Invidious

ahEM AHEM-

[LONG STORY SHORT: IM BACK, I WILL TRY TO POST ATLEAST TWICE A MONTH, I'M SO SORRY FOR DISAPPEARING BUT APPARENTLY I HAVE THE WILL AND HEALTH OF A SICKLY VICTORIAN CHILD, IF ANYONE IS INTERESTED I WILL POST STUFF UNRELATED TO PLAYLISTS AS WELL (perhaps on a separate account/platform)?? I MISS READING EVERYONE'S COMMENTS 😭😭😭, WE HATE EXAMS CHAT]

For those who don't mind wasting their time at my giant yapping:

Exams are kicking me in the ass, mental and physical health dipped for a bit, but hey I'm ALIVE (aka I'm so done with studying that it has led me back to youtube. Professional procrastinator fr fr )

I know I sort of disappeared for like- a year. A lot of things were going on in personal life and youtube wasn't letting me post for a while (along with blocking videos), so for a period of time I decided to give up on youtube all together.

However, I checked my inbox today and a lot of comments were wishing for me to come back. I found them so sweet that I just had try to post again, so I'm really grateful for everyone's support 🥲 I've seen some notifications before, but I tried to put it at the back of my mind because I knew if I read them I would come running back LMAO.

I know I just make playlists and that's nothing really special, but I love listening to music and it's been great to share it with so many people. Even if engagement won't be as high as before, I honestly don't care. Reading people's comments and stories make my day so much and I would love to do it again.

Academic-wise, I still have a lot to do (gotta farm for that CV so I can get a j-j-j-job *gasp* in the future), but I'll try to post weekly/bi-weekly starting from now if I can get verified and deal with the copyright accusations from yt TvT

I'm sure most of my subscribers are here for music recommendations and such, but if you guys are interested in other things that I do (eg. an art account), I'd be willing to share!

A little vulnerable yapping:

At the peak of my account growth, I was really happy but still quite scared of having a bigger following than I could have ever imagined, as I only decided to start this account for fun (it's been 4 years, crazy). From running this account 'just for fun' to being worried about views and pleasing others; I think that mindset also took a toll on me. Adding to that, I was quite young when I started this account. When people disliked something I posted, I found myself scared or pressured because at the time I wasn't sure how to deal with it.

After a break and while on the brink of abandoning this account all together, I realized that the SIZE of engagement didn't really matter. It's incredible to have 84 000+ subscribers, but I should be doing this like I have from the beginning: For fun. To make playlists that people resonate with and make daily activities or emotions a little easier to bear with for anyone listening. I don't mind taking requests, but I hope it's understandable that I won't do all of them, and only those I think will appeal well with the public (or that I personally like).

This has been a really sweet community, and I would love to get closer to you guys by sharing more about myself. For a long time , the fear of having my identity disliked has always been a weak point of mine. Again, I don't actually expect anyone to be reading my heck load of yapping (because I just put playlists together after all), but I'd really like to get it off my chest! Thank you again for those who have been listening to my playlists. It may not seem like much, but it's really wholesome to see people enjoy music together.

Also, my aliven't ass coming back from the dead:

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@AylerUnit

Second channel name Deadn't

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