that hopes one day we’ll finally reconnect- gather everybody into one big call and just talk for hours. It’s hard to cope with the fact that this won’t happen, no matter how badly I wish it would.
I’m chasing my dreams to become a cartoonist, working too much, probably being a terrible friend in the process. But I’m learning that you can be grateful for something and still grieve what it became.
Some of the best people I’ve ever known came from that server, and I’m grateful for every moment we shared. Things change, people drift, life gets complicated- but I’ll never forget what we built together, even if I can only visit it in memory now.
Thank you for still caring about something I can’t quite let go of either. 💚💜
^^ To see additional artwork w/ credits tagged, please go to my Instagram page.
Rainbott
It’s been almost two years since the last Loop SMP stream. I think about it more than I probably should.
Fans still ask about it like it was yesterday. I don’t know how to explain that I miss terribly and can’t go back at the same time. Because I miss it, I really do. Not just the server, but the feeling of being present in those moments, creating stories together in real time while we played games and laughed out loud. I’ve tried to recapture that magic in writing, but it’ll never be the same.
Some friendships from that era are still alive. Others exist only in fan art now, gone, and that’s haunting in a way that I can’t describe. Sometimes, I see artwork of myself standing with people I haven’t seen in years. It feels like I’m looking at pictures of a ghost. There’s a part of me that hopes one day we’ll finally reconnect- gather everybody into one big call and just talk for hours. It’s hard to cope with the fact that this won’t happen, no matter how badly I wish it would.
I’m chasing my dreams to become a cartoonist, working too much, probably being a terrible friend in the process. But I’m learning that you can be grateful for something and still grieve what it became.
Some of the best people I’ve ever known came from that server, and I’m grateful for every moment we shared. Things change, people drift, life gets complicated- but I’ll never forget what we built together, even if I can only visit it in memory now.
Thank you for still caring about something I can’t quite let go of either. 💚💜
^^ To see additional artwork w/ credits tagged, please go to my Instagram page.
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